yay. visa is done but im still fucked.

well,.. went IDP today. done my friggin visa le!! den i went fer a medical checkup with Xray at cairnhill den went to meet a lawyer to ceritfy some documents. (in actual fact, its just to certify my ignorance fer being under 18yrs old. bLeahS xP.) aniway, after spending loadsa cash, (haha) we went to get loadsa other visa-related stuff done! whee. freakin tiredddd. lols. den i went to meet kevie bel scully baobei. den met linn my one n only dere by coincidence n joanne too! hahaha. miss u all loads le!! =) =( k. well, went to cussie's hse fer jeremy dear's bdae partieEE!!! nice food yums yums.*licks lips* hahas. wells... watched -superstar-. FARNIE show man. best.the gal was frenching the tree!! EWWW. UH~! ANIWAY... im blogging ((once again.)) to complain abt how my life is being reversedly scRewed by my oh-so-likable-NOT mum. okok. well... obviously she eavesdropped on my convo wif scully n used it agst me today. WHOA. tats TOTALLY how nice she is to me :( n worse still,... she act ohhh-so-pitiful till 'a drop of blue tear was looked upon her part' (abstract of my lit booK!) WOW. n i started crying too. n here's our retarded convo... me: eh. i nv said u were stingy ok! who did u hear it from? obviously he doesnt like me much. UH!~ her: it doesnt matter! me: it does when im the freaking victiM! urghhhhh. her: den y r u ashamed of letting ur college see ur family? u noe it hurts when u say u r embarassed of ur sisterS? we all work soooo hard fer u n u dunt appreciate our efforts... (blah. this cld go on ferever.) me: WTF?!?! when m i embarasseD? i slog fer my sisters ok! i pay fer every fucking ting tat goes ard in the friggin household ok? n i m embarasseD? i go everywhere looking fer a job so that all my sisters, even the twins, dunt starve when i m gone! u tink its fun working in a fucking factory?? (well, now u noe y i reallie wanted to find a jobb sighs. my efforts r wasted.) her: *sobs* den y u crying? ashamed of wad has become??? or of ur sisters?? me: im crying cos im ashamed tat i hv a mother like u, who suspects me of my own sisters n tink so lowly of me. if im unappreciative, i wld hv took the 11000bucks n led a fucking better life den now. kk. so here's how we argued on n on n on ... till we reached a jam in town. i got so fucked pissed i walked out of the car n walked from god-noes-where to cine. FUCK my life upside down will ya? if ANIONE of u is gonna tell me -=she's ur mum after all... blahblah=- den fuck off. screw up someone else's life. tat's nt how u console a f*ckist. ohh. i forgot to add tat the ONLY friggin reason ive bcome so vulgar is cos of youu ad. i dun deserve wad uve done to me, or how ure treating me animore. i dunt deserve being here. the only one hu needs some counselling ard here is youu. tk a look now, its christmas. CHRISTmas, nt SATANmas rite? get a grip. ure nt an angel.