i m finallie happy again.

fer a start, i had f-u-n. without a single intention of cursing the day.. lionel dearest came at bout 2.30pm to pick me up. sweet sweet him brot me thru the rain! sweet ayes? (nt like i wld hv dissolved tho...) haas. aniway. its sweet oK! den we watched NATIONAL TREASURE. greattttt show. like the Da Vinci code book. slurps. nice~! aniway, we ate dessert at nooch n met sarah n mark at BT. ate perfecttt laksa n played pool. i sucked. but at least i tried yeas? hahas. n fer once in my life, i feel greattttt. tink of this all... a guy who has been JUST DERE waiting fer years, but u nv noticed him. n he secretly holds u within him. n he waits below ur hse fer u. n shelters u from the patter of the rain. n i tink to myself, wad a wonderful world den u realise u gotta go soon, so he's intangible to u. den again, he mit wait fer ur return. maybe not. yeah, maybe not. =( n i must frivolously declare Arun is a sweeeeeet guy too. sighs. i'll miss him from 5thJan. plsss come back soon aiights? xp i miss meaghan. y do i miss everyone so sooon? must catch up deaR! we're missing out on too much le!! n plus u'll prolly b too bz without me, but wif acjc's friggin bowling. sighs. imu n ilu darlinkz. oh yeas, thx fer helping me too. if u cant den its reallie no biggie. i miss u. oh n btw pple, STOP asking me stoopid qns bout my POSB acct no. dere IS a difference btwn acct no and pin code. acct no. means its ur BANK acct. NOT ur password u imbeciles. OMG u pple reallie need a brain check.

oh mannn

hv been unreasonably broKe recently. all cos im leaving soon. sighs. im rambling again. went to watch kung fu hustle ydae. was farnie. n watched ocean's 12 today, even farnier! haha wells, i jsut got my bill fer m1. die. it wasss highest record ever. sighs. -someone pity me- n i hvnt bot ANITINK yet. no toiletries, no laptop, no winter wear, no NTH no NTH. sighs. this sucks. NO LUGGAGE either, sighs. i duntnoe y i bother to panic when no one else is. wells, anione wanna contribute to Rachel's Poor Foundation? my POSB acct no. is 010361990. haha REALLIE. unfortunately fer u all, its only a tranfer-into acct! (which means without my pin code, u cant hv access to my money! nt like there's any!) haha. wells, rachie is sooooo poor ting k. she has prolly nv felt so loss bout money matters. sighs. finallie i understand the meaning when pple say 'im broke'. ha. today i m OFFICIALLY brOke. broker than my idea of broke b4.. feel so weak without money. no wonder $$ is the root of all evil. sighs. im sssssshagged. cos of financial incapabilities in the past month, i hv to tk BUS home. sighs. it was nv like this b4 ok! dun get me wrong, i like buses. but nt in the middle of the nite!! sighs =(

k ANIWAY, i miss my mummy again. dreamt of her today. hope she rembrs tat... aniway, i tink i hv to go dig my grave deeper today. i reallie have no idea where im heading after this blog. no life. no cash to party like i shlddddd. no nth!! thks to my excessive spendings on 'supposed' sales which still amounts to the same cost. so much fer having sales. cos even if u pay less fer smtg, u buy more stuff which adds up to the original cost of the stuff. sighs, life's a bitch. so m i.

happy boxing day *punch!*

yday was funnnn. frens started coming over from bout 5 onwards. the hse was filled with hungry adults n their cuteeeee lil kiddos.kinda annoying fer a start. argh, but its xmas season. there's no biggie bout nOiSe. well, i invited all my cousins, meaghan darlinkk, scully, kevie, baobei, nicholas the arse!, lionel sweets n etcetc. funn. different grps of pple came together to play the game 007 n Tiger. ohh n OBVIOUSLY baobei cant count. HAHA sorrie deaR! wells, we had fun. drankk alot alot. esp notti notti nicky! tat dumbo. was late fer his probation as well i tinkkkkkk. wells, overall, the hard work in the morning was worth it man!!! sweets i tell u, oh yeas,... heres the FEW stuff i got fer xmas tat u lurveeeeeee. -an adidas pull over sweater. (n its orange!) -a top (from the US) -a pink pants (courtesy of Becky sis!) -some angel-prints stuff -a ferragamo perfume set!! (thks Lionel) -stuff from bodyshop (just wad i need fer aussie! ha) -dream catcher (its pink n fr my baobei) -a choker n earrings -a diamond necklace n ring (fr subra. UH~!) there's too many to name. but i love EVERYone's gift. no matter how big or small. it just makes "giving" a better name. wells, thks one n all. grreat to hv u guys over. love~!! =) k. now im bored. hope my visa gets thru. nt much news from them. tink its failing. im rather skeptical abt the fact tat the australian commissioner has absolutely no clue abt my condition. via my status actuallie. nt sure wtf's on their mind. n i dunt wanna noe. n in any case, i hvnt started packing, neither hv i started shopping fer stuffs to pack. SIGHS. wad the hell ritE? wells, i gtg TRY to act lk i givashit abt life b4 i leave. )=

my wishlist x)

i had a sad dream. chris told me very nice stuff to hear. but it was a dream. n it remains a dream. my christmas 2004 wishlist is up. haha. *hint hint* wahaha, no la, just a SIMPLE one *grinx* (not in order of importance.) -a Tiffany n Co. charm bracelet -a Levi's 593 shaded jeans -aNy adidas stuff. (but i got most of it alr.) -a BMW 7 series.(bel wants it too!) -a new hp wif camera (the sliding one) -a Dior pink bag. -kaaching! -allllot more! i want the whole of taka!! (haha) gosh. yday went mass at midnite. so hot. aiyo. den i was superrrr happy cos i met 2 gorgeous almost childhood frens who returned from aussie!!! Jayne the chiobu n tiffany my sweetheart!!! haha wahhhhh, i tell u . both hv grown so tall n whoaaaaa. simply gorgeous. *yummylicious* good catch guyS!~ well.. just hope they're happy wherever they go. gosh* they din forget me either, sighs* how i tink i WAN to forget things n pple when i go aussie as well. hmmss... oh the day before yday, we all went belly's hse. gosh* i was asked to tell baobei abt smtg. -top secret- but now he noes le!! n its scary cos he told me smtg else more scary! n sad. so... yupps. hope tings get better fer us each day. ok... n i must say thks to one n all fer being so concern. the moment i published my last entry, over 10 pple called to ask bout my illness n stuff. GOSH** haha. u pple r hellava updated yeaS? in anycase, thk u all so much. n noooo.... DYING is not gonna b on my list fer the next few decades, so dun worry tat the illness can kill me. im nt that weak u noe.., (k well maybe only my heart is.) i just realiseD! that explains my softheartedness to men. haha,.oh wells, just wana say MerRy chRiStmaS to u all. god speed his word to u. spread his love fer us to every by extending ur help to those who need us. give those in despair a chance to enjoy happiness. n let our Lord lead the way as u go. ((peace out)) n btw, my results r out, im nt gonna die. but i just need treatment. but since i go aussie, i'd rather nt go fer it. dunt worrie peeps. IS BINNY TAT WEAK? x) luv u ALL.

once again im fucked.

wtf. IDP is soooo unreasonable. I CANT GET EVERYTINK RIGHT... one reminder readers::: read my blog n leave. STOP accounting to my sister fer anitnk i say. dunt mention a tink to anione i noe... or in this case, me. get a friggin life. life's a bitch. we gave my fuckedupandstillsoarrogantmum a nickname.... so she wont noe when we're talking abt her. wahaha. now isnt life jsut a simple big bitch ad? i feel like the devil in exorcist. forever screaming vulgarities haha. well mayb i m. GOSH* wad m i saying/? i hv nv felt so much hate b4. but when i tink of how much i miss youuu my clique n meggs my darlinks!!! i feel loved again. but den again... whats the use of feeling loved when u LIVE in a hse with hatred bubbles bursting in ur face. i feel devoid of positive emotions. i feel trapped. like i wanna run but i cant catch up wif myself. NOW im at hm, whilst mie frens are camping at sentosa. i miss baobei too. he's sooooo lovely to me. sighs. where have all the good men gone? none waited fer me... heres the fuckedup convo we had today... she:: u can go to a different lawyer, RACHEL (wif ascending tone) me:: u cant. can u just fuckin listen to me? fer once. OH Wait... i tink tats too much fer u. she:: hu says i dun listen? ydae u screwed up everitink in the med checkup n u wan me to listen to u? (oBVIOUSLY she hasnt admitted defeat/) me:: HELLO? i screwed up?? an illness is wad i got. can u PRETEND u bother whether im dying or not? shE:: dying? its just a heart disease. ((ooook.here's the part i got confused wif myself.) me:: WOW. so u realise i hv that klinda disease/ WOW. n i actually tot u din realise i was dying she:: of cos i noticed. u cried so much n nearly fainted. me:: (see wad i mean? i just dunno y stepmoms dunt get it) ooook. obviously u ignored my suffering on purpose. she:: who's ignoring u? we spent so mcuh on u... (blahblaH) me:: *whispers*double bitch uh. so idp how? visa? she:: i booked the lawyer today. me:: TODAY? dad's nt back!!! hw to certify it? she:: tats wad i said! me:: (HUH??) wtf!! i just told u tt la. so how ? shE:: how i noe?? ((n she claims mothers noe best)) c wad i mean. my own fucking mother can actuallie tell me to my face that its only a small disease. every disease no matter how small is fatal. nah~ but its only death wad. NO BIGGIE x( i wanna leave now. wanna run away. but i cant. nt cos im scared or broke, but... cos I GOT A F*CKING HOLTER TEST INJECTED IN ME FER 24HRS!!! sooo i hv to remove it at the docs first. haha. u tink i wldnt hv alreadie ran away??

22nd dec declared e worst day ever.

**i tried to die. it didnt work. and now i have to face a restless family.** oh my fuckking hellllll. just to let u noe, if i dunt blog tmr, im either dead or killed. nono, im serious la fuckk. went fer my medical checkup. EARLY. so fuck my father fer scolding me this morning. den everytink went well UNTIL the doctor spotted my heart's irregular pumping. k. here's where the fuck starts. he gave me a ECJ test where i hv to strip n lay wif stickers pasted all over my body. den a scan-o-gram will b drawn. DEN.... instead of a normal up n down motions we c in movies, mine was all pointing downwards. shows signs of abnormal waves called tentricula ectopic beats. its supposed to b when ure heart has some hole den it leads to an alternative pathway fer ur blood to flow. which leads to the ultimate heart disease. like wtf rite? k. so i had to meet a cardiologist. he did an ultrasound scan n another ECJ. which all ended in negative results. so my mum got pissed n told them to skip the last test- the holter test. this test is weird. im supposed to wear this ipod-looking device which is connected to 2 wires with needles injected in my chest. must wear fer 24hrs. den it will record ur heart traces. n according to my doctorSSS, they all said the same ting... "others dunt even have 1 tentricle beat. u have almost 500 in an hr" so my ohsolovingggggggFUCKED stepmum said forget abt the holter test.. its only a waste of $$. HELLO!?!?!??! ure veryyyyyyy own daughter is on the verge of getting heart disease n u care abt URE shopping $? oh pls. my ownnnn father oso said its a waste. HELLO again. i m fucking dying in the hospital. n every jab i get, i cry till it hurts. AND my mum can actuallie stand w her arms folded like a bitch, rite bside me while i cried n went unconscious. OH FUCK U AD n MY DAD. oh wait. ... n UR HUSBAND. u understand the meaning of suffering? now i admire God fer being able to tolerate pple WATCHING him suffer without a care. I AM DYING OK. n nw UR HUSBAND is scolding me... u noe fer waD?? fer having HEART PROBLEMS. WOW. okok. REALITY CHECK HERE?!?!? this prob is the result of INBORN INNATE problems. mayb u shld check ur heart too dad/ad, this prob mite hv been hieraditary.OH FUCK PARENTS who tink their always rite. u noe wad. this time ur right ad... cos u owaes wished i hadnt existed aniway. maybe when i die (thks to u.), i'll haunt u n tell u exactly how it felt having 4 injections, 2 ultrasound scans, 1 ECJ test, 1 holter n 907460943786 needles fucking piercing into ur skin. ur blood. u will bleed. more than i did. u will live wif the FACT tat u let ur own daughter suffer while u spent frivolously on Xmas shopping. now there r so many charities asking fer donations n all, y nt u start giving a lil care to ur own fuccking daughter. OH WAIT. UR NOT MY OWN mother. my mother is happier, wayyy more generous, prettier (tat goes widout saying), FUCKKING SKINNIER, lovelier, gentler.... this can go on man. OPS im sorrie. i din mean to b so frank. MAYBE THis is how YOU sound like when u say i shld hv died earlier too. n YES.... i m proud to say i finallie heeded ur advice to die earlier. so i tried to die. BUT NOOOoo. god says im too precious to let a bitch (thats youuu) ruin my life. the day i die of ani cause is the day Jesus comes down right here. N that day, my ohsowelllovedfuckking mother, is the day u'll never live to see. dunt mind me being rude. ooooh noooo. i wldnt dare b rude. u mite just deprive me of YET ANOTHER meal.ooooh nnnnnnnoooooooo... i wldnt dare offend u, wld it? bsides the fact that... 1.) u told the doc i owe u lots fer my med check up 2.) u told daddy my sickness is a fuccking nuisance 3.) u claim u care. but u wldnt spend a few hundred to SAVE me. 4.)ure just u. (and that is a worldwide catastrophy. n i'll curse u fer tat) ad n dad,... y do u question my sanity? DO I LOOK like i enjoy being sick? do i look happy in the 4 hospital tests' rooms? i went thru so many hrs today to get well n all u can ask abt is the student visA? aussie? is tat y ure so mad? cos my visa is late?? PLS my parents-by-assertion, u dunt noe a fuckking ting abt pain. if ur idea of pain is working like a mad dog everyday, den ure wrong. God endured his fate. NOW tat is pain. nt ur small paper-cut wound tt u insist will get infection. I AM THE FUCKING VICTIM of a heart infection/inflation. n i dun ask fer anitink. NOT even concern which i rightfully deserve OK! fuck. today is derefore the worst day of my life. i tink tmr mite b better, cos nth NTH NTH can get worse than this. thk god i hv great frens. unlike somepple who FAKE their sincerity. OH YA... in any case, i dun c y i cant pay u back every cent of my medical fees. since u need $ to shop fer XMAS (more like on urself cos u need more cloth than others. UH!~) den i'll bend, i'll beg, i'll kill. just fer that meagre 1300++ which u claim u worked hard fer.ohhhh pls. have u seen urself??? u get paid without stepping into the office. u get money whenever u ask dad. OH PLS u dunt noe the meaning of hardwork. a factory is hard work. nt a home wif a plasma tv, fully air con, wif so many fuckking babies u can set up a nursery. n thks to UR greatness, im weeping like a bitch at home. cos u insist i dun step outta the hse ritE? WELL WELL, THIS TIME I'll PROVE "older, wiser n better people to be profoundly in error in things in which they expressed their utmost assurance" (abstract of lit again). HA! nt bad huh? i quote well. listen up bitch, u touch me i'll kill u,

o

oh ya.a reminder. anione hu tries to comfort me by tellin me to forgive n forget. den fuck off. cos the only reply ure getting from me is 'ok. i'll definitely forget U'. so buzz off. i look like a hantu wif my bloodshot eyes n draggy long hair. watch out halloween. the devil is in town.

yay. visa is done but im still fucked.

well,.. went IDP today. done my friggin visa le!! den i went fer a medical checkup with Xray at cairnhill den went to meet a lawyer to ceritfy some documents. (in actual fact, its just to certify my ignorance fer being under 18yrs old. bLeahS xP.) aniway, after spending loadsa cash, (haha) we went to get loadsa other visa-related stuff done! whee. freakin tiredddd. lols. den i went to meet kevie bel scully baobei. den met linn my one n only dere by coincidence n joanne too! hahaha. miss u all loads le!! =) =( k. well, went to cussie's hse fer jeremy dear's bdae partieEE!!! nice food yums yums.*licks lips* hahas. wells... watched -superstar-. FARNIE show man. best.the gal was frenching the tree!! EWWW. UH~! ANIWAY... im blogging ((once again.)) to complain abt how my life is being reversedly scRewed by my oh-so-likable-NOT mum. okok. well... obviously she eavesdropped on my convo wif scully n used it agst me today. WHOA. tats TOTALLY how nice she is to me :( n worse still,... she act ohhh-so-pitiful till 'a drop of blue tear was looked upon her part' (abstract of my lit booK!) WOW. n i started crying too. n here's our retarded convo... me: eh. i nv said u were stingy ok! who did u hear it from? obviously he doesnt like me much. UH!~ her: it doesnt matter! me: it does when im the freaking victiM! urghhhhh. her: den y r u ashamed of letting ur college see ur family? u noe it hurts when u say u r embarassed of ur sisterS? we all work soooo hard fer u n u dunt appreciate our efforts... (blah. this cld go on ferever.) me: WTF?!?! when m i embarasseD? i slog fer my sisters ok! i pay fer every fucking ting tat goes ard in the friggin household ok? n i m embarasseD? i go everywhere looking fer a job so that all my sisters, even the twins, dunt starve when i m gone! u tink its fun working in a fucking factory?? (well, now u noe y i reallie wanted to find a jobb sighs. my efforts r wasted.) her: *sobs* den y u crying? ashamed of wad has become??? or of ur sisters?? me: im crying cos im ashamed tat i hv a mother like u, who suspects me of my own sisters n tink so lowly of me. if im unappreciative, i wld hv took the 11000bucks n led a fucking better life den now. kk. so here's how we argued on n on n on ... till we reached a jam in town. i got so fucked pissed i walked out of the car n walked from god-noes-where to cine. FUCK my life upside down will ya? if ANIONE of u is gonna tell me -=she's ur mum after all... blahblah=- den fuck off. screw up someone else's life. tat's nt how u console a f*ckist. ohh. i forgot to add tat the ONLY friggin reason ive bcome so vulgar is cos of youu ad. i dun deserve wad uve done to me, or how ure treating me animore. i dunt deserve being here. the only one hu needs some counselling ard here is youu. tk a look now, its christmas. CHRISTmas, nt SATANmas rite? get a grip. ure nt an angel.

still.

** im stil mad abt u. im stil tinking of u. i still want u n need u by my side. i still dream abt u. all i ever wanted was u. ure still the one. ure still the one.** -STILL yes yes. ure still the one. (which one?? haha.) wells... i just loveeeeeeeee tat song.. to scully:: listen to it. u'll realise that we dunt owaes end up marrying the person we love most, but we must CHOOSE to love him most alritES? haiis. telling u all this but im another love fool. had conference yday with 3 other pple. scully me baobei kevie. wahhhh kevie's fone so annoying! keeping ps-ing us. haha. oh yeas... we gossiped a lot a lot. n i found out smtg last nite:: MEN canNOT gossip. all baobei gossiped was over one insignificant, undetailed info! haiis. tats called junk mail. haha. =p. oh ya. heres the exciting part!~ when we put down the fone (finallie.... at bout 5.38am!!) i msged baobei goodnite n all la. den i answered his question abt who i'd save first... the husband or the parents!! on the fone i said none or the parents i tinkk. den i NOE tat he noes im lying... haha xP sorrie baobei. so i msged him again. anddddddd.... he replied me... ::: good nite bao bei. i will save u if u r the one (in the sea) baobei. love you. muachx. NOW...how exciting is taT? haha im so glad i got a baobei litat. he tks reallllll good care of me woR! n im proud of that!! hahas. d--uh. haiis. scully me bel nick kevie baobei plan to stay in scully's new condo when i return from aussie. WHOA. all of us? hahas. so now we need room-planning!!! u all dun purposely aR!!! bleahs =X haha. i realise i cant stop blogging nowadays. nvm. when im in aussie i sure no time to blog le. hahas. n ive been faithfully reading other's blog. wahh... i tell u... i just found out the wholeeeee world is gg Melbourne to study. wtf rite? just when i tot i din hv to bear the consequence of ending up in cjc or acjc or sajc whilst having toilet hideouts from 'enemies'/with meg!!! haha. and nowWWW... they r allllllllllll in aussie. wah. heard they live riteeeee near me. F*CK. gosh**wad a life catastrophy man. fucked. im fucked.im bruised n fucked. yupps. SIGHS =( u noe... its nt tat i hate anione, but it seems they keep finding trouble wif me. since wat... sec !? im totally fucked. mind my language. im nt exactly in the best of moods hearing the news. F*CK! screw life. n all in it. -peaceout-

fuckk idp man...

wad da fuckk is IDP doing?? woke up early today. thks to my fATHER hu called my hp to wake me up. he yelled like mad... insisting tat i hvnt gotten my visa fer aussie cos i keep sleeping till so late. UH! (ANOTHER reality check here???!!!) its xmas season man! get a f*ckking life lah. HAIIS. give up. stoopid IDP is another jerkk.keep saying that they sent me the COE,CAAW etc etc but where isit??? OH my f*ckiing hell. this is it. im soooo gonna miss the first semester fer school.. :::sobs::: . =((( i dunt tink god wans me to go aussie either. NO F*CKKING way am i taking the extended modules ok! its like 16 weeks more than the standard schooling hrs!!!! my godddddddddd. help me pls. :(

yay. not yay.

met scully to go church. nt fer mass. to wait fer 3 kings- baobei nickkie kevie. WAHSEH. bout 2hrs we waited in the hotttt sun. dere was an IJ 150yrs mass gg on in the church. ooohohoho. i met Miss Tan (principal), mrs matthews (vice principal), Miss Jo tEO (discipline mistress!!), Miss Teo JL (who's another bitch), Mrs Tan Aye LENG (my favvvvv science teacher!!=p)..etcetc. told all of them im gg aussie alr n they were like 'im so glad fer u' blahblah. mrs tan was soooo worried bout me. kept telling me to write to her la, dunt gamble, dunt learn bad, im so happy noW! i tink i'll leave here wif assurance im loved~! dennnnn miss jo teo (miss plumppy!) kept saying i look EXACTLY like my aunt sandra. WHOA. i rmbr she's some miss singapore wayyyyy back. wahseh. im sexaye~ (i was KIDDING) haha. aniway, she said i MUST report my results to her every yr without fail. wtf!!! haha i was dying of luffter le! i miss IJ soooooo fuckking much now. sighs. :( anyway, i finished my xmas shopping le. FINALLY! everythink done. haiis. wed mite b gg hotel 81!! haha (dunt ask me y scully n all wanted to stay in a budget hotel fer a nite!!) haha *winkz* haha. NO LA. fer fun one la. den oso mite go camping but i scared of mosquitoes n dirt! eek! so we chose hotel 81 lo. WAH i feel like a prostitute alr. wahaha. =( prayed fer aaron dear alr. bless his frens. *amen*

SHIT in da face x(

dunt mind my rudeness today. but im doubtin i ever understood the meaning of Life. ydae watched 'world without thieves' REALLLLy funny n nice!! wahah wif aaron dear of cos! haha that chink! =P. came home at 2 plus 3am. SIGHS. baobei din even msg me bout the midnite hike! heard kevie sweets had blisters n all. SIGHS. scully n baobei says im getting old sighing my life away. WAHH listening to jay chou's "fen lie". DAMNNN nice. my new song lisT! gonna sing it 24-7!!!wahaha ... *zhe shi jie mei fa jue, rang wo dai zhe ni li kai* (when this world hasnt noticed, let me take u away from this) WAH SEH. sooo sweet. any guy say tat to me can melt me le. HAHA ((dunt try)) LOLS. k. im here to blog bout how God's soooooo nice n fair tat he has let 2, not 1 but 2, precious gd frens of aaron pass away. im nt blaming god. no no no. i cant blame him. i mean.. he's God rite??? well, be one then. *fcuk* wish i cld stop aaron's pain n all. but i cant. all i can do is to b dere fer him,... NTH more. but it owaes leads to falling deeper into him. WHICH im nt plannig to *rachel. stop.* k. betta go meet scully nowwwww. we're going shopping 3rd day in a row! wheeeee. i love my honey bun sugar roll!!!

A hAPpY dAy aGaIn!! =pPp

went to meet meggs!! my babeh! i miss her alot alot. she treated me to da oh-so-yummylicious Essential Brews at Holland Village. (its a joint restaurant set up by Chinese High guyS! they research their own teas n stuff! =)) sooo nice xP yummy. den i treated her to ice cream at Haigandaz (OMG i forgot its spelling!) hahas. it was so funn! yummys -rub tummy- den we walked alot to lose fats! den took a cab back. stoopid driver took a big detouR! cab fare= very ex! sighs. i m estatically excited over what may seem so minoR.... a 'holiday' gifT! from meggies!! it a blue mini (one decade) rosary!! n each bead is like 2 small blue jade joined together by a circle of diamond studS! from Rome i tink.n the box containing it is 2 small angels~! veryyy nice. LOVED it. she shld hv just given me that fer xmas. oh its a bracelet im wearing 24-7 now! haha NOW i hv 3 tings tat i musttttttttttt wear... (((hint= u can c me wear it all the time!!! =p))) 1.) my scapula (brown n blessed by french priest!!) 2.) Mary pendant n chain ( courtesy of godma n godpa. blessed by archbishop) 3.) the rosary-kinda bracelet. (blessed n bot in rome! )

i dunt believeeeeee it.

:::k. i tink god made today a special day.::: first... met bel scully kevie baobei nich at belly's hse!den we played piano n ate loadsa boon tong kee chicken rice (proudly sponsored by bel's mummy). wahah. den we went west mall. watched Shutter with subRa. oKoK. he sucked A lil. but poor dear... owaes getting bullied by the gang.wheeee =D... den we took an hr or 2 to pangseh subra off. it was soooo darn difficult to jie tuo someone ok!!! =P sighs... feeling so BAD now. anihow... heres y today was eXtra special.... 1.) 'celebrated' scully's recovery. (i owaes knew u cld do it babe!) 2.) got a greatt xmas gift from scully --- gucci wallet!! (its pink n genuine. like... UH~!) 3.) received a HUGE bouquet of pink roses (courtesy of Lionel Tan. WOW.) plus dere's a huge bear holding the flowers! its so cute! n there's even a birthcert of the bear--Lionel. wahaha. 4.)i actually feel loved. fer once. thx to youu babes n hunkks. (scully n co.)

scRewEd.

wahhseh. i tink im a glamOuR quEen le.haha. it seems like i HAF to go town daily to shop. ReGardLesS of financial status, time, place etc etc. wahaha. now im going to belly's hse to celebrate scully's operation 's success. *nv thot i'd feel tis way. fer we were once strangers on an open field*. // ANIWAY... haha wheeeeeeee. den gonna catch a movie 'shuttle' (sp?) wif subra. haha we had a conspiracy to busted him. wahha. im nt mean, but he's too notti le. keeps saying he love me la, he miss me la... fer like how many years!! n still tell his blardie f*cking AES sch tat im his gf. oh fuckk u bra man. (pardon my colorful language. ) some MEN dunt deserve nice vocab.// case cloz. well. gonna meet scully le! hehe :) glad she's back.sighs. aniway wil... i where got contradict u neh? n in ani case, im sorrie :( dint mean to if i did. andddddddd... IM SERIOUS. im nt your little tian shi (angel??) u dunt noe me YET. wahaha, wait till u do... den u'll learn im just ME =))). wells, dunt wana talk abt it le. im kinda boreD saying the same ting over n over again. just wanna wish everyone a MeRrY ChRiStMaS! n hope ur hols is a blessed n holy one. LOLS. me n my holy ethics. well well. im rushing off now. .. OH! good news!! fer myself actually....HAHA. wadeva la!!the pt iS... IVE LOST WEIGHT! (miracle yepps??) dunno. today my favourite skirt is toooooooo loose fer my hips!! yipee. its byond my sizE! (and stop sayin it expanded or smtg.) COS I LOST THE WEIGHT dammit. wahaha.

whee.

yupps. got home late last nite. went downstairs to meet a fren. miss him sooo much (tats an understatement.) hehe. i mean,.. sighs,... we talked n he told me (or confessed) certain tings ive been dying to hear. like... AIYAH. tats nt the pt. the pt is... im leaving alr n all i wanna noe is tt he'd move on n b happy! (tho i noe tts nt wad i want.) wow. reality check here! UH~! i dunno y i tink bout youuuu all so much now. sighs. i need a life. i need a job!!! grrrrs. f*ck man. sighs.

well.... im sick now. dying of phlegm inflation hahaha OPS. ya. really. n im hving a fever. if it mks tings worst. hais. supposed to pick scully up. duno how now. SIGHS.

scully's back. YIPEEEEE!

yay yay yay. wahaha. my babeh~ is back! she's healthy n walking!! yiPee.. i m so happY today. tink i'll pray eXtra longgggg sia. wahaha. wells, hope everytink goes well fer her regular check ups. sighs glad my miracLe came thru. fer everyoNe including her family. today... went newton to eat supper wif scully n gang after picking her up from the airport. wahseh. ate soooooo blardie muchh lah. sighs. im fatt. -blobblobs- hehehe. well, got home. still a lil pissed bout bel, scully n kevie's plan to pangseh me n baobei. bitchh. xXOPSXx uh. wtf. wanna matchmk us just say la. wan us to do wad u wan just to pls u? oh pls. im quite over tat. me n baobei hv reached the stage where ur comments n teasing play no part in our lives. WAHAHA. so hu ever u r, my msn pic n all means NTH. ok? i dunt c a crime in frens being excessiveLY cloz. if its outta ur league, den im SoRrIe~ (UH. double UH.)

hey youu (wil)

im sorrie. just read ur blog. haha u blogging as if its gonna b ur last =S ha. but nice one tho. read ur entry. PLS dunt wait fer me. im nt being a bitch or anitink litat. but i wana tel u da truth. im NT an angel. im NT a gift from God. im just a plain, average gerl. someone u can count on fer a lifetime. im leaving fer aussie alr. dunt waste ur time on someone so insignificant like ME. u will/MuZ find a gerl 80743643 times better, prettier, sweeter, nicer, lovelier, cloSer, holier than me. im just normal, plain n unworthy of ur praises. ReALLy! :) listen to me, da gerl u dream abt n tink abt everyday is NT me. its a gerl u fancy/fantasise. its NT me. cos im nt all tat. sorrie.

som

NO jobs= NO $=NO shoppiNg=f*ckk

went fer so many interviews. n yet. no reply. take soooo much time n money travelling practically across spore fer a job. cos i reallie wanna work b4 gg aussie. wanna buy stuffs fer all my dearies n send back to spore. esp megs, bel, scully, baobei etc etc.haiiss.... but i oso need to pay pple back $$. F*CK la. but my main purpose is still a secret...*shhH* i c my jies n daddy work so hard. den sa jie oso like so broke all the time... soooo...i was tinkin of leaving an extra 'smtg' fer them b4 i leave. wahhhhhhh god isnt helping me much man. y litat. its fer a friggin good cause can?! grrrrrs. *missing u all alr. thx fer the memories~! owaes said i wanna study overseas. but i nv reallie tot i'd hv to leave u all one day! aiyoos so sad! if i cld turn back time, i wld still decide to leave, only this time i'll bring along some pple i lurve. like youuu my baobei, bel, megs, scully!!!, etc etc. sighs. u all like so normal. i still tinking of u all.

12:24am and im tinking of you... again.

i suddenly feel like telling everyone tat im tinking of youuu. yes youuu. i rembr ur smile,so wide, so toothy! n i rembr every word u promised me, n i still turned u down. i rembr how u will give me ur side look of disappointment. i rembr everitink! i reallie do!! from the way u joke to the way u sit, to the way u talk, to the way u smile, i rembr i rembr~!!! =( n u say u want me to forget. fuckk. i miss u.

meggs backk.

meggie's back. like finally man. UH~ how can my darlinkk forget bout me?! haha. nah lah. i noe she's owaes there. =) just came home from town. went wif nicholas baobei n kevin. wahh. we went church at bout 2.30pm litat to pray.we dedicated our time, efforts n prayers to scully's recovery. babe. i miss you. havnt heard a word from u. where r u? how u doing? if u can c this, just noe that im prayin my life away fer u. pls come back soon. u said u'll let me c ur first step REMBR? u promised me the world. but i dunt c u. ='( sobs!!!!! i want u. here. now. plsss... anyway, den we went town to wash pics, den we went peninsular plaza n meridian. haiis... wad to do... so bored. town's getting boring.now baobei noes bout the bet me n bel has;.sighs... do u still want me? :)) anyway,... ydae was sooooo fun mann... :) we went to rouge after bel left. met up wif cussie danielle n rachel tann. went rouge.. ended up paying up a whole lotta cash! -kaaching- haha. we partied lots. den ah tann left fer home. sighs. me n danielle met lionel there to hv a lil chat. got too trance n the songs just plain sucked. so we went newton. wheeeeee. fer supper. -yummylicious- den lionel dearrest sent us home! sent my cussie den me. haha. i was sooooo WOW k. he's sucha careful driver! darn. should b faster ma. gosh *slaps forehead* litat how to impress. sighss... haha.aniway, he's still the same after tonite. still the same, sweet, gentleman i would drool over. kk. well,...i miss baobei n aaron. suddenly. i hvnt heard from aaron le. NI BU YAO WO LE! sighs. wtf. leave me alone la. haiis. MEN. cant blame them. ignorance is bliss. but i cant ignore the fact that ure not here. now. =(

fuckk stepmums. no... really...

worldwide catastrophy= stepmums. wish i din hv one, den wont hav to worry bout them. aiyo. yday dan bao bei left at 12.30am. COS i fell aslp n forgot to wake him up to go home. FUCKk all stepmums like Adeline. wad a bitch, cant wait to meet my frens. SIGHS. wad a bitchhhhhhh. i dun believe she's litat only when my daddys away. papa hui lai jiu wo. wahhh. -roars- i reallie cant tolerate her. sighs. NO wonder she say i dunt seem to miss her bout my aussie trip. HA! i guess now we BOTH noe y i never miss her,. wahh. she started scolding me RIGHT in front of baobeii saying like 'no bringing boys home. dunt wan to c that boy again. no blah no blah' wahhh. she upgraded liao. last time she wld paiseh to scold me, den scold me only when a guest leaves. NOW she will jsut scold in front of them. somehow im not tat affected, cos its HERSELF she's embarrassing. with her oh-so-great defeatist attitude my frens detest, and her im-so-fuckking-rich-that-i-hate-you look, OH GOD (sorrie this time i must swearrrrrr).. look at urself. try using a mirror. it'll nt only crack. it'll shatter to bits in ur hands. and... u will see exactly y i wont miss u at all.

back at lasttttt

just came home from town. lemme update youu.... woke up at 1 plus?? washed up n all. met baobei daniel at aes busstop at 4pm. went to queensway to get his pay. mk me darn jealous! cos he got 350$$ to spend now. haha. SHHHhh.. *rob him!* hehe. yupps.. we went ikea to shop (bot nick n all pressies...) shhhhh again. den went lido to watch 'Saw'. nice show. haha so gory okkk. ask baobei. i nearly missed the wholeeeeee show cos i was covering my eyes. wahah, eh its scary leh! :) alrite. den went to get my glass paint to do some deco fer nick's gift. shhhh. hahah. den headed home. so long k! the bus was packed n traffic jam everywhere. sian ar. sighs. i wanna work. i NEED to work soon. blardie hell. so tiring cos i go out 24-7 daily. which means i spend a lotta $$ daily. haha nt to mention... i spent $130 bucks on nth at all ydae. sighs. im bRoKe.

scully's goneeeeeee =((((

woke up at 4.30am today.and sent scully off at the airport at 6 plus. so sad. cried.. again. cos i noe she's disappointed.=( i dunno... i realised after seeing kevie & scully's situation, that u cant force feelings outta nth. n u cant choose btwn 2 pple cos it'll only end in misery. so..im tinking off leaving my problem to solve itself.ahah. *excuses* :) well... went to IDP again to pay my sch fees. f*ckk.. sad.... haii. i miss scully alot. she da ying me tat she will come back to pei me on christmas. she promised she will send me off to aussie, she promised me the world. she will come back perfectlyyyyyyyy well. she will she said she will. oh i miss meggs too. so long nv mention her. but her place in my heart nv changes. miss her duoduo. wonder if she misses me annot?? haha.. haiis. i alr miss meggs n scully. dearrest!!! pls come back. wo deng ni deng dao wo xin tong. haha ~ anyway, we went taka dere. i bot many pressies fer pple! wheeee. haha. yay. anihow.. im bored man!! im bloggin so blardie late n baobei's here bside me watching every word. haha. he so lame. he cant stop talking cOcK. aiyoo... so lame. but so scute! he another act cute person sia!! keep giving me a grin like none other! *ahem ahem* haha. wadeva itis....he's blardie tired. poor dearr. sleepin here alr. sighs. BEtter NOT dream of me hor! later u dun wanna wake up. LOL. k. aniwae nick bel just left my hse at bout dinner time. leaving my dearrest baobei here. so sad lehs. he like so poor ting. sleeping like a piglet. hah oh n he's so annoying! he keeps sayin he's too skinny n needs to grow fatter. sighs. he's blardie 50kg laH!!!! wahh im obesed liao la. haha. skinny bugger. hehe. i wanna slim down.. again! hehe. wells, gtg now. baobei needs to go home one day lehs//grinz//

sobs sobs.

fuckk. im in the worst state now. mood=sad/depressed/overwhelmed/confused.. i feel like im in Meteor Garden I ... im the confused gal. n den deres 2 guys. ((dao ming si=aar dear. hua ze lei=dan baobei.)) ookook. baobei is laconic, a man of few words. n he's exactly like hua ze lei. when someone accidentally trip me, he'll continue to walk on. den aar is exactly like dao ming si. loud, commentative, frank n veryyy openminded. so now its the scene where i walk down the street with huazelei n i get hit. but he walks on. leaving me to tink of how daomingsi would hv hit the person back, or at least defend me. n he wld grab my hand, loudly telling me to hurry on. den i'll say tat huazelei will owaes b someone i love, but somehow i cant get daomingsi outta my head, n i miss him so. sighs! c! everyone tinks its like meteor garden rite! haiis. ='( if i had a chance, i wldnt leave fer aussie. den i wldnt b here,pondering where my sanity left me along the way. now scully's all depressed. n i noe whyyyy. sighs.push my faith not to the test lord. haiis. r u even there lord? -looks up- darn. hu wld u hv chosen? an ahbengish, changeD, bian tai, farnie guy? or a quiet, no comments, slow, blur guy? haii. totally opposite. dunt like~

whee

gg out soon... waitin fer baobei XP to reach my hse. he coming to wait fer me to go to IDP to pay sch fees! hehe. k. i got no idea how to post up pictures. so wasted. it wld b greattttttt to let u all c me n my babes n hunks! hao shuai woR! haha. kkz. anyway, i got 6 swells of mosquitoes bites. HELPPPp. haha. nahs. anyway, im bloggin now specially fer scully. prays her op will go perfectly well!! i miss her alr. i love her more. sighs. *prayssss hard* if i lose youu, i'll lose myself. in any case, u got bel n nick etc etc's support. esppp MINE. babe. love u. God bles. tk cr alriteS? ur darlinkk here will b bside u when u return. -tears in HeaveN- dunno wads wrong wif me. pian pian when im leaving den i start liking pple. sighs. actuallie,,, i oso dunno hu i like lah. haha mei ren yao wo!!! (available yet unwanted) haha jkjk. haiis, wad to do... God owaes puts our faith n LOVE to the test. to see how strong/weak we are. =( how?! heeeheee. nvm. if mei ren yao den i'll grab one of my babes! wahaha. aiyah. i miss them all. later im gg idp to pay sch fees. F*CKK la. its gonna like cOnFiRm me leaving. sighs. y i cry fer youuu. ((cos i noe i dunt belong here in heaven))

confirmationnnnn, rawks!!!

kk. dressed up n went church at bout 3.30pm sharp! haha took MILLIONS of pics i tell u! haha. wells.. it was greattttttt! we had PnW n prayers. den. went to practise the procession of the mass. oh yeas.kk. had the mass. me kevie scully nicholas had to carry the foam collage fer offertory hymm. SO FARNIE! it was so heavy n big i was limping! den we din noe where to put it n it was sooooo soft we cldnt mk it stand! sighs. it fell on me ok! hahas. anyway, den it came the buffet. was goood cos we went ard tking pics n all. but i din ate a ting k! hmpfS! hahas. anyway,took many pics with the arch bishop n all too!! hehe :) wells, we went to Life Is A Booze after e dinner but my whole family was at my hse!! -guilty-. haha. kk. we drank like 5 jugs of Tiger Beer n half of them left to watch a movie n all. mostly those who cant drink much la. haha. oh did i tell u we played many 5-10games tat many even nick was drunK! haha :) we had some supeeeeeeeer strong drink tt made many just die off litat. haha,oh yeas. did i mention nick is SEH~?? he was like oogling over me, saying smtg like 'ohh i miss u the most when u go australia. y u wanna go n leave me here? blahblah'. n dunno y i suddenly started crying like mad! den he also mentioned bout scully. he said he's keeping back his tears badly. SIGHS. y do we hide wad we feel most deeply? isit a crime to love or cry? ='( den... when very few of us were left.... we played dare n double dare! damn lame la! ended up kissing the cheek first den lips den IN the lips. i suae suae kena kiss nicholas INside 1st. wahh, die. he damn sickk. keep sticking out his tongue n all! haha wahhhhs idert. den he left at 10.30pm cos he got probation. den scully left a lil later. haha i suae suae oso kiss subra n bel n baobei daniel a lotttttt ar. haha oh ya, the pple hu went there at 1st is the 2 ypm pple, leonard, xavier, jeremy tanKL,jeremy subra bro!, nicholas, daniel baobei, isabel, scully, sisilia, kevie, margaret, ben chua, etc etc (ct rembr lah!) hehe. aniway,.. had fun, decided to leave at 11 plus. tooo tired from today's mass n preparation! tinking of meetin them tmr. supposed to go down to IDP.shucks. im broke. i paid fer almost everitink.. i paid a lot fer life is a booze n cab fare. sighs. aniway, i miss pple here alr! haiss. anyway, i wanna thk sam rox cheryl candice qibbs tricia jo ky etc etc fer coming today.shocked u actuallie bothered to come lor! oh n thx to sajon n aaron. n everyone else! my shuai Ges r soooo hottt today man... in white n ties! haha wahhhh. -drools- well, i wanna congratulate kevie, dan baobei, nick, scully marg, bel, subra, eric...etc etc fer a wonderful confirmation. n fer all the times we shared, i reallie miss u all lehs. DIE. i ct leave now. oh im desperately praying fer scully. my babe, u promised u r gonna b my bridesmaid wif bel! how can u leave me! sighs. haii i dunno y but i just love u to bits dearr. k i blog too long liao. must slp NOW. haha. nites world. i miss church n its pple. i loveeeee my whole new khakis. i miss youuuu. oh!!! ct miss out the gg home ridE!!! haha dropped bel off den dan bao bei. den my hands were friggin HOT! like literally la. den my baobei kept it cool somehow la. haha SO SWEEET rite? haha. i loveeeeee my baobei la! haha. aniway, den drop subra n got home. tazi driver ask me drink lime. he say i m reallieeeeee very tired alr. haha I SHLD NoE tat ritE? sighs. wadeva it is... thx ppl fer the memories. i love u all. sighs, i really do.

ian's bdae party rawked.

wahahah, yes it rocked. haha only youths party! intended to play a drinking game where we have to do many stoopid forfeits. like stripping n all. den... we changed to charades. fun sia! love it! just got back. its like 3.40AM. gotta meet my frens at ameen there at 10am! bloody shit. dunt tink i can get there awake den. sighss... aaron just msged me. his msn nick oso mention me leaving fer 6/7yrs. sighsighs. i miss everyone. ohhh told danielle my favvvvv cussie bout me leaving n she cried k! she seldom cries!! now im so guilty. shudddup bout me leaving alr . cant stand the commotion. its so sad tat i hv to put bhind so mcuh just fer a once in a lifetime dream. shucks. dammmmmmmmmn. i miss youuu.

home at lastttttt

came home today. at hmmmm. 12:09 pm exactly. which oso means.... i din go home ydae~ pouts- fuckking tired nowwwwwwwww. sighs* went to bian tai's hse. we were chatting downstairs the pool there, den both of us got bitten by mosquitoes damnnnnn much. so we were like runnig back. but guess wad?! we ran to his hse. ((how well planned ar the mosquitoes!)) den he got me oilment n all. sighS* itchy n scratchy!! got scars liao. haiiii. =( anyway im blogging to announce that aaron is a supppper BIAN TAI KING -ism man. haha n somehow he says its normal. i mean.. uh~! dunno y i still bother talkin to him.. but no la. he's sweet n nice over all that bian tai-ism. haha he's got 4 nickkies---> ahbeng,biantai-ism,slacker,chinaman...etc. haha hu ask him so small eyes. den so bengish. den keep complaining tired. haha//sticks out tongue// -pulls away- HA, wait tilll u hear bout y he's soooooo biantai. u'll die luffing ar! wahaha. asshole. shit.. *k rach. ure gg aussie alr. DUNT fall fer anione animore*

sighs

update: (LAST NITE) watched Bridget Jone's Diary. DAMN farnie but oso cos my da ge aaron was therE!! he was wahah funny. reallie. luff so loud. den din get alotta jokes. but still... love him to bits!! he's so fun to b ard. n he is sooooo NOT ahbeng lor. get a life pple. he's purrrrfect. just came back from town. kk. went to marche at suntec today fer a lunch treat by scully my babE! den i went off. to my interview at relc. SUCKS. hah i mean it went well... but i somehow wished it din. cos i was fuckking shocked to receive this 'offer' letter from taylors. it is a top 10 kinda sch dere. n its only fer international students. but i got a welcome letter from them! haha cos they quite dumb la. they tink just cos my maths n all got As means i can do medicine. LoSeRs. but aniway.... gosh* i heard every year only 4 pple get this letter of acceptance from taylors from spore. im ONE of the lucky 4. WOW. -bows- anyway, i got exactly 1 month n 10 days before i get ready to leave here. my home. sighs. went back to meet the gang at town. wwwaaah. fun sia. ate again n played pool. i was PRO! fer once. tho i nv played in a long time. anyway, we ate n went home. gossiped like mad in the bus k! haha.now im home. gonna bathe n rush downstairs to meet aaron. yay! been dying to c him. dunno y sia. he just returned from JB! lastly, i got a lotta tinking gg on in my head. n im getting sad suddenly. like wtf. fer a change, i wont curse god fer giving me pain. i'll thk him instead. I LOVE LIFE GOD.(even tho u mercilessly took away my fren n put my faith to the test. even tho u noe we all love her the mosttttt. even tho u dun give a damn if she lives well. and even tho u say all is taken care of.) youu told us all to hv faith in ur plan God. now im just wondering where it went. ='(

bbq rawked

yes. just returned from the bbq. wheeee. fun. most imptly, i had time to interact wif so many pple i love so deeply. wanted to announce bout my leaving to aussie just then, but seeing how happy everione was,i cldnt bear to let their colorful expressions die down... rite? -nods- sighs. k here was the 'minutes' of today. went market at bout 8+/9am. bot stuff n while the others went nicholas hse, i went town! met some frens n all. den rushed back home with daniel to cook 2 blocks of shepherd's pie. hehe. i tell u! it was the funniest part! he so ah-niang. den he damn fierce sometimes. so scary ritee!! haha. nonono... den he keep joking wif me as if so farnie. den end up either he luff or i luff. so lame!! sighss. ok ok. it was like i will burn myself (3times!) n he'll say like put ur hand on the bbq grill so u can burn the other fingers. LOL. wad a joke rite. lame but the emotionless way he said it was damnnnnn farnie lah... haha. OH YA did i mention my twin sisters KEPT flirting wif him? claudia kept stroking daniel's jeans n gave him the whoaa look. biatch.grrrrs hahah. wad CUTE~ lil sisies i hv, sighs*. k den we went down to get the pit ready. but by 6 we had stopped bbq-ing cos we were full n bored!! played games n den the kanektas finallieeeee arrived! *phew*. yupps. lyn n chris started the fire again! hahas. den we got down to serious bbq-ing. haha. i shared bout 4 fishballs n 6 chicken wings wif daniel!! haha. he peel fer me cos i dun wanna dirty my handS! (bimbooo) den blardie kevie kept tinking wrongly k. cos he tinks tat...tat. aiyah, but he's wrong aniwae~ k. den played games den ate alot. OH. nt to forget, i got dunked into the water. the guys even had strength to swing me a couple of times! haha sighs. *fats* blobblob.yupps. den i met aaron!! tho its my officially 1st time talking to him, he is superrrrrly nice man. he kept telling me bout him slacking fer a pasttime. n he talked bout r/ships with me. n he even commented crudely on one of the kanektas. *coughlyncough*so terrible. iderttt!! haha.ohh. den we chatted til had to clear up. i felt so bad i din join in the fun tat my dearries were having. sighss. nvm. im a bad host aniwae.haha den the SLACKER aaron actuallie washed the utensils n trays fer me! -praise the Lord. AMEN!- haha. wad a wonder rite! haha fer tat he asked my tel no. haha! so shy fer wad. nt like i'll scold u fer wantin it my dearr. =) okok. den we packed up n got e cleaning done! dido!~ den got home safely. the others went to give scully some stuff. WOW. now im home n tinkin bout everitink tt happened today. tings tt went wrong, tings tt were right. whoa. im holy~ cos i thk God fer today. even the shit tings. n i tinkk to myself... yupps. it was a day well planned God! thks. -grins- i love u all. esp::: MEGGIE (comeback babe!imu!), bel scully margaret leonard xavier charles kanektasRawks! Aaron(miss u!) subra nickky DANIEL(my baobei xp) kevie(sweets~) etc etc. miss u all. n love ya. mwakz~!!! =)))