randommmmmm

there will always be an awkward liking of loneliness
when one's away from humanity for...
say...
a lifetime.

went chaddy yday
again? yes again.
and ran ard clayton.
NOT to lose wgt but to ran my impatience and angst off.
i reallly needed that.
and after,
dilini, elliot and i went to camberwell for sophia's.
but the queue was soooooo long that we changed plans.
went to a random hawthorn asian cuisine place.
and now,
im having the leftovers frm yday for today's brunch.
how enticing.

i just realised that les miserables is ending on 6th may.
GOTTAAAAAAA WATCH IT before it ends.
wheeeee.
(:
for what its worth,
thats exactly the way im feeling right nw-
miserable.
yucks.

i need to go into the cityyyyyyy.
im so bored out here.
nth to do.
no one to meet.
ohhhwaitttttttt a sec.
i could......
NAH.
):

pple,
dont watch Donnie Darko.
stoop movie. so lame.
and its too intellectual
esp for someone lk myself.
you have NO idea how annoying dilini n i can get,
just saying 'huh? wtf?' like a million times.

i miss my bungbo.
ok.
so random.
but i do!!
and i wish i knew what to say.
but then again,
i never do.
and even if i ever do,
you'd prolly nt hear me.

life is short.
period.
before my heart eats me from the inside,
i think i better get ready to rush off to church.
its a pounding feeling,
not knowing where or how to keep the faith.
unless of cos,
i meet jesus in my dreams n yadaa yadaaa.

i love God.
i do.
random again.but thats just me.

updating my world.

whoooopsie.
i havent updated in ... about one week??
oh well...

got my BEETLE MIAMI baby!!
i love it.
deep salsa red-
just like the dance i always loved.
(:
anddddddd ive been driving it practically EVERYWHERE,
til my petrol has gone down HALF a tank.
in 2 freaking days.
WOW.
why arent i surprised.

at dilini's place now.
update update.

anzac day- watched Scary Movie 4
F(*&^%$#$%^&* good showwwwww.
loved ittttt.
pple pls watch it (:
anyways,
just found out that exams end on the 7th June.
sooooooo means i wil prolly go home ASAP then! (((((((:
collected the car on wednesday.
thennnnnn yday (thurs),
went to watch the med movie "water".

basically,
its bout inequality towards widows in India.
did you knw that there are over 34 million of them there??
that's like....
TOO much.
period.

hahaha. anyways, nwadays,
whenever something makes me feel sick or sad or anything NON-productive,
i just laugh about it.
to no offence of cos.
i just do.

todayyyyyy,
after school (PCL) which was really f*cking early,
dilini, ken and i went to chaddy to walk ard for a bit.
and SHOPPED.
yes,
to counter the BAD BAD BAD week ive had,
(or more like month, or year)
i had RETAIL therapy!!
yesyes
got 4 tops and a pair of shoes.
pretty pretty.
now its officially secretless btwn us 3.
hahah we all knw EVERYTHING there is to know.
and mannnnnnnn was it good.
(:
-winks.

i had 3 fucking jabs today for my follow-up immunisation.
damn did it fucking hurt.
ohwell.
oh oh oh...
did i tell you,
i nearly got into accidents on the road,
cos i was REALLY distracted while driving.
not that it was a good-enough reason to reckless drive.
but it was sooooooo bad
i swear im nt stepping outta the house without my guards up,
and a clear mind.
-nod nod.

i hate you, but i love you
and i cant stop thinking of you
its true
im stuck on you

yes i really am.
and its driving me bananas.
i see you,
mr egoistic fucker,
apologize to everyone else about every lil thing,
but you cant even take a look at me now.
not that i expect you to,
but i'd appreciate a lil acknowledgement,
after every fuck you put me thru.
and the best thing is,
you KNOW im almost dead.
just sitting ard,
thinkn bout it,
and wondering wtf youre up to lately.
you KNW what ive been trying for.
and yet,
you undermine my existance.
dont turn my words back against me.
you knw its mine.
so pls dont turn ard,
with your back agst me,
telling me i shld let go.

cos NEWS FLASH!!
im the one who 'll be walking away.
watch me

dinner with mrs eu.

for pat,
its probably meeting the in-law.
(wahahhahahah)
-sniggers.
but for me,
its just another dinner with my friend elliot's mum.
we had sucha funny convo before,
about this dinner.
.............
elliot: u guys free on sunday?
me: yeahh! we're going to watch scary movie4?
elliot: yeah well, its KINDA like a scary movie.
me: .... -scratches head-
elliot: you get to meet my mum!!
EVERYONE stays silent.
me: oh damn! thats even scarier!! ):

hahahahha you gotta be there to actually anticipate the awkward silence
and fix up in ur mind
just how u're gonna dress, or present urself,
or fag less before meeting her,
to avoid the smell from killing her impression.
wahhahahahaha.

now, im at mannix- aka pat's room.
getting ready to meet mrs eu.
(:and im jst bored, figuring a entry today.
ohh went church at monash .
was nice, simple and... well, nice (:

got an hr left till elliot's aunt picks us to go to the dinner.
im figuring what to do nw
-looks ard pat's room-.
nahh nth.
ohh thankyew sarah jie!
for calling me up jst to hear frm me.
loveeeeeeeeeeeya to bits girl.
tk cr and call me soon.
imu so much. mwahhhs*

it's like telling me to let go of what i cant hold on to,
and i think i already know that.
i just never got to doing it.
cos i dont believe i mean nth.
nth at all.
you reckon?

i just wanna wish you well.

to J.::: hope ur bike lessons take a good turn.
RIDE safely.

you knw,
its really ironic,
how Breakfast rode a bike (and nearly died)
and now J.
and more alike,
they BOTH didnt ....
well...
bu yao wo.
):
so yeahhh shit happens.
it really does doesnt it??
i hate everything about life nw.
except my beetle!! (:

ohh yday was PFE @ albert rd.
THE BEST CLUBBING BY FAR.
omg.
it was just wickeeeeeeeeeeeeed. (:
loved it.
got drunk, thrown out, recovered, reentered, got drunk again.
fagged half my life away,
got ditched again,
hated men after that,
(intentions to turn lesbian),
failed,
fagged again,
got drunk.

in summary,
was good. (except for YOU)
POUT.
hate not getting what i need, or want.
sometimes you think im unreasonable,
other times,
you do just exactly what YOU want,
regardles of VALUES, morals, or respect.
(pls dont deny this j.)
everything is up to you,
up to what you want and
its always dependent on your mood.
you fling ard with the whole sea of girls.
and you expect me to sit still on the couch without conversing with others.
dont be selfish j.
you had your time,
now its mine.

leave me while it hurts.

they're leaving on a jetplane.
dont knw when they'll be back again.
no,really.
they're gone.

PPLE!
if theres one book i must recommend,
(dont mind my selfcentred arseholic attitude)
it'll be
"Its called a breakup because its broken".
NO REALLY.
daddy got it for me.
and its reallyyyyyyyyyyy good
for all sortsa pple.
not just tho heartbroken (which MIGHT be relevant)
but for everyone.
by Greg Behrendt.

today's exam was horrrrrificcc.
roar!
i hate protein shit
all that codon seq crapppppp.
hahahah and BTW i didnt even finish the fuckin paper cos i REALLY cldnt even mk out some questions.
gosh*
-slaps forehead.
and im starting to be a real nerd,
from....
MONDAY onwards.
yay (:

as for tonite,
im gg PFE!!!!!!!
yay so are all the tut ppl and of cos,
josh elliot pat ken phi ETCETC
i cant waittttttttttt.
(: (PLS, not cos of youknowwho)
purely cos i want to have fun.
and HONESTLY,
after reading that self-help/totally-relevant book,
it reallyyyyyyyy makes you wanna be someone.

i dont knw how i'll go frm here.
with the awkward stares
and INTENTIONAL avoidance-when-he's-near.
its the late nites at home alone,
spent with my bestfren Tequila
and Vodka,
her bf.
(:
hahaha.
the cold days,
spent faggin in the backyard,
and tryin not to cry,
not to care.

it aint that simple when you tink abt it.
somehow that ONE book spells out the failure of us.

Staying in a r/ship
that's on life support,
isn't going to
bring it back to life.
-Greg Behrendt.

and you wonder why i bother.

exams? nahhh

you're back.
ohhhh yipee (with utmost enthusiam im sure.)
why did you have to anyway.
we know you dont want to.

today is gonna be the last day imeet my parents
before they head hm
(without me, once again).
im skippin tuts today cos tmr is the big dayy!
EXAMINATION.
hahaha cldnt make it more intimidating, can i?
well.
on a lighter, and MUCh more enticing note,
tmr is PFE night.
yay. clubbbbbin with meddies.
howwwwww nice!(:
so mayb nw the significance of the whole exam idea is subtle.
its freakkin 5% or smth.
erghhh
theres a reason why med studs have a stigma on them
-n.e.r.d.s.
ohwell...

i was just melting to see a glimpse of you.
your usual side stroll down these stairways.
how will i ever tell you
just how much i want you.

random phrase.
picked it up frm my mind.
(of whats left of it)
oh oh oh oh ohhhhhh.
my lil sexaye beetle will be mine on wednesday.
6 more days!!!
(: yay.
the longest 6 days i'd ever have to endure.
(besides the fuckin transition camp i abhorrrrrrred)
i miss daddy and ad alr.
and its funny how i nv got to saying how grateful i am for that car they so willingly got me
or the effort/money spent in just coming here
and the perfect impression they left my frens with yday.
like there was no greater love,
than a family (and God of cos!)

but i'd never understand why you wldnt see that.
isit that hard to see,
that love is pure.
its just for you and me. ):

can't you just love me
once more?

i love daddy and ad

stayed at the Crown last nite.
got a wholeeeeee room to myself!!
(: it had 2 queen beds and ahellllll lovely toilet.
Which, btw, is soooo damn soothing.
(:

picked daddy and ad up.
and headed for dinner after settling dw.
YUMMYLICIOUS dining. (:
ohhh and we spent the nite at the casino.
(it was obvious who had lost,
and who dint)
and as fr myself,
it was a no-win-no-lose situation.
and im glad it's so.
ohhh and then slept for abt 3 hrs,
and woke in the weeeee hrs of the mornin'to get some reading done.
(guilt wldve consumed me if i didnt)
and i realise,
IM SO FUCKING DEAD,
i tell you!
))))))))))):

could no one help me out?

gg for dinner at the famous KingBo Seafood restaurant down in Chinatown soon.
with Pat, Elliot and my parents.
hope all goes well.
i just cant cant cant wait to indulge my already-obesed-and-need-to-cut-down savoury glands in tht seafoooooooood!
-licks lips.
with a touch of glam of cos.
(:
as for now.
MUG RACH.
(so much for terminating my studying pac)
):

i cant deny it, theres no one else.

YIPEEE-YAYE-YOOO.
(:
daddy dooooo and ad are probably leaving sg now.
I CANNOT wait.
heh.
its gonna be eventful and totally bad for my exam prep,
but honestly,
who gives a flying $%^&*^%?

thankyew meggie darlinks for passing them a bag of stuff for me (:
i can alr feel the sg love.
heh.

ohhhh
and special thanks to ALI (frm UAE)!!
he's bringing me to the airport to fetch my parents
and bringing them back to Crown.
(: thanks so much loveeeee.
appreciate it ALOTTTTT. (:
i owe you one big timeeeee!

im so lifeless.
i cant bring myself to have a cigg on the day my parents are coming
-control rach,control-
yet,
im just staring at the backyard,
only leaving me with IMAGINATION to enjoy a mornin eyeopener.
sigh.
is this how it feels when the addiction starts to wear off?
or when it aggravates the mind
to just try one more,
just one.
):
starting to have that evil urge
to get one more. sigh.
conscience? you there??
eats me frm the inside to knw what ive become.
and how ive become like this.
burning thru my body to get to my mind.
and then, it resides there to haunt me.
erghhhh.

say it if its worth saving me,
J.
you keep me hanging and come back to butt me off.
it isnt fair.
it really isnt,
J.

done with work.

you realise that ive been bloggin perpetually these days,
with at least 3 entries per day.
-how ironic.
its not as if i dont alr have enough work to catch up on.

and i decided to STOP all inflow of workload from now till exams.
prioritisingly,
cos i gotta get rest so tmr is cleaning day for me.
gotta get all the ciggies and dirt outta the window.
daddy wouldnt be pleased.
-shakes head.

as for my work,
SOMEONE pls ask me abt G proteins complex
and cell comm.
and all that #$%^&*()(*&^ sh*T!
I AM SOOOO ON right now.
(:

im so excited for my pap's arrival.
trivially,
cos im getting a car! (: yay.
and more significantly,
cos i get to spend the last few lingering moments of this easter break with the both of them.
how sweeeeeet is that ?!
-blushes.

im gonna die for the exam on friday.
3 full hrs of shit in the mind.
i hope i dont fail.
daddy REALLY wouldnt be pleased.
-uh uh.

as for you..
im speechless.
cos everytime i try to tell you how much you do mean to me,
i lose track of my thots
and it all falls apart.
and everytime i try to show you how dear you are to me,
i let pride or ego or retarded actions get the better of me,
and you'd break my heart.

so PFE night on the coming friday
will be the last straw for us.
or at least,
me.
im gonna party like its the last.
im gonna drink like its the sweetest thing.
im gonna dance like im nt saving the last dance for you.
and im gonna have fun,
jst the way you like to.
cos as much as your selfishness has kept me tamed,
i figured,
im not yours anymore.

we're halfway there.

looking at your nick.
and all you aspire to be,
all you wish you were doing,
how you wish you didnt have to come back to melbourne,
come back to me,
how i wish,
you'd sing it to me instead.

whoa we're halfway there
whoa we're living on a prayer
take my hand
we'll make it i swear
whoa we're living on a prayer.

life's a bitch.

i cant believe its monday alr.
theres so much left to do,
to study,
to think about,
to practically get over.
yes.
im still tryin'.

daddy and ad's coming tmr.
i cant wait.
(:

okokok
elliot and pat are here now to study at mine's.
gotta get down to work.
seriouslyyyyyyyy.

to those who thought i cldnt live without

to those i couldn't live without,
i did it,
didnt i?

easter sunday:::
had a LOVELY lunch at pat's aunt's place.
lasagna(sp?), CHOCOFUDGE cake, potato salad, TURKEY, homemade sauce (i loved that), etcetc
then we watched Ice Age 2 @ Chaddy. (it sucks btw, but the company was perfect-pat)
then we went to Malaysian Garden for dinner w her aunt agn.
it was nice!!!
-yummylicious!-
then went back to her place for MORE desserts
like chocs, cakes, beanie soup!
(:

now i can truly proclaim.
its a blessed easter for me.
(:

happy easter!!!!

whats easter without a family's warmth in the cold....?
F-R-I-E-N-D-S!

ha-ha-happy easter!
hope everyone's having a blast of a time
(even amidst mugging for our med exam)
wahahhahahaha.
chill.
today is EASTER man!

im really downright with cheapthrills.
just ate cocopops for brekkie
and im elateddddd over that.
(dont question my retardation)
hahahaha.
today,
ll be gg to pat's aunt's place for easter lunch.
aaahhhh.
see!!
doesnt mean the family's away,
we cant have a normal easter.
(tho daddy wld really be a shot for me right now ): )
teared when i got daddy dooo's msg
"before i formed you in the womb,
i knew you"
isnt that the sweetest thing to heaven you've heard?

all cos it comes from daddy pooooo my love.
its a ringing feeling having to study on easter.
and harping on that just isnt helpin much.
but i'll b home soon.
(((((:

pple!!
d/l and listen to ALL of babyface's songs.
i seriously cant tink of one song of his that i dont like.
like....
-the loneliness
-when i close my eyes
-someone to love
-drama,love & 'lationships
-nobody knows it but me
etcetcetc
heh.

to all back home,
esp the churchies, megg,tiffie, linnie!! :::
my lovesssss.
have a blessed easter.
and be good! studyyy (whenever applicable)
and knw tt all my prayers and love is for you.
(: i love you all. mwakkk*

happy easter

SO SICK of love songs- Ne-yo

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore

(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

this is my song, lala lala.

a random neighbour came over yday to give me 3 free pizzahut's pizzas.
wheee.
he's Saf,
frm UAE.
its funny cos someone sent me a "arabic meat rap" thru bluetooth in lecture that day
and it was so blasphy to them.
anywayyyy
THANKYEW for the pizzas.
(:

rusdiiiiii just left my place.
he stayed over.
we studied from like 2pm-12am
(with a hell lotta breaks in btwn)
but the fact is that we tried.
and fuck was it useful.
(:

yay. nw its 10.51am (notice the specificity)
hahaha.
and im gonna start studying.
again.
YAAAAY how fun ):
im a nerd. someone stop me. wahahahha.

and btw
i still have 3 boxes of pizzies so anyone hungry?? (:
i miss home.
ok r-a-n-d-o-m-.
i really do.
daddy and ad are comin' in like 3 days.
YAY.
ohfuck. i need an mp3.
DAMN. ad's nt gonna get me one in time for tues.
(i knw hw she'll complain i dint tell her in advance)
SIGH.
ohwells....
shit happens. (again).
ROAR.

i bloody hell need a source of music
cos
a) i walk 30mins to school everyday and i have to SING to myself
b) im devoid of soul-healing harmonic tunes (and i NEED that right now)
c) i forgot how to function one.

soooo. pt is..
i need a life
(utter irrelevance but arghh wtf)

OKOKOK
stop bloggin nonsense and get to work rach!
-jiayous-.
(someone back me up)

mass. a-shockin.

TODAY's mass was just bizarre.
-in a good way of cos.

Catholic, Anglican and another Christian church combined to do the stations of the cross.
it was long
(2hrs PLUSPLUS)
and was hotttt.
but it was simply unbelievable to see 3 VERY different churches tog.
we accomodated the 3 different styles of services and
praise n worship.
and in the end,
we ALL realised,
we're not that different really.

all in all,
we're all based on LOVE.
and it dint matter whether we sang withhangs raised,
or simply in our own reserve of worship.
we ALL still had the same God in mind
and to us,
it was enough.
(:

theres nth glam abt dying.

today is good friday.
well...!!
Have A Blessed Good Friday!!

rembr...
abstinence today. (:

gotta clean up this sty of mine.
rus is coming over to study
(for once we're not playing or talking)
laters.
anddddd my hse is like a warzone.
seriously.
even a refugee camp wldve beaten this shit hole.
):
yay
once i get back frm church,
i gotta browse ard forrrrr.... CARS.
whee whee wheeeeee.
beetle is my first choice.
hope daddy doesnt mind tht.
:)))))))))))))))

and as for everyone back home,
with lotsaaaaaa loveeeeeeeeeeeee.

to tiffie:::
thnksssss for that damnnnn EARLY msg.
hahhahahaah
nearly died opening my eyes in the weeeee hrs just to read ur msg.
hahahah but i appreciate it
love!!
u have fun too
(tho i really dont see hw Good Fri can be fun)
ahahahhahha
well...
in church then!
lol.
mwahhhh*

passed. one day.

just calling up home from melb seemed so trivial
but upon talking to my NANA,
iloveyou with all my heart!!
and also to danielle and sarah jie!!,
i realised,
I HAVE TO GO HOME IN JULY.

its the reality that nana isnt doing well.
and danielle and sarah and i NEED TO CATCH UP.
and the simplest love
of seeing my fam-
esp the kiddos.
i realllyyyyyy miss home rite now.
-nostalgia-.

listening to seriouslyyyy sappy songs is really not helping.
butttt wtf.
:S
now i can fully explain why the f- im so sad.
its sappy, useless love-heartbroken songs' fault
all the whys and the hows and the when will you come back shit
is really gettin up mah nerves.
someone turn that bloody tune off.
its been running in my head for a wee bit too long.
and yes,
im missin ...

called ky my bungbo last nite.
it sounded 'excited.
purely cos i was.
and poor youuu,
tired frm all the trainings and stresses in schwk.
well,
it was bloody good to hear ur voice.
apart frm the constant ramblings of the meddies,
it was worthwhile.
hearing you talk,
i gave my first smile.
of the entire month.

yes,
its been a month already.

i cant even rembr how the roads in spore work.
only my hse to church and to alameen.
the rest is just a blur.
i need a retour of my home.
moving to hazelpark is gonna be fun.
but i mite just live in cashew hgts still.
hazelpark will DEF be overcrowded.
wahahaha (:

ohhohhhohhh.
me n tiffie dearest have been talking practically EVERYDAY on the phone!!
gotta say,
THANK YOU dear!!
i miss u alot now,
hahaha not used to not talkin to you alr.
(: tho we prolly cant see each other in july or smth,
study hard
and i'll be callin u...
mayb tmr?? hahaha
loveeee ya.
(btw dont worry bt me. ITS nt failing. yet)

to megg:
IM DEPRESSED.
i hate all those *toot* men.
wahahaha.
imu and love youuu
mwahhhs*
thks for calling.
and listening so well.
(: love.

just rembrd,
you r back in spore since this morning.
and im stil here.
it gave me a head start to realise how diff we r.
and i cant start to explain hw much i wish i was home too.
and it bugs me that we're like this.
cos' i tried.
i really did.
you just dint notice.
and nw with tiff,
(and our secret to FORGET)
i realise,
i cant have you.
you're jst not into me.
and i dont have to take that.

let me let go.

so my heart's a-mess.
and no its not helping that im stuck home alone without any food.
*pukes.
on the lighter note,
thank yew kaisarrrrrrrr
my ex-driving instructor!! (:
heh he tapped the wireless internet for me
and nowwwwwwww......
I GOT FREE INTERNET! (:
heh.
cheap bastards.

i really shld learn some manners.

yes, as i was ranting,
today's lectures are unbearable.
really.
f*CK IT MAN.
@#$%^&*()*&^%$#@
i actually listened for fucking once
and nth went thru.
fuck those braincells.
useless.
OH OH OH.
and we had sex ed today.
was fuckin NON-SENSE.
it states that abt 5% of med studs smoke.
and 30% binge drink.
ANDDD.....
100% males masturbate (does that include....?)
anddddd 85% women too. (THATS SO NOT TRUE)
andddddd.
majority of 1st yr med studs will enter med virgins ...
does that mean they leave wasted?
haha
well that sums up the irrelevance of SEX ED at uni.
ohwell
shit happens. fuckthat.

theres a danger in lovin somebody too much-.

dad n ad r coming in a week!
wheeeepeeeeee (:

medical jargon vs aussie slang.

i really dont know if i should be happy
or filled with regret.
the amount of shit thats goin on,
i really doubt it'll last more than a day.
and what you took from me
isn't gonna get a replay.

*pouts!
just realised that the jargon we are obliged to use,
is destroyed with the arms of the inevitable aussie slang,
mate!!
(:
with shreds of aye
and mate
and crikey!
i believe doctors have lost their roots.
:))))))))

yesterday (as ive alr ranted on abt)
i was wasted.
taken.
flooded.
and plastered.
all in which spells high
and i figured just how many times we have to repeat ourselves
just to get the same point across.
hahah. ok so random post.
darnit.
losing my feel.
cheers mate! (:

medical jargon vs aussie slang.

i really dont know if i should be happy
or filled with regret.
the amount of shit thats goin on,
i really doubt it'll last more than a day.
and what you took from me
isn't gonna get a replay.

*pouts!
just realised that the jargon we are obliged to use,
is destroyed with the arms of the inevitable aussie slang,
mate!!
(:
with shreds of aye
and mate
and crikey!
i believe doctors have lost their roots.
:))))))))

yesterday (as ive alr ranted on abt)
i was wasted.
taken.
flooded.
and plastered.
all in which spells high
and i figured just how many times we have to repeat ourselves
just to get the same point across.
hahah. ok so random post.
darnit.
losing my feel.
cheers mate! (:

take some time to listen.

LAST NIGHT WAS VAVAVOOOMILICIOUS!
dint go Metro as planned cos there was a private function.
so we turned to the next resort,
Grand Hyatt's MONSOON!
f*cking wicked!
(:
boring at first with no more than like ten of us (which is sad)
but the crowd flowed in
and f*ck was it a blast!
we drank our hearts out (literally)
and danced the night away (also literally).
the only inclusion that was unnecessary and pathetic
was the guys who flaunt their ferraris and harleys to pick up girls.
-shamingly me-
ergh.oh oh oh
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY DILINI!
(: loveeeeeeee you to bits.
hahaahha

oh yes.
dilini was drunk
by like 11.
and she grabbed me in the girls toilet
and.....
*TMI*
hahahhahaha ok i better stop here.
as for anshini and dilini,
both bimbos sauntered ard lookin for hot guys but soooo dint work.
came back dishevelled frm the rummagin thru sweaty bodies.
and honestly,
whats with that FIGI guy who wldnt let me leave the fuckin club
and yanked me back like 0987675634657 timeS!
f*CK OFF $%^&*()*&^%$#@$%^&*(
heh.
my bad.

overall the party was simply... memorable.
(tho i shant stop ranting about those 4 b*stards)
and yes,
time to mug cos now,
MIDYEARS ARE HERE.
im shivering just thinkin of it.
oh wait.
thats the weather.
yeah.
its fucking 9 degrees now.
what a change.

im so bloody sick now its nt even funny anymore.
i got
-cough, flu, fever (high btw), sore throat, mucoviscousaemia (hahahaaaa), gastric ulcer, cramps, UTI (wahaha) etcetcetc.
all the flyin illnesses you can tink of.
oh wait.
and Nostalgia too.
can that be my illness too?
thinkin of megg tiff and linn specifically today.

to megg darlink:::
sorry dear abt last nite.
i cldnt leave the club,
purely cos it was too jammed.
(: i love you most still dear.
sorry yeah. i miss you

to linn:::
it crossed my mind that your reply hasnt reached me in almost a month!
i love you and i wish i could better communicate with you
via DIRECT CONTACT.
hahahaha. but still
worth the while.
(: mwahhhs*

to tiff:::
hey my bimb!
dont be depressed lah.
that #$%^&* is not worth you AT ALL.
tk my word for it.
and thanks for being there literally everyday.
doing our 10mins redial routine.
we cheapskateS!
hahahaha
and i knw that alot of things happened and it shldnt.
and youre helping me see that,
but sometimes
i cant help it.
he's too zai
i dont know what to do.
(: mwakkks loving you girl.

pple.
listen to songs like One Love- Mary J Blige n U2
and
Kelly clarkson's Walk Away
oh man.
its hypnotic man! (:

did i disappoint you
or put a bad taste in your mouth.
you act like nothing happened,
now you expect me to live without.
its too late, tonight.

THIS SONG IS SO YOU.
omg.
getting a hint of dismay.
i know i shouldnt have.