i cant deny it, theres no one else.

YIPEEE-YAYE-YOOO.
(:
daddy dooooo and ad are probably leaving sg now.
I CANNOT wait.
heh.
its gonna be eventful and totally bad for my exam prep,
but honestly,
who gives a flying $%^&*^%?

thankyew meggie darlinks for passing them a bag of stuff for me (:
i can alr feel the sg love.
heh.

ohhhh
and special thanks to ALI (frm UAE)!!
he's bringing me to the airport to fetch my parents
and bringing them back to Crown.
(: thanks so much loveeeee.
appreciate it ALOTTTTT. (:
i owe you one big timeeeee!

im so lifeless.
i cant bring myself to have a cigg on the day my parents are coming
-control rach,control-
yet,
im just staring at the backyard,
only leaving me with IMAGINATION to enjoy a mornin eyeopener.
sigh.
is this how it feels when the addiction starts to wear off?
or when it aggravates the mind
to just try one more,
just one.
):
starting to have that evil urge
to get one more. sigh.
conscience? you there??
eats me frm the inside to knw what ive become.
and how ive become like this.
burning thru my body to get to my mind.
and then, it resides there to haunt me.
erghhhh.

say it if its worth saving me,
J.
you keep me hanging and come back to butt me off.
it isnt fair.
it really isnt,
J.