omg again!!!!

currently at the lib cos its my final exams for med in general ):
FREAAAAAAAAAAK!

anyways so im in the lib now at the computer as u can tell.
and i looked across the computers...
and THERE HE WASSSSSS.
the same guy i blogged about a few months ago.
the one who looked identical to Keith.
the one i couldnt stop staring at.
the one i was getting all emo about.

smtimes, jase gets mad that i still talk or think about him.
but the thing jase fails to see, is that i cant stop when everything ard me is keith-like,
and even this guy looking back at me RIGHT NOW reminds me of keith looking at me
oh mann
its not about stil loving an ex-fiance,
or missing him.
its about the basic instinct to LOOK.
the instinct to see if somehow, in some random somewhat perverse way, he cld smile back AS IF to acknowledge wat we had.
then reality has to hit me eventually
and even as that guy stares,
he';s not seeing ME.
he's seeing that girl who's always at the library, studying med, and i wish she'd come up to me since shes been staring so much.
lol.
and at no point did he ever think, that he looked so much like that girl's ex-fiance.

amazign how God puts this temptation of a stranger in front of me a week before my exams.
fuck me.