2minuteblogging.

ok ok... i got 2 mins to blog.
its my self-allocated breaktime
from all the Math work ive been mugging.
BEEEEEEEEEG sigh.

hvnt blogged in a few days.
its been tiring.
totally.
megg, i HAVE to update u.
URGH.
theres smth bout me n indos.
heehee.megggiiiiie darlinkkkk.
oh wells...
its been more than jst exciting.
its also been badddd.
shant comment further.
but fer once,i'll listen to u.
alrite?
i reallllllie miss out alot in math ESP since i stone in class.
=S
so...shall get back to math A now.
wheeeee.
and NOo.... i din fail my Smaths test.
quite commendable tho....=))))

wadever it is....
im leaving it bhind.
take a stroll down memory lane.
but i wont stop to reminisce.
cus' it has gone,
aint coming backk.
my past---
my favorite enemy.

mood= happy

fer once. urghhh
feels good.

rach is ha-ha-happyyyyyy today.
-nods nods-
yes.
thnks to *youuu.
made my day.

gosh. this is the 1st time in ages
since a prob has been resolved.
YAY!!!
and it jst feels so damn good
to be frens again.
feels like ilu.

=) thanks rol.

(btw, noOo.... a guy din mk my day.
so no worries.
u din miss out on much =/)
lOl.

being happie,
i skipped dw to melb central after mass
to buy my mum a beeeeeeg mothers day card to send to the U.S.
and also perfume.
took my 2 freakin hours to choose a scent -.-
chose Escada, Magnetism.
i wanted D&G fer mummy,
but knowing her,
she'll complain bout the outlook of the bottle
=S
so aniway....
i dunno y.
but suddenly, spending so much on mummy
is so worth it.
like i din use to buy my mum anitink till her bday last time.
but now,
i can buy her one ting monthly
and not even have to think twice.
no doubt,
its signs of missing my mother.
too much too many times.
i cant go US cus i got school to finish.
this mks tings worse.
so ... i hv to bear with living as if i hv a mum taking care of me
whilst my life and thots waste away
with the sands of time.

(((=*( mummy,
i reallllllllly loveeeeeee you.)))

also. a beeeg shoutout to Nick muah *ahem bf,
(haha or so he claims)
enjoy yourself but PLS dunt go back to the past road
and mk da same mistakes okie?
and its not true,
everyone IS loved by SOMEONE in the werlddd.
ure not alone okie?
mwahhhs.

to megG: call me or smth woman!!!
update update.
love with ur heart,
not ur eyes.
ignore wq.
and if it doesnt work,
jst L.O.v.E.
ilu most still. wahahha

mood= happy

im nt supposed to be.

`` im nt supposed to be``

nt suppsed to be here.
nt suppsed to love you.
nt suppsed to watch you sleep.
(even if i love you)
nt suppsed to do this.
nt suppsed to miss you.
nt suppsed to call you
(even if i need you)

im nt suppsed to be here.
nt suppsed to try.
im nt suppsed to stay here.
(even if i cry)


my own poem. ok ok.
more like a reminisce.
a sudden urge to say it.
ya noe?
sometimes at nite.
or even while ure alone.
u jst wanna say smth out.
even if it dun rhyme.
u jst wanna say smth.
SMTH.
=/
today i woke at 3pm.
WOW.
wads newwwww.
so...
im gonna study the wholeeeeee day today.
wheeee.
pray fer me pls.
i reallie need this.

okay okay

dint do my presentation today.
com lag.
soooo gotta do on tues.
sighs.
whack the blardie nite to finish it.
darnnnnnnit.
anyway...

linn:: babe. im so sorry
dunt be disappointed or anitink.
gosh** im sucha screw up.
hope u noe im reallieeeeee sorry i din plan everytink rite.
but u noe what,
i WILL see you soon. =*)

anyway...
today was bad.
physics was badddddddddd.
chem was good tho. pouts-
english was shittttt boring.
maths A was also badddd.
and S maths.... urghhhhhhhhhhh.
so tough!!
=(((((((

talking to megg on the fone.
loveeeeeeee ya babeh~!
wheee.
gd luck fer ur test.
and i miss ualot alot darl.
mwahhhhhs
i stil do!!!!

gtg. gg to watch a soccer match now.
yay. i bet on Yellow Submarines.
YAY. win or i'll kick arses tonite.
=P

guilty.

yes.
rach has lost her key. the ONLY room key.
plus her kitchen locker key.
PLUS her pinkk ripcurl chain.
urghhhh

sighs.
1st record of losing keys in Melb.
more to come i figure.
also,
its the 4th fcukin time i lost my dinner card.
WOW rach.
good on ya.
wad can i say... =S

oh yeas. SMaths was alrite
hope i pass well.
ohhhh. tmr is outdoor soccer.
no. im nt playing.
but i bet on the Yellow SubmarineS!!!
dun die on me dudes.
dunt SINK.
lol.
well.... agst the orange boys.
urghs. tight challenge. im sure to lose!!!
but i noe rosdi will careful -winks-
=D

ok ok. no more bullshitting.
gonna go down n pay a FINE fer losing a fcukhead key.
lol.
oh i miss B.!
thanks fer ur email hunney wunney.
with so much love,
mwahhhhhhhs.

oh n i booked to go perth in june.
which means.... nt gg spore animore!!
=( but at least i get to c tiffany!!! n jayne!!
woooooohooooooo.
cus my family is gg there to c a hse.
n i WANNA c the twinnies n kiddos!!!
i miss u guys totally~!

love love.

.d.i.s.a.p.p.o.i.n.t.e.d.

omg.
meggs.
update.
read some blogs.
uhhhhhh.
after all the shit we go thru.
after leaving the shits bhind.
i still see you.
urghh.

MEG! i mustttt tell u some stuffs babe.
this is totally screwwin'.
shldve gone to Russia or UAE or smth
lol.
i miss mummy alot.
no. real mummy.
i wannnnnnnA see her!!
its been few years since i last saw her smile.
i stil feel it.
gleaming at me.
mummmmyyy.
uRgHhh.

ok nunhood here i come!!

im hving this feeling.
a... tight feeling.
when everytink i left bhind comes to haunt me.
over, whut, a small matter.
SO whuuuut.
im nt out to get you.
leave me alone.

prayers.
dunt they work animore?
=/
leave with style puhleasseee.
*beggggggs*
i cant live n study with this constantly buggin me.
stains the conscience.
blinds the view.

i'll listen to what linn told me b4.
ignore.
gooood one, my one n only!! =)
urghh.
even your fren wld tell me to ignore.
sighs.*

im nt pissed at this.
nt annoyed even.
jst disappointed in myself.
hafta mk such a stain in mie life.
God. be kind.
vallyyyyyyyyy. miss u too
mwahhhhs.
and as fer you.
s.o.r.r.y alrite?

(i still ct believe -the other you- wld be sucha backpiercing mdm.
urghhhh.. after ALL the stuffs i tried to do fer u.
oh pppppppls dunt say thanks when u DUNT mean it.
hurts to noe ure like that)

wheeeeeees.

wheeee.
k... firstly, thk u all fer ur taggies waggies.
=)
thks meggs,
vally, sar n all.
thks belly fer another private entry.
ilu belly! mwahhs**

sch seems to b starting fer most.
hope Poly life rockkkkkk.
i'll keep praying fer u peeps.
aiight?
=/
sch was alrite.
a new term,
new week,
new chance.
gonna put my soul into this .
n fer the rest of the year.
med here i come!! =D
hopefully dis spirit doesnt die off.

yes.
im dying w so many tests n crap.
math A
Specialist math
English Presentation
Chemistry.
lmao.
only physics is left unsaid.
so are my thots.

yes!!!
ppl listen to Michael buble's song
"home"
reallllllly sweet. sad tune.
anyhow,
gonna do work.
i miss so many of u now.
i wish i cld say some tings to you.
but the words aint coming out rite.
i wish i cld do some tings fer you.
but the moves aint touching you.

another summer day
has come n gone away
in paris and rome
n i wanna go home

mayb surrounded by a million ppl
and i still feel all alone
jst wanna go home
i miss you, you know

ive been keeping all the letters that
i wrote to you
each one a line or two
im fine baby,hw r u?
i wld send them but i know its jst nt enuf
my words are cold n flat
n u deserve more than that

another aeroplane
another sunny place
im lucky i know
but i wanna go home
gotta go home

let me go home
im jst too far from where u are.
i wanna come home

i feel jst like im living someone else's life
its like i jst stepped outside
when everything was going right
n i know jst why
you could not come with me
but this was not your dream
but you always believed in me.

Another winter day
has come And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
-michael buble's Home

........

*** check out my new pics i updated.
its on my newwww hair style pls.
lOl.***

btw,
i hv short dyed-ash hair
omgg.
u noe wad. i tink some pple look so hot in it.
butttt then, someone impt told me i looked like fcuk.
therefore,
i dun like my hairrrrr.
hahha lol.
n wyn says i look like carol's hair!!
(which is a gd ting cus she's ohsoooooohot!!)
but then agn,
i wanna look like BINNY.
the retarded binny.
LOL. okok i jst insulted myself. darnnnnnnn
anione noes how to mk hair grow realllllllllll quick?
pls save a soul.

i tot that chopping my hair will let me start anew.
cut off all the unpleasant ends.
nahhhhhs. jst got me feeling annoyed at the state of myself.
left bhind.

gone like the wind.

ok update update.
pls.

life isnt good at all.
lemme tell u bout my embarassing ydae
=S

we went Castle.
its high time clubbing.
i drank 7 "151"s
2 vodka shots
3 guiness stout.
no one told me u ct mix beer with shots.
eeeeeek.
so i got high n den DRUNk
big time dude.
i started crawling all over.
n i puked a total of 9 times in the club
the bouncer chased me out
n carried me =/
i cried ALOT
n screamed alot.
i fought with gerry over dunno-wat oso.
i told kris n michelle to fuck off.
n i called naoki (some jap cutie)
i forced him to like me (fer some reason)
n shouted at him.
nw he's MAJOR pissed with me n refuses to talk to me.
im ashamed.

anyway...
i danced so much b4 i was drunk.
after that....
i cldnt walk. i kept puking.
kept crying fer hours.
shahid (the best bro dude!!!) hugged me fer 3 hrs running.
n somehw,
he was the ONLY one i allowed to touch me at all.
anyway....
it sucked.
its so embarassing.
somemore every ard was like asking my frens if i needed someone to carry me.
obvious JERKS.
anyway...
my jeans was falling TOO low,
my tube top was falling too low too.
n the tube bottom was getting too high.
so i looked naked.
im sorry shahid fer puking all over u .
n breaking ur back with my fatty weight.
im sorry gerry fer literally fighting with you
n attempting to punch youuuuu.
im sorry arif, omar, trilly, helen, pratab, hanson
fer being sucha loser.
n embarassing u all.
im reallllllllly sorry naoki.
i hp u ate the food i bot specially fer u.
n i hp u will let me explain jst ONE min.
i really hope u noe u mean alotttttt to me.

i m hopeless dudettes.
i promise nv to drink agn.
i ruined my life in a nite.
ONE nite was all it took to break 11 frenships.
i din mean to.
sorrie.
n i heard many pple confessing to me.
WHOAAAAa.
n if it even helps,
i must say,
i DUN rembr anitink.
all i noe is shahid n michelle telling me bout last nite.
n waking up in Nick's apartment.
im really sorrie fer all the puking n stuffs.
i cant explain the shit im facing now.

slacked today.
by sleeping overtime
=S
wells....
i hate this hols.
screwed up.
shall start anew TODAY.
i swear.
march n april intake pple r coming in this week
so all i c is luggage and unfrenly faces.
shall say hi laters.
=)

anyway,
im talking to tiffany now.
shes in perth.
gosh it feels like jst yday
whn ive seen her face.
goshhhhhhh.
anyway...
im gonna study now.
NO distractions pls.
thk u very much.
pray fer my tests n presentations
next weeeeek!!!!
=)

i hv a wishlist.
again.
i want my 4.0megapixel digicam!!
i dunt care.
i cant believe i hv to resort to using a HP to tk pics.
sighs.
relacccccccccc-
anyway...
i WILL get it.
hmpf.
-ppppouts-

hw can u just walk out the door.

its tuesday.
i started this week off badddddd again.
so wrong.
i shld hv listened to shahid.
i din.
nw becky has left.
and im here to get started on work!!!
yay.
rachel is gonna start anew.
n just as i told myself that,
gerry comes in drunk again.
n i took him in.
i helped him.
and did everythink frm the begining.
many mite b tinking,
wtfffffffffffff.
but no.
im jst being a gd fren.
like i promised him.

wtf is with me.
thks sar p n vally babes.
i noe u all mean well.
but at the same time,
no one lives without sorrow
or pain.
no one gets the best of everitink.
nw,
im so far from u dudettes.
wish i wasnt physically alone here.
wells,
u noe i still love u all dude.
mwahhhhhhhhhs

i walk alone this time....

this week has been tiring.
but it has oso been DE most saddest pt in my life
esp in Melb.
i feel a.l.o.n.e.
i dun wanna be alone again.

meggs ...
i hv to tell u.
i reallie need u.
this pt in time is my lowest everrrr.
and if u heard the FULL storyyyy,
u'll slap me
and teach me the right way.
plsssssssssssssssssss help me.

heres a brief descptn of my life this week.
*sighs*

Friday
becky sis came melb.
did stuffs and gossiped.
she hates melb btw. lol.
we went clubbing at 2fivefive (255)
and it was the WORST nite ever.
sobs**

i was proud to intro becky to my clique
Shahid Arif Nicholas Son Frank Gerry etc etc.
butttt.
almost EVERYONE was high/drunk
it was bad.
michelle puked all over 4 times.
lay on the road and
fell asleep.
Gerry was soooooo drunk
that he danced weirdly.
it was badddd.
gerry said some UNTRUE stuffs
n got me so pissed
tat i drank 2Jins,
2Beers,
6 shots of "151".(80% alc!!!!)
i was high. but NOT drunk.
den shahid all told me to talk gerry over.
n he said the most hurting tings ever.
and i drank more and got sooo high.
its so bad.
i drank the most
and was the saddest.

den we all tipsily walk back to the hostel.
(shahid carried michelle. lol)
gerry realliiiie was being a jerk.
and i cried fer 2.5hrs!!!!
gosh* reallie high man.
then.. shahid tapped me to sleep =))))
and i slept on his lap. =))
he's my brO.
and all the gang started to talk to me one by one,
comforting me.
TINKING that i was drunk.
but i WASNT ok.
so i heard everytink and it was Sweet.

Saturday
woke up at 8 plus.
YAWN*.
went out shopping at noon cus becky had a hangover.
lol.
and after tat,
we went to shisha (sp?)
its like weird-ass pipes frm Bongs
u noe wad i mean? NVm.
den anyway,
gerry was there.
and i msg him
"sorry. i just dun wanna b weird ard u. sorry"
i kept apologising tho everyone says
its NOT my fault.
but i will still tk that fall.
=(
den when we met them,
it was soooooo sad dude.
me n gerry din even Talk.
not even a look.

he got high on shisha n beer
again.
sigh***
and started spouting nonsense.
got home,
becky slept but i was crying.
again.
SIGH***
den me nicholas arif shahid philip
chatted ard.
and shahid n phil were so high on dunno wad.
they took wooden planks and wanted to whack Gerry.
OMG. big shits.
and i was crying. SIGHS.
den they alllll talked to me.
nich arif n me talked/comforted till bout 9AM
den we ate breakfast tog.
we hvnt slept a min since friday nite.
sighs. this is soooooooo bad.

n now, its SUNDAY
ive tot it thru.
even if u chose christina,
i nv once forgot wat you meant to me.
neverrrrrrrrr.
some say ive been used.
some say im bullied.
some say i was too nice.
some dint comment.
I say i Believed in You.
gg mass later. i wanna pray fer u.
and i beggggggg the Lord to see me thru this last wk of hols.
i cannot walk alone.

many r tinking.
poor girl. her life sucks
well cus it does.
and i wish i cld find where i lost y.o.u.

-=how could an [angel] break my heart
why dint he catch my [falling] star
i wish i dint wish so hard.
mayb i wished our love [apart]
how cld an angel [break] my heart=-
-=youre in love, thats the way
it should be.
cus i want you to be happy.
youre in love.
and i know.
that you're not in love with me.
ohh its enough for me to noe.
that youre in love,
now i'll let you go.
cus i noe that youre in love=-

update update.

i'll never try to forget y.o.u*

*isit i never told y.o.u?

or did i not show y.o.u?

that y.o.u mean the world to me.

and i'll never stop loving y.o.u

but as time proves to pace.

all i'd rembr is your face.

and y.o.u still mean the world to me.

okok.
wells, this hols is very hectic fer me.
shahid n co HAD to get drunk.
=/
left E-mufy guy Gerry unconscious in MY room
Riiiiiite.
so i brot him to puke 9346983 times.
anddddd i cleaned him with a hot towel.
this is sooooo wrong.

fer the past 2-3 nites,
it's been like this.
and the sad part,
he cries in his sleep cus he's sooooo drunk n all.
sighs.
n he tells me everytiiiiiiiink bout him
its reallie sad k.
and the past days hv been so tiring.
i cant even tk cr of myself!
and i hv to tk cr of some1
i noe fer less than a week.
he's so sweet tho.
he treasures pple.
like major.
=) and today, i somehow miss seeing him
fall asleep on my bed when he's high.

this cannot happen to me.
my life is facing distractions.
and thats someting i dun need now.
n becky is coming on fri morn.
hope i get to fulfil sisterhood these 3 days.
i need her.
i must update her.

after all these stuffs this hol,
i tinkback.
and all i can say
is that
i miss y.o.u. so muchhh.
why cant anyone jst replace y.ou.
in my heart?
y.ou. left a scar.
in me.
and i miss thinkin bout hw we'd mk it somehow,
bout hw we'll never be apart agaiin when im back.
and bout when we'll see face to face.
and can truly tell that we're in love.

gerry is from indo btw.
=)
n nw i tink of meggs.
SIGHS.

update update.

wasssssssup.

watch Russell Peters Comedy.
its soooooooooo funny..
its so good.
gosh.
whattttttttttttt?
hahaha.

since everyone's mixing.
lets just start mixing ard.
jst to c wad we'd get.
mix holland and philipinos= hollipinos.
mix greeks and french= freaks.
mix germans and new oofys= little goofys.

funny ayes?
d/l it n watch dudettes.
haha
peace out.
mwahhhhhs.
ilu all.
=*)

.sobs.sobs.

=*(
omg.
im so saddddddddddddddddddd.
the pope died today at 5.37am Australian Eastern time.
gosh**
im so sad.
tho i noe tht he has joined the Lord home,
buttttttttt...
i just feel the world has been survivin cus of him
gosh.
im soooooo sadddd.
=/

heyyyy.
to vally babe::: hey babe babe.
gosh the sound of your 'babeeeee' is resonating in my head.
haha.
oh btw,
i din get ur shout out to me...
wad u mean by you-know-who...
hahah who??
wells... alrite. give ur dad my number okie.
thanks a million.
n u can give me his. just msg my aussie line
OR call OR email.
anyway u wanna. haha and tell him im lookin forward to seeing him.
lOl.!!

=) my life aint no fairytale.
no prince or knight gonna come rescue me
from my endless dreaming.
my dreams aint no fantasy.
no ashton or young Lochnivar gonna come sing fer me.
to stop my werld from being lonely.

backkkkkkk.

-= life is not bout the number of breaths we take,
but the moments that take our breath aways=-

jst watched hitch.
i NOE. damn wols rite?
but nooooooo.
here its still in cinemas.
glad i watched it!
gosh, its so gd.
funny too.
n in the movie,
there r so many sweet n TRUE sayings.
like the one in my first para.
hmmmm...
there was another one like,..
'loving someone is when you take that leapt.
but you may fall.
only When you are truly in love,
then you will fly.'

GOSH. i hate these chickflicks.
mks u feel oh-so-good.
that mayb,
jst mayb,
there IS that someone special out dere hu loves u so much,
but den after a day,
u realise,
nahhhhhh.
bull shit.
only happens in movies. =S
*poof* there goes hope.
there he goes...

saturday's NO fever

*maybe somethings changing,
or maybe we just stopped tryinggg*

why?

alriteyy. today's sat.
No good.
stuck at home zoning.
nt even doing work.
its bad.
its like this need to study just died off.
and i talked to B yday.
OMG,
it was so dead.
felt tat mayb we just stopped trying?
yeah.
YOU stopped.
i never did.
anyhow, ate Breakfast with Rio.
he's gg back Msia too.
sighs.
-pouts-
i wish i wish i wish
i cld c meg,
linn,
belly n Co.,
Churchies,
IJ babes.
nahhhhhhs.
no more daydreaming rach!

i miss so much.
and theres so much here to do.
i cant go back.
becky mite come to visit.
fer like 3 pathetic days.
better den none.
but i wanna just stop looking at books all day
n pretend i can mk it fer Med.
cus im so tired of attempting.
tired of trying.
bleeds to know
im nt okayyyy.

a special entry fer meaghan see.

-=specially fer meggs my darlinkk=-
it never quite occurred,
that we'll be on opposite sides of the werld.
we promised each other As in school.
"together we'll make it,
just me and y.o.u"
it seemed impossible to achieve so,
but both you and I know,
:: we've made it. we've won it ::
i think of you every minute.
its like we're made fer each other.
in times of good and bad weather.
when its sunny you'll run in vain.
when its stormy you'll stand in the rain.
i picture you just standing there,
no matter wad others think you wouldnt care.
we seem so far
upon a wishing star
i know you are
m.i.n.e.
im selfish cus' i need you,
but im selfless when i love you.
tho i may not always contact you.
but i cant deny i dont mis you.
i have OUR picture upon the wall,
sometimes when i see it, i can hear you call.
you tell me to find someone to be there with me,
but we both know a secret only US is meant to be.
i think back on life and the times we've been thru,
i cant seem to forget anythink abt you.
nt tat i want to but if i did try,
im sorry, i just din wanna cry
whenever you called or msged my phone,
u cld hear from my sadness, u cld hear from my tone.
and nw im tearing, oh god, megg i love you.
God has been so good, to have let me found y.o.u.


i miss you meggs. thanks fer ur call (again!!) yday.
call me anitime alrite?
you noe, ive never been happier ever since i got here
than to hear the pureness of your voice upon the fone.
it resonates in me.
and everytime we talk,
im zoning out, cus i tink back of IJ days.
we did everytink galfrens wld do.
we chatted on e fone,
told LAME jokes (and i mean LAMEEEE cus meg has no life)
and we'll still luff,
nt cus its funny
but cus of the extent of our retardation.
we always went starbucks or coffeebean
to TRY to study/
end up rating guys or comment LOUDLY on school nerds.
or how we'll be one soon.
(never quite got there yet huh?)
we imagined AC as our fav sch.
how the cool-er ppl r there.
we wld gossip bout the TRUTH.
bout hw annoyin ppl in class
wld say they din study,
but mugggggg at home. (REMBR? AHEM***)
haha.
we even criticised jap looking weirdos.
and looked at ourselves and start luffin again.
cus we found ourselves no better.
(but we wld compliment ea other once inawhile)
its a ego-boosting exercise!!
we tried KAP too.
was a disaster, how we acted nerdy
by planning to study fom early morning.
but we both woke up late and ended at KAP 11am instead.
what a coincidence.
and how we ended up gainin wgt from eating macs so much.
ohhh and how you met my church pals
and they kept bullying a boy Bernerd
and you din understand a ting that was gg on
(and i noe u probably forgot too)
but we ended up telling each other lame stuff "under the table"
and we'd luff to ourselves like imbeciles.
GOSH.
N hw i wld insist on walking u back NO MATTER WAD.
eeeeek. it was scaryyy.
and how you used to try lose wgt/exercise by walking back fr HV
n hw i WANNA lose wgt but im too lazy to walk,
so we'd COMPROMISE.
walk to the next, and the next, and the next bus stop
den take a cab.
hw i tried to scare u bout haunted places
but ended up scaring myself.
and we'd hold hands sooo tight,
that we'd start running.
n i wanna run forever like this.
with you.
take my hand and we'll flyyyyyyyyy.
from here.
n nw we're older,
more intellectual (i hope)
and all i wanna do is study again with you,
grow old with you.
and sing songs with you (even when we sound like crows)
and stay over at ur place and PROMISE nt to fall ill.
hehehe.
and watch movies when we're bored.
and shop when we need gifts.
andddddd love you when i do.
mwahhhhhhhhs ilu meggs. and i always will.

mood= feeling lucky.

im feeling fortunate.
so i shall blog again today.
hurhur.
firstly, Dont get me wrong alrite,
i still miss n love u guys back home.
heyyy i will always, PRoMiSe.

but deres someone special.
someone i wanna proclaim to everyone back home.
(and i noe u'll be happy fer me.
and support me yea?)

Amanda.
shes canadian/asia.
im reallie blessed to have met her.
the kind of person u can nv forget no matter whaat.

=) this is fer youuu hunz.
we msg each other in the early mornz,
just to say iloveyou and gd morning.
we msg to help relieve another's stress!
-pulls hair-
even when im beat n lazee,
i'll walk to hostel and back to sch again
just to walk to see her.
(im nt les u dimwits)
we'll talk bout everythink.
b*tching only to a SMALL extent.
(we believe in self ctrl. LoL)
we have similar grades
n past,
it scares us both.
and when im embarassed bout a habit/ocassion,
she has the EXACT same feeling bout it.
therefore, i am always at ease to share.
and tats impt,
to be willing to share oneself unconditionally.
-nod nods-
she's different.
tho she stays in Zone 2,
so far away...
but we seem so close at heart,
that even zone 3 wldnt change a ting.
we luf at things NOT funny.
cus we both know that we're both stressed over work.
its telepathy?
a mere coincidence.
that we met on a one way road.
in taylors.
and how i'm ashamed of myself
and certain i will nt mk it,
she feels the grief
and she's telling me
'we'll mk it'.
with her,
no lahs. no lors.
singlish isnt in our dictionaries.
and we picked up each other's slangs
to annoy each other and ourselves.
=)
like when we're sarcastically shocked,
we'd say ''whaaaaaaaaaat?'' with a clear 'T' ending.
and we'll imitate Russell Peters' comedies.
and sing in the lifts.
shout in the stairways.
watch videos at her cussie's.
rate guys at taylors(yuck).
wear skirts in school
with SLIPS (its agst sch rules to wear slips u noe.)
and do everythink (even study)
whether right or wrong
but get out of it tog.

thats all. mayb more.
but this is all i was praying fer.
a company.
someone i cld count on.
n not feel inferior or overpowering with.
and when i was describing 'us',
i tot of megg too.

meggs::: i know some lines *ahem* may sound like US.
and you noe i still love u as much.
mayb thats y i find her special to me,
cus she's just like you.
and rembr....
true frens r nv far apart,
maybe in dist
but never at heart.
and i'd respect if u tot "she's found someone else!''
haha. cus i did find someone else.
but not someone to replace you or the tings you do.
but to fulfil ur prayers of my loneliness.
and thks fer always being there.
you noe i needed you so much
and still do. i miss you so much.
ilu fer everytink u were, are n always will be to me.

a special entry fer meaghan see.

its hard letting u go.

its hard
[So] hard
its [tearing] up my heart
lettin u [go].
and i refuse to.

been an alrite 2nd last day fer the term.
whee. tmr rocks.
haha.
but... S. maths was a terror.
NO J.O.K.E dudeee.
its like wth??
all the laws, rules & provings shit.
OMG someone help poor me.
im dwelling in self pity
accounting that i never heard of these laws.
and till now,
i dunt noe anitink.
hols is in 2 days.
anione staying in melb?
PLS help me.
god bless youu.
i need you pls.
=( gosh.

SCREWED up my whole survey today
GREAT.
gonna reprint all the surveys
i tink i phrased weirdly tats y. sighs.
god, dun die on me.
=*(