most times i would whine that life really sucks. (it still does but shoosh)

but today
i shall be contented.
with whatevr i have left.
whether or not ppl might think its worth being happy for.

it realy isnt.
but shooosh! im tryin here. (:

so no more engagement or longdist rship.
no more fighting or accusing.
no more changes or holdbacks.
no more sweettalks or late night phone calls.
no more chances.
no more iloveyoutilltheend.

lifes way of showing you its worth living despite al the motherf*ckin shits,
is to show you that after it all,
youre stil you. the same girl that went into the rship in pieces.
got better. fixed into place.
and despite leavng in pieces,
it goes to show youre still the same ol you.
andthats comforting to know,
esp in this critical getting-over point in your life,
when you think
damn. things change.

cos really, YOU dont change. things/circumstances/thoughts change.
but ultimately, u live for u
and if 'U' is still the same,
then u'll be fine.
the same way you were fine when the past rship ended.
and the previous one.
and the preceding one.
the same way you were fine when you felt, once again, that the world stopped turning
and youre left to fend for yourself.

God has his way of fuckin up everything you ever wanted so badly,
but he gives you the opportunity to step back, look at it with bloodshot eyes, YET learn frm it anyway.
and give you the strength to be just the way you were made to be- loved.