pub crawling

OK lifes a bitch LINNNN!
(: yes yes. hate it when its cold. and NO ONE's there to hold me.
WAHAHA.

in uni today,
someone asked if i was american!!!
(:
heh.
as if!
(:

tonight is pub crawling.
and i cant cant cant wait.
PEOPLE, dont be a wuss.
GO.

yes and i have nth to update abt.
cos lects and all are standard as per se.
but i guess i really miss everyone back home.
and JOANNA goh, my 'gf' is coming to melbourne to taylorssssssss!
(: ilu* babe. hope to cya sooooooon alritey??
MWAHHHS*

haha.
im random. gtg get ready to partehhhhhhh!
(: looking forward to vik and evan tonight.
yayyyyyyyy.
-dance ard-
DRUNKARDS, get that ass on the floor (rhapsody of eminem)
(: heh. life's good all of a sudden.
YAY

pub crawling

OK lifes a bitch LINNNN!
(: yes yes. hate it when its cold. and NO ONE's there to hold me.
WAHAHA.

in uni today,
someone asked if i was american!!!
(:
heh.
as if!
(:

tonight is pub crawling.
and i cant cant cant wait.
PEOPLE, dont be a wuss.
GO.

yes and i have nth to update abt.
cos lects and all are standard as per se.
but i guess i really miss everyone back home.
and JOANNA goh, my 'gf' is coming to melbourne to taylorssssssss!
(: ilu* babe. hope to cya sooooooon alritey??
MWAHHHS*

haha.
im random. gtg get ready to partehhhhhhh!
(: looking forward to vik and evan tonight.
yayyyyyyyy.
-dance ard-
DRUNKARDS, get that ass on the floor (rhapsody of eminem)
(: heh. life's good all of a sudden.
YAY

blahhh

FINE. so i am outdating my loyal readers (THIS IS A PRIVATE BLOG BTW)
haha.
sch's a bitch.
life's a bigger bitch.
j's a bitch.
(welll.... kinda)
and yupp.
pretty much, everyone's been bitching.
(:

even me!

EVERYONE in med is attached TO SOMEONE ELSE i tink.
like that jason guy,
the OTHER jason ray guy.
wendy and that guy.
mark's into some michelle girl i have never seen or heard. hhahaha (good onya mate!)
and arghh.
everyone's attached basically.
so i revolt back to my corner.
LITERALLY in monash green. (: tee hee.
and yes,
i realise im still the only one alone and DYING in this hole.
not that i care enuf to cry.
or that i NEED someone.
but pretty plssssss send me some hot hot dude ffrom outer space.
to change my monotonous life.
and make me beautiful again.

i tink the thing about being single (or unwanted)
is more than just loneliness
or lack of romantic nothings,
or stuff like that.
its more of the individual feeling unpretty
cos theres no one who really loves her (in this case, ME)
and the fact that the inner beauty (if there is any) isnt appreciated by anyone.
to BE with someone just gives me the reassurance that im still intact.
still viable for human socialisation.
still wanted.
still....
well...
beautiful.
):

and therefore, i shall conclude my sad sad uneventful life
with a turn of my attitude.
cos' like craig hassed said-
the mind controls ... (blahblah)
the events in life arent necessarily BAD,
its OUR perception of it that makes any situation.

outdated to up!

(: back in shithole melb.
actually,
on an honest tone- i like this place compared to spore.
(even tho u can practically wear NOTHING and still sweat there in spore)
but thats bsides the pt.

here,
its freezing.
in a nice way.
when u just imagine someone taking care of you,..
.. cookin for u...
....making hot soups...
.... having friday nites out at some random club...
): but then again,
here i have no one.

so anyway,
ANATOMY is perfect.
justt perfect.
picture walking into a room with LITERALLY hundreds of bodies,
unwanted, just lying around,
with random students just picking on them.
thank god J. has taught me to be an EMOTIONLESS fuck.
if nt,
i tink i would have poured out my eyes in fronta those cadavers.
thank you Josh!
:S

ohhh surgical anatomy is good.
got surgies on wednesday.
not this wk, but the next.
YAY.
hope we dont get some axillary retarding op.
a nice cardio one would be good tho.(:

friday nite:::
went to Billboards cos heard from oh dearest vikram that its good.
well guess what hima the merlion had done to screw it up this time??
he was holding a harmless (oh so harmless) can of jim beam while queueing
and got us 'evicted' or so to speak.
HAHA. that cute lil boy, i tell u!
always finds SOMETHING for us (or at least, me) to tell the rest in school on monday.
the other time was his infamous "merlion" skills
of puking every 2 steps on the road,
as well as INSIDE the restaurant.
and last fri he wanted to tk me on for a challenge of drinking.
OKAYYYYY hima!
(: lets see who's going down. buwahahha *pinches hima's cheek*
ANYWAYYYYYY
we ended up at 255 (thanks to my dearestttt hima)
and after which, everyone went home and hima came back w me.
to drink- MORE.
S: oh wells.
ended up sleeping in the most unglam way ever on my couch.
(: ken picked up some korean girls at 255 and pat hooked up for a few hrs with some random brown (or DARK brown) guy.
heh. (:

i have the best news ever last nite!
megggg is coming to melb!
(I BET YOU MISS ME. haha)
yay. ok i CANNOT wait man!
its like... WHOAAA.
i really wanna see her.
(: shopping, movie-ing, pigging out, GOSSIPING, hiding in toilets (hehe),
yeahhh lifes good.

im weird. as in, feeling weird weird.
i cant sleep in my bed nowadays.
cos its too big for just ME.
i have to sleep on the couch downstairs.
hw weirdly queer is that.
and last nite,
i slept at like 9pm. (thats too early btw. start counting back to spore's timing)
yes.
and thanks meg for that lovely call.
PPLE CALL ME IF URE BORED.
(except weird shitheads thank you)
and yes she's COMING! (: 6 weeks.
im gonna make this 6 weeks the BEST time to prepare my very erotic mood for her.
(:
yay.

i realise one thing-
that youre not that hot anymore (well neither am i, haha)
and the only reason i can think of that would make me want you
is for the company.
cos' im USED to having you lying around,
coming over randomly,
JUST FOR FOOD sometimes (cos you knew i'd cook up a storm for u)
and just driving aimlessly on a random weekend.
maybe im used to the fact that im always with someone else.
cos when im with dilini and all, i feel normal.
like in spore.
with ppl always ard me.
and yet, at night,
when the bed's empty and no one's ard,
i turn to solitude and regret not begging you back.
but then again (according to Greg brendt's book)
the only thing you can keep after a broken relationship,
is your dignity.
so while YOU go ard doing shits,
i'd walk away with my pride.
(:

oh oh oh. thanks a million to STEFFIE for that lovely msg.
i cant wait to hear frm u sooooon.
heh. enjoy ur stay in spore
and back in london.
i knw you're excited bout it, as i am to be back in melb.
(: i miss you so much too my dear.
and yes, ilu* alwaysssssss.

ergh.
im in a freakin lib in monash on a sunday.
beat that, nerds!
(: a S-U-N-D-A-Y-.
yes. nerd as it may sound, i need the net.
my hse's net is down since forever.
and i got lil credit for my phone left.
so ppl, updates will be rare and pathetic.
(: teehee.

today is mass day.
yay. thank god for that (literally God).
i need help.
i need COMPANY.
okkkkay. so mayb coming hm to melb ALONE isnt exactly the best thing of my life.
but still,
the independence and freedom of faggin at every corner of my house.
and NOT having to care when a bottle of beer is spilled ALL OVER MY FUCKING COUCH.
@#$%^&*()_
yes you get the pt. (:
oh wells.

I NEED to quit faggin.
im dying.
and watching those bodies in the lab with BLACK lungs.
actually its pretty to see.
the grey lungs (to be exact) with black spots of emphysema.
the alveolis are black with tar.
(: well cant say im not disturbed that thats my body when i die.
);

of what perturbed nature has anatomy been built on.
a lil' too deep,
i reckon.

god please help me.

i dont knw if this if what god sent me to melb to face.
but im sure you wont leave me here to die of d****.
i'll have to work my arse off.
and dilini will be workin w me too.
but that amt is wayyyyyyyyy too much.
muchmuch more than any amt i have ever heard of.
pls god
now i must really really really ask u for this ONE favor.
pls god- help me.

): i cannnot pull thru any longer in this life.
pls help me.
STEF i tink u mite knw what im talkng abt.
uve seen IT at ocbc bank.
):

god.
dont ditch me to find my own way 0ut of this.
im lost.
and i really need you right now.
J. why did u have to ditch me now as well.
Wil. thanks for everything.
but i DONT need ur help really.
its not worth it. ):

thursday night out! lesbian night @zouk.

//ME ME ME! -screams- after les night @ zouk. =p //ME again @ stef dear's house. cool chanel shadesssss yeah? (:
//linn one & only + myself. @ some random coffee/smoking cafe. hehe
//stef linn me. -youre beautiful.
//delia my baby sis and i. -smuacks!
-------------------------- end of picturessss-----------------------------

yday. met with Stef my dear and Linn my one n only for Zouk's thursday event- Femme Quest.
in simple terms- Lesbian night.
and yes.
my only attempt to find males was in vain.
you'd think that MEN always find les hotttttt
and that they'll go to these les nights to try to pick up some girls. (buy 1 free 1)
right?
but NOOOOooo.
smiled to a reallyyyyyy hot guy-
only to get a "im gay" back.
(:
PERFECT rach.

linn wasnt feelin too good.
so she left early.
we joined candice & sam on the dancefloor.
OMGGGGGGGGG.
the muusik was fuckin' good lah.
only that the DANCING was a bit of a prob.
haha.
you see-
grinding is not my forte, UNLESS with males. (dont mind my diction now. i have to make my point about how its LES NIGHT.)
yeahh anyway,....
it was good tho.
(tho it ended too early @3am!! ROAR)
met alot of oldddddd frens.
eg. cassandra, sherlyn!, wyn
(notice: all bungs)
ohhhhh! NOT FORGETTING LANE. (:

heh.
the night was alrite.
cute LITTLE (literally) her was a sweetheart.
grinding w her was funny.
ahhaha.
but its hard to explain just what im feeling.
when im down with you- but my mind is fixed on someone else.
S:
oh well an eye candy will always BE an eye candy.

somehow
yday i felt les for one night.
thats my new nick for today -les for a night.
thank you for making me feel loved for just this one night.
to those who were there (stef linn xy)
or those who KNOWS what im ranting on about...
i can formally say-
i can finally rembr what its like to be loveddddddddd! (:

Legend Dinner with familyyyyyy tonight.
then heading to meet LINN STEF XY again.
i cant live without them man!
hahaha with sooo much love i hath for them.
(: thank you my darlings for making this hol special.

marlboro treatment.

if not for certain particular circumstance,
i think that i'd already be dead drunk by now,
and henceforth,
diagnosed with liver cirrhosis.
i shant complain tho-
cos' i did it unto myself.

the marlboro treatment is a therapy for forgetting
hard to explain.
but ya get the idea yeah? (:
a lil booze and a lot of chimneys would make the night perfect.
(:

-----last night------
you told me to fuckoff.
then you called me back twice.
then you told THEM about me.
(thanks for that yah, bitch)
andddd
you tried to get me even more drunk than i already was.
(you fuckwit)
andddd
i stared- called you a bastard.
and proclaimed the only truth in what really happened.
(you REALLY were pretty whack)
and then,
after a couple of drunk "i-hate-you-but-i-love-you" stares,
you said sorry.
SORRY????? SOOO-OOO-OOO-RRRYYYYYY???!

HELLOE!??!?!? are we still in the same era my dear?
NOWWWW u say sorry?
when it all happened so long ago. (well LONG ENUF)
and after BITCHING your way around life,
getting what YOU WANT, and fucking the rest,
playing by YOUR fucking rules,
listening to what YOU have to say, and shutting my life up,
PROCLAIMING how great your *&^%$#@ is,
washing your hands,which stabbed me, off my life,
and basically making me weak till now, smoked and drinked and wasted.
PLS TELL ME ure kidding.
OMFGosh la.
dont make my imaginary balls pop out and start juggling.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEeeeee.
you sick wankofaman.

youre REALLLYYYYY sorry?
sorraye, you say?
well a lil late yah.
i think 'can you not shoot me to death' would make more sense right now.
omg.
why is it that fuckers are called so,
yet they take their whole lives to literally fuck oFF?
ironic yea??
how we nv ever learnt to fall.

darlin leave the light on for me
i'll be there before you close the door
give you all the love that you need.
darlin leave the light on for me
cos when the werld takes me away
you are still the air that i breathe.

i dont knw
just how far
i have to go.

more pictures.

// us. *sighs* drunk at mambo.
// NB: my charred neh.

//me/linn/alyssa. MAMBO babyy!
//i am a narcissist in lifts. wahahaha
//my dennis weng is getting hotter by the damn day. ): i'll miss ya.



//me/linn. my one n only. hot girl.
//steffie dear and myself. in Guess dressings.

-pissd off.

mambo was good.
the company was perfect.
(:
met alot of IJians recently.
S:

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.
theres a special (and shit long) shoutout to someone i met at mambo.
someone i detest so much
for everything he does, and says or try to do.
):
yeshhh. you have the honor of being Bastard of the Week josh.
=p
---------- shoutttttttttttttttts-----------------------

JOSH JOSH.
u bitch. u hoe. u shlut.
u jerk.
u incomprehensible son of a gun.
YOU call me over
and you bitch bout me.
YOU call MY name incessantly
and YOU busted me.
ARENT YOU A LIL RETARDED.
yeah.
so maybe youre right-
you had your fun before
and prolly will never again.
but PLEASE DONT MIND MY SARC ASM (which i knw you HATE)
- your *** was crap.
YES YOU HOE.
you suck big time (not literally -)
you get my point.

please take back your words.
i understnad how some men's egos are bigger than their puny brains.
but by doing what you did,
i tink the only one who was lowered
was you.
soooooo cheeeeeeeeeeebye.
you KNNBCCB.
lanjiao.
fcuk off from here josh.
i dont wanna see you here, OR there.
stay in ur lil corner with ONLY The sporeans.
and be fobbish cos you SUCK.
u fucked up reallllll bad.
and can i just add-
I DONT GIVE TWO FLYING FUCKS if u pass or not.
cos guess what?
-youre going down.
i passed and to me that will always be enuf.
so take all ur bullocks and THROW UR HAUGHT SOMEWHERE ELSE MISTER.
haha.
right back at you josh.
right back at you.

sat- returning to melb.
i dont tink i owe anyone an explanation as to my life from here on.
EVEN U j.
so pls dont mind me.
im just tryin to live without u.
my bad that day i was fuck drunk .
well fuck u still.
YOU'LL NV GET TO TAKE ME OR MY FRENS HOME
so die off slow babe.
youre never gonna get me no more.

pick a peekture. (:

// this is my home. CHIJ TP. where memories are engraved.
// linnie n i. I WAS TIRED OK. hahah
//me and linnieeeeee my one& onLy (:
//@ sentosa tanning!! tonguessssss out! //belly my dear girl and i. -modified-
// US. retarded as always. IJians for life. (:(:(:
//cand is a narcissist. stef is mad. linn is retarded.
//this is sajon. thank you for loving me.
//another US. (: jieying pau sam candice(back) & me xy stef (front)

just a few peektures for you guys who've been wondering
wheretf i have been.
(: NAH. demanding pple. hahha
jkjk.

tired of tryin to not try-.

today is mambo.
yday was tanning.
im fucking burnt RED now.
and im moulting.
shits.
):

erghhh.
sending pics is so fucking annoying lah.
darnit.!

sigh*
gg home on saturday nite.
and i MISS sg alot alr.
altho i knw i need to return to the comfort of freeeeedom.
(:
i dont knw why.
but this time, theres more to just leaving.
cos theres new additions to my to-meet-and-miss-list.
sigh*.
and its stef xy cand linn.
SIGH SIGH SIGH.

okok well...
i guess i wont get to see them till like... NEXT YR or smth.
hahah.
sigh.................

enuf of sighing.
im ranting
today is mambo.
i cannot wait. for phuture actually.
lol.
well bye werld.
meet u on the dancefloor.

rest your love on me.

you know i hate to think that someone
could hurt someone like you.
and at times like this,
i'll be right by your side.
you know i hate to think that someone
could have loved you more than me
and if i were them,
i'd be right by your side.
-rest your love on me.

had lunch at Legend Club after gg mass at 11AM.
gosh.
I HATE THE WORLD CUP.
fuckit.
portugal lost to germany as well.
OHKAY fine.
-love the game, not the player.
but but but-
erghhhs. *pouts*

had a major argument (with evidential proof)
w ad.
OMG over MONETARY MATTERS.
honestly, with your downright obnoxious way of finding faults with MY expenditure,
i tink you should reconsider stayin under tha same roof as me.
i might just sleep walk and sleeppunch you.
i swear.
youre annoying me, period.
and whats so awkward-
my daddy came to me (at some silent, dark corner. haha)
to tell me he'll personally give me what i need.
and im like. "huh".
I HATE MONEY. period.
tears us down inside.
and causes unnecessary tension.
EEK! ):

peektures will be up soon.
just tooo bz to upload them.
sorraye! (:
date w sajon was ALRIGHT only.
met megg at bakerzinn.
was good too.
NEXT WEEK!
-tanning at sentosa, meeting mei, meg, cyril, sajon, and all the last minuters.
hahah.
cant wait to go home as well.
cos i can collect my baby beetle.
(:
wait for me aaryanna! (: thats my beetle's name BTW. haha

oh yes.
had the most weirdest feeling these days.
i cant sleep well without reminiscing
and praying my heart out for a resolution.
maybe it all comes dwn to this-
Relapse.

- of what shouldn't have happened.
but still,
was the best thing in my life.
and hence,
have made up the best part of me.
---------------------------------------
mood: of indifference to you.

mambo/phuture on wed nite. (:

//dance with me.
stefffffffffie weffie! my hott hott friend! (: phuture once more before i leave ya?
// my phuture eye candy! (: dennis wengggg. i miss you!








-



it wouldnt be too much to ask,
YESSSSSSSSSSS>
today- meeting sajon.
omg FINALLY man. my day has come. (:
i tell you, today is a fucked up day
thanks to ad, The Stepmom. *horror music in the backgrnd*
her scoldings to the maids CONSTANTLY poses as my natural alarmclock each day-
to wake me up from my slumber (which took me EIGHT FUCKING HRS last nite to actually occur)
YES i laid on my bed from 10.30pm till 6 fucking am and I WAS STILL CONSCIOUSLY AWAKE.
wtf is wrong with my biological clock??
@#$%^&*()_(*&^%$#@!

and guess what time i woke up thanks to ad?
10am.
get that right. TEN FUCKIN AM ok.
na bei.
:(((((((((((((( nw i cant sleep back again.
and i'll be gg out tonite till about saturday afternoon without any rest/
HOW THE FUCK AM I GONNA SURVIVE????
naaaaa bei.
fuck ad. fuck the calls she makes to her kakis when she NEEDS to gossip.
fuck HER kakis.
fuck her voice. its resounding in my 'to-hate list'
fuck her tone with me. (DONT order me ard you hoe)
fuck everything.

nw my mood is spoilt.
and i have to say-
i FUCKING hate this hole.
its worse than a kindergarden.
ohhhh yes, WAYYY WORSE.
i can bearly rembr what silence is like.
unlike in melb, where residence is serenity.
(:
ahhhh. another reason to fall in love with my hse in melb.
8 more days. and i'll be home.
thats 8 more days till i leave YOU ALL.
yes, u heard me. YOU -points vigorously-

-shoutout!-
to stef, candice!, xinyang, belly, scully, MEI, megg, jo goh(i'll cya in melb tho), anthony, my cousins!, josh, gerk!, cyril, lionel, linnnn, NANA my heart, qirong, SAJON my b., sarah jie, william+yq+tychicus+mark+KEITH,ah tann, zi xie!!, xavier and all those i have YET TO MEET:::
ilu all. thats the reason i am even at home.
even when i leave, i'll be back in nov.
for all the outings we've had.
for all the fun and/or boring times.
it was STILL worth the flight home.
(: tho i'll be in aust half my life (ohh fuck. self realisation),
my heart resides beside you guys all the while.
with love, and all my missin'. mwahhhs*
ilu* for life.

naughty song.

omg ppl!(esp ijians)
watch the mtv "the naughty song"
by Cory Lee.
omggggg scandalousssssss.
hahah others- i think you might not be able to handle it.
(:

its sooooo wicked.
a must watch! (: hope u like it.

fuck you NS.

ohhh my ohhh my.
fuckkkkk NS man.
let my babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy out.
hahah.

OH MY GOSHHHHHHH.
ydays match was fUCKED.
who the fuck likes france mannnn.
fuck you france. (along with NS)
hahah.
to tink i changed into the portugal jersey after mambo-ing at zouk.
oh my fucking hell.
nabei.
so annoying.
its ok portugal! (:
try for 3rd place.
as for france- fuck u.
ure not getting 1st agst italy.
fuckoff.
):

im sore.
sigh*
hurhur.
mambo with stef alone was fun.
you'd never expect to see just 2 girls clubbing and dancing with each other all night.
well, newsflash!
it was perfect (except for some totally retarded muuusik)

as for today,
(for once in my life) im NOT leaving the house.
YES. believe it.
well i have a gd excuse for tht.
TMR IM MEETING SAJON finalllyyyyyy man.
yay yay yay.
im waitingggggggggg. *whistles*
oh yes. anddddd got to go to sarah's place for some 'party' she n flor are cooking.
and then, hv to head to MOS for clubbing with the group of IJians.
my babes! (:
and thennnnnn must head to sentosa.
ohboy. sighhhh.
i wonder what xy wants for her bday.
hmmmmm -ponders like mad-
GOSHHHH i cant wait la! tmr + sat + sun +mon is gonna be FULLY packed man.
hahaha.

omg. i cant believe how excited i am for friday to come.
overwhelmingggggggg.
okokok keep it calm.
------------------------------------
for all the times you thot i wouldnt move on.
without you.
for all the shit you put me thru.
for your pride.
for all the tears you MADE me shed.
because of you.
for all the doors you walked out of.
youre unforgiven.
for everything, josh, everything you made me become,
for every mistake youve done unto me,
for every lie you told in your favour,
for every time i caught you out,
fuck you, so pls fuck off.
and for EVERYEVERYEVERY single day of my life that i spent mourning MY lost (which really- is very hard to comprehend anymore)
i will not forget.
let alone forgive.
you've had your chances,
now just let me live.

only physical-

baby.
i dont knw how to say it out to you.
so the coward as i am,
will have to blog it out instead.

everything we have is physical.
even the 'love'.
its physical.
you dont love me, you knw it.
its just a phase youre going thru.
and you're just physically attracted to me (avoiding all bhb-ness)
but thats just it.
how can you say iloveyou so easily.
and not even rembr my favourite things,
my favourite places, food, color, and people.
how can you say imissyou so freely.
and not even question where ive been,
how ive been (ALL THESE YEARS), who im missin'.
baby,
you dont even knw me.
you dont even knw my middle name.
we were the talk of the town.
but thats all image baby.
you will never see thru me. the way others who knew me would.
cos' you can't.

baby.
if its one thing i knw,
im thankful for knwing you.
and for being the sweetest baby around.
but it isn't right,
if i didnt say this -
you belong to someone else.
her.
be good and go back to the one you love.
and the one who loves you too.

italy rocks! next up- PORTUGAL.

had dinner at Dome with mr lionel tannnnn.
(: hehe.
ended having alot of 'capricorny' convos
HURHUR.
ohhh and we went to sa's hse to play mahjong.
till like... 6am .
ROAR-fucking-ROAR.

ohhh lionel damn lag in mahjong lah!!
hahah anyways...
ITALY vs GERMANY at 2.50am was PERFECT.

yay yay yay to italy,
well-ranked in the cup finally. (heyy! it rhymes!)

and as for todayyyyyy....
TADAA! portugal vs france.
i guess the winner is OBVIOUS enuf.
hahah. but theres MAMBO too!
ohhh noooooo.
clash of events.
nvm.
shall leave uber early today then!
(: yay. gooooo portugal!
(i dint get the jersey for nth ok)

and everytime i close my eyes
i think alot that i got you
and you got me too
and everytime i think of it
i pinch myself cos'
i dont believe its true.
that someone like you
loves me too.

take a chance on a happy ending.

it comes to a point
when there's too much, and only,
physical attraction
and despite our constant denials,
we both knw the ending to this-
i'll be in your arms once more.

you got me, sajon,
right where you want me.

i hate sweet talkers.
-cough-
im allergic to bullshit.

go low with me, mr M&M! haha.

// this is me! and mr yello m&m down at cine! (: (i look retarded yes, but its MR PEANUT M&M!)









HURHUR.
as if i couldnt get any more retarded than i alr am.
this is soooo me.
nth cld bring me down yea? (:

met jo today.... yes, again!
hahah and we just hung out.
and met MANY MANY pple at rocky masters.
YESSSSSs today is my happy day!
i bot my mp3 FINAL-fucking-LY.
my sony walkman!! (:
pray i wont leave it on some airplane again.
hahah.

tmr: meeting lionel.
cant wait.
ohhh yes.
and wed is LINNIE! and mambo nite.
tog with allll my girlfrens.
wooooh!
and thurs is prolly jo again.
haha.
and fridayyyyyyy.... MEETING SAJON.
sat is xy party.
sunday- needless to say- booked. for family day/ church/ godpa!
(:

a crashy crashy day.
im having a tummy ache.
oh doctor doctor, how can i get better?
): (thats not a rhetorical qn btw)
hurrrrhur.

OMG OMG OMG.
sajon you fucker!
how cld u not tell me that ur ex is JAZZZZZZZZ.
u bitch.
no wonder ppl kept bitching that im some bf stealer.
you bitch!
roar.
to tink im still gonna meet you on friday!
ROAR. thankyewwww jo for telling me.
at least NOW I KNOW.
omg jonnnnnnnnn!!!!!
you whore. im gonna bash u up on friday man.
just you see!

-shine down on me.

// this is my bestie gf. MEAGHAN SEE! (: we're perfect for each other! (excl. the ciggs) haha




//my sweets! candice anggg!!! <3








in case of doubt-
make it sound convincing
(:

thanks jason ray.
for teaching me such an invaluable lesson.
hurhur.

at home today.
gg to meet jo goh. once more.
haha!
cant wait really. she's uber funny.
and sooooo excited abt leaving.
(: yes shes gg to taylors college!
MY FOUNDATION YEAR program too! (great minds think alike ya?)
hope all goes well for u my dear!!
(:

ohhhh and its sooo f*cking weird mannn.
ppl on friendster are SUDDENLY adding me in blots
and alllll wanna meet up.
and my reply is always- "who the fuck?"
hahah. just thot it was humorous how random sporeans can get.
gosh*****
okkk no more pics than these 2 this time!
since i figured BLOGSPOT is fucking itself upside down everytime i try to upload smth.
gosh!

peeeeeeeeeektures 2! (:

//i got another confession to make- im no fool.

//i knowwwwwwwwww. this doesnt look much like me... but its me! and gerkie werkie MY DOOOOOD. hurhur. (and ignore that white stick in my hand. (: )
//elicia kate binny! my darling chatterbox!! (: yes my lil sis!

//this is one of my twinnies- CLAUDIA!!! my loveeeee!

(her constipated smile is cos she's tryin to balance sitting on my arm. hurhurr)

peeeeeeeeeektures! (:

pls ignore my tummy fats.
this is mah TERRIBLY PAIN tattoo! (: (finally uploaded)

don't give up on us baby.

OMG.
fuck you England (dont mind, my fellow englishmen)
WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
portugal vs england.
p. won on penalty.
i'd like to personally say,
that IM HALF PORTUGESE.
so all you fakers,
LEAVE MY CRISTIANO alone.
wahhahah (ohhhk, linn u MAY share him with me.)
hahaha.
yes thats rite beckham-
take your tears back to england,
cos portugalllllllllll is gonna play france next!
(: WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
omg. now i lost my voice
AND am dead sick,
thanks to screaming my bum off, cheering for portugal at Ice Cold Beer yday!
(: tee hee.

went to eat today at SATAY VILLAGE.
uberrrrr good!
(: -licks lips-
now im bulimic- and DONT stop me.
wahahahahaha.
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abuse the way you talk tome
let alone the way you dont-
if it pains you to watch me with someone else,
then close your eyes,
cos im not gonna change no more.

with what little faith you have in yourself,
dont push your fucked up attitude with me.
ive thot it thru,
and maybe i am right after all-
i dont fucking deserve you right from the start,
and if you feel i am 'chucking my haught' around,
then we'll play it by your rules then!
FUCKOFF.
im not that cheap.

i have to consistently change myself
-self-mutilate my character
and truebeing,
to try to accomodate to YOU and your demands before.
and after a whole lot of praying for answers
and MEETING PPL WHO CHERISH ME much more than you even REMBRD me,
i realised..
you need to fuck out of my life.
of my mind.
and while you're at it,
TAKE the memories of you along.
dont have to be weebit generous here and leave bits of yourself with me,
cos i dont want them any more than theyre worthless.
you knw it.
you knw it was all a lie.
you knw that no such 'love' existed.
you knw why , tho?
cos YOU FUCKING MESSED UP.
and while fuckin ard, you broke me into BITS and PIECES (sounds like that retarded shop. haha)

laugh while you can.
smile while your face isnt forgotten yet.
cos' soon enough,
you'd be wanting me instead.
(thanks to all who convinced me that im worth much more than just a piece of junk. aka YOU)
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argh. sigh.
tired of ranting alr.
need a smoke.
i HAVENT SMOKED IN AGES.
omg.
ok la. 24 hrs.
but thats fucking gooddddddddddd la!!!
omg.
too fucking long for human sustenance.
sigh sigh. okok.
UPDATE ON PIXIES!! (: soon

hooked on this feeling-

just came back frm shopppppping!
(:
went gu-fucking-cci.
oh well. its my fav shop lah.
but thanks to WILLIAM TAI (squared),
spent oNE fucking year in it lah.
and got out a GAY WALLET.
well.
after all- thanks. (yes YOURE only gonna hear it on this fucked up blog)
haha..
OH YES.
we went to coffee bean at paragon.
and guesss whattttttttttt man!?!?!
some switz family QUIT SMOKING cos he was so fucked up thanks to mr. lky.
haha. aiyah.
honestly,
this whole no-smokin-area shit ISNT GONNA WORK more than a month la.
fucked upppppppppp.
roar.
):

thanks meggie for this morning's breakkie! (:
sorry madjacks wasnt open.
OR waffle town.
sigh*
but hope you had fun.
(: mwahhhhs*
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couldnt sleep one whole night yday.
got to sleep at 6 friggin AM and had to wake at 7AM.
roarrrrrrrrrrrr! -frowns-

i had a whole night up-
just thinking of things (OR PPLE) other than myself.
things utterly irrelated to me.
i dont knw why.
and so,
i got up,
and wrote a letter.
out of inspiration to you.
and now i'll let you go-.
period.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~
thanks for the memories.
you've been the brightest side of me.
the reason why my 'pitiful puppy eyes' worked so well.
and why i never had to walk sucha long wayyyy in the cold to uni.
also the reason why i think i'll stop finding someone
(or for that matter- you)
and i'll live this way..
prolly till i finally have to end up with someone i dont love.
prolly my dadddy doooooo is right-
we dont always end up marrying the one we love.
and thats just life, ya knw.
accepting shit from others cos we KNOW we're no better.
and cos' we dont deserve that much anyway.

you will remain that angel i could never keep.
sent from above for a split moment.
and whilst you were here,
with me,
you were the best thing of my life.
(: thank you for that.

now you cant call me a princess or 'haught' anymore,
cos i dont have what i want-
and i have to live without , instead.
so save your ego a trip's worth
and start analysing what you just made me become.
i've lived, and i've loved.
and im grateful for that.
you've been the only person i was actually proud of.
and it'll never change.
but we're both moving on.
arent you??
thanks. and sorry im not your one.
:S

i didnt mean to fall in love with you.
baby loveeeee. always-