outdated to up!

(: back in shithole melb.
actually,
on an honest tone- i like this place compared to spore.
(even tho u can practically wear NOTHING and still sweat there in spore)
but thats bsides the pt.

here,
its freezing.
in a nice way.
when u just imagine someone taking care of you,..
.. cookin for u...
....making hot soups...
.... having friday nites out at some random club...
): but then again,
here i have no one.

so anyway,
ANATOMY is perfect.
justt perfect.
picture walking into a room with LITERALLY hundreds of bodies,
unwanted, just lying around,
with random students just picking on them.
thank god J. has taught me to be an EMOTIONLESS fuck.
if nt,
i tink i would have poured out my eyes in fronta those cadavers.
thank you Josh!
:S

ohhh surgical anatomy is good.
got surgies on wednesday.
not this wk, but the next.
YAY.
hope we dont get some axillary retarding op.
a nice cardio one would be good tho.(:

friday nite:::
went to Billboards cos heard from oh dearest vikram that its good.
well guess what hima the merlion had done to screw it up this time??
he was holding a harmless (oh so harmless) can of jim beam while queueing
and got us 'evicted' or so to speak.
HAHA. that cute lil boy, i tell u!
always finds SOMETHING for us (or at least, me) to tell the rest in school on monday.
the other time was his infamous "merlion" skills
of puking every 2 steps on the road,
as well as INSIDE the restaurant.
and last fri he wanted to tk me on for a challenge of drinking.
OKAYYYYY hima!
(: lets see who's going down. buwahahha *pinches hima's cheek*
ANYWAYYYYYY
we ended up at 255 (thanks to my dearestttt hima)
and after which, everyone went home and hima came back w me.
to drink- MORE.
S: oh wells.
ended up sleeping in the most unglam way ever on my couch.
(: ken picked up some korean girls at 255 and pat hooked up for a few hrs with some random brown (or DARK brown) guy.
heh. (:

i have the best news ever last nite!
megggg is coming to melb!
(I BET YOU MISS ME. haha)
yay. ok i CANNOT wait man!
its like... WHOAAA.
i really wanna see her.
(: shopping, movie-ing, pigging out, GOSSIPING, hiding in toilets (hehe),
yeahhh lifes good.

im weird. as in, feeling weird weird.
i cant sleep in my bed nowadays.
cos its too big for just ME.
i have to sleep on the couch downstairs.
hw weirdly queer is that.
and last nite,
i slept at like 9pm. (thats too early btw. start counting back to spore's timing)
yes.
and thanks meg for that lovely call.
PPLE CALL ME IF URE BORED.
(except weird shitheads thank you)
and yes she's COMING! (: 6 weeks.
im gonna make this 6 weeks the BEST time to prepare my very erotic mood for her.
(:
yay.

i realise one thing-
that youre not that hot anymore (well neither am i, haha)
and the only reason i can think of that would make me want you
is for the company.
cos' im USED to having you lying around,
coming over randomly,
JUST FOR FOOD sometimes (cos you knew i'd cook up a storm for u)
and just driving aimlessly on a random weekend.
maybe im used to the fact that im always with someone else.
cos when im with dilini and all, i feel normal.
like in spore.
with ppl always ard me.
and yet, at night,
when the bed's empty and no one's ard,
i turn to solitude and regret not begging you back.
but then again (according to Greg brendt's book)
the only thing you can keep after a broken relationship,
is your dignity.
so while YOU go ard doing shits,
i'd walk away with my pride.
(:

oh oh oh. thanks a million to STEFFIE for that lovely msg.
i cant wait to hear frm u sooooon.
heh. enjoy ur stay in spore
and back in london.
i knw you're excited bout it, as i am to be back in melb.
(: i miss you so much too my dear.
and yes, ilu* alwaysssssss.

ergh.
im in a freakin lib in monash on a sunday.
beat that, nerds!
(: a S-U-N-D-A-Y-.
yes. nerd as it may sound, i need the net.
my hse's net is down since forever.
and i got lil credit for my phone left.
so ppl, updates will be rare and pathetic.
(: teehee.

today is mass day.
yay. thank god for that (literally God).
i need help.
i need COMPANY.
okkkkay. so mayb coming hm to melb ALONE isnt exactly the best thing of my life.
but still,
the independence and freedom of faggin at every corner of my house.
and NOT having to care when a bottle of beer is spilled ALL OVER MY FUCKING COUCH.
@#$%^&*()_
yes you get the pt. (:
oh wells.

I NEED to quit faggin.
im dying.
and watching those bodies in the lab with BLACK lungs.
actually its pretty to see.
the grey lungs (to be exact) with black spots of emphysema.
the alveolis are black with tar.
(: well cant say im not disturbed that thats my body when i die.
);

of what perturbed nature has anatomy been built on.
a lil' too deep,
i reckon.