sighs, hi ppl

omg.
internet in sch lib.
finally.
gotta say.
sch sucks.
all my frens r either sporeans or hk-ies
whoa.
i miss everyone.
\thks fer the calls n all.
with lots of love.

aniway,
gOSH.
must run up 9storeys every morning.
start at 8
end at 12pm.
YUCK.
i hate tis.
i got the earliest timetable!
NO MORE LATE NITES.
sighs.

melb has no nite life aniway.
lol.
my room sucks.
plain in pink.
love u all alot.
hope u all rembr me.
kinda feel the feelings all dying down alr.
sighs.

aniway,
went to Monash last tuesday.
fucking big school.
lol.
oh n did i mention ihate FUCKING flies here?
annoying.
sobs.
miss u all so much,
feel a need to rush back
like NOW.
sighs.
hope all goes well.
write to me ppl.
love.

byebye my frens, with love always....

yes. heres prolly gonna be one sad, depressing, all-monotonous entry.. my last goodbye to u all... im leaving alr. so its no use sending me off. i'll b gone fer quite A WHILE. hahas. n all i ask of you guys is to rembr me. nt my bimboness or shitness. but the memories we shared. no matter how small, i stil hv it in mie lil heart.

goodbye all.
hope we meet when it meant to be,
hope we see wad we ought to see.
sometimes life seems wrong.
but pls still b strong.
this is to all those i love,
your angel from above. =)

peaceout. im gonna leave alr. love.***

yay.

wheeeeeeeee. haf the best day ydae. thks... william (tai-tai!) tychicus (my beaaver!) joshua gOR gabriel (aka joelle!) anthony (my fav ahbenG!) hehe wow. went ameen fer food n Busk to chil. got 4th przzie frm william. thk you. cant explain myself mayb only belly noes y im just elated. im ... overwhelmed! =))))))) love ya lots. gone in2 days!!! =(((( nt happy alr. sobs** omg. i love this shite.

to linnie n everyone. im gone in 3 days. sobs

wahaha. yday was my burfday. wheeeee. so many pple came. funny how theres still leftover food! *gosh* hahas. hmm... basically these pple came..... sammie roxy qibbs jieying cheryl bonnie meggs tricia ky jo jahannes wil tychicus aaron1 aaron2 scully belly yongLi vaN rachtann kanektas(all of them!!) josh gerk xavier1 xavier2 leonard thegang (all of them!!!=)) louwee lionel ....etc/ haiis ALOT of pple. plus my whole family N extended family came! =)))) BUT linn was the only one missing. sighs. well, at least B. n Glen came too!! hahas. wheeeee. i had lotsa presents.! n all i wanna bring to aussie but cant reallie do tt. =S i got.... 2 roses 3stuff toys (a huge pink hippO!) billabong pullover iPod 2watches lotsa AngBao! a whole cutlery set (its pinK!) lotsa jewellery (frm perlini's n felin)...etc. i had 6 bags of prezzies! =)))) hahas, BUT linn wasnt here. *sobs* well...she left a reallie sweeeeeet note fer me on her blog. n i hope she gets to read mine. linn!!::: my one n only. yupps those were the days. the days when we were so carefree n gullible! (to men/women) haha. we never bothered abt exams.we took it in our stride. we dint want to care. we chose the freee way. those were the days we went to newton n WALKED to town in heels. cos we got too broke fer a cab. but we stil cld go clubbing after tat. n how i wld relentlessly reject the idea of clubbing in case of a raid but i STILL gave in to ur puppy stare. the stare of innocence tho we're gg clubbing (uh irony!). those were the days u chose to pon sch in st gabs toilet wif me. how it took some time to get onto the ledge tingy. hahas.we were short then!*sniggers*. those were the days we went shopping BroKe. n still managed to BuY some stuff. shites. it was thrilling. those were the days we watched FInding Nemo a zillion times n still luff at the whaleeee part. how i imitated almost the whole show fer ur entertainment. those were the days we chitted in class esp CHINESE. how i owaes hated cheaters but ended up chitting myself. hais. HA! those were the days we both lost faith in each other over hel. we nv had 'forgive' in our dictionary then. tho i regret every part of it, i still miss u lots. those were the days we schemed a plan to pangseh some pple cos we thot they were too bimbo/boring/arrogant (u noe wad i mean...). we always shared the same idea of certain pple. sighs. How cld we ever judge pple by their looks? notti notti. (but i still loved it.!) anddddd those were the days we wld hv to get home early, but cld nv bear to say goodbye. ohh~ we wld hug n walk away, n turn a minute later to hug each other again. haha. how we nv quite understood the real meaning of gdbyes. and lastly, those were the days we HAD to c each other every friggin day. ur the 1st n last person i HAD to c in sch. n we even resorted to spending recess alone wif each other just to share juicy gossips. sighs* those were the days... and if i had a choice, i'll still relive the days all over again, even if the exact same tings had to happen again, i'll still love u as much. but not more than that, cos when i loved u, i loved u wif all i had, nth more left to give. =)))) leavin in 3 days time. pple. dunt send me off pls. if u must, just gimme a call or smtg okie? but it'll break my heart to noe ure at the airport. cos it'll just b another heartbreak again. =(

shittie.

just got back from ameen. met belly today fer pool n SUPPER. i m fat. freaking fat.we ate wedges, western food chicky meal, prata tissue, beehoon goreng, etc etc. im so farrkking full.we were faking we had babies in our tummy. wtf rite. haha tats how FAT we were. n ameen (the owner lah) he was teasing me.hahas. hehe. im off to blog somewhere else. wheeee =)))))) haha this is freaking retarded!!! =Dhaha meeting meggs tmr. yay. finallie. again.

okie okie =))))

i must proclaim. i had the BEST ultimate BEST dream ever.... kinda faint. but frigging sweet! omg i prayed so hard yday to hv a nice dream abt *ahem* n guess wad? this was the best n longest dream ever. whee. so happy. im gonna treat evryone supeeeeeeer nice today.haha =) 6 more days till i leave. . n counting. time passes so slow. sighs. oh n hp to c u all at my parteh.! =)

shiteeeeeeeee.

just got home. so late. tired sia. went to meet megs n all. den came to meet william n tychicus. den we met yq,sarah n mark. they played bowling while i stoned. den we ate supper. which i talked sooooo much im tireD! hahas. oh yeas,. i just realised (unfortunately its so latE~!) tat ty is reallllllllie polite n nice! so pleasant. juzz like lionel!! haha. wells, nice 'talk' wif him. i showed him some pics n he started bowling so fucking well, like from a 60 to 140. WHOAAAAA k. oh yeahs, n did i mention i love challengeS?? haha. yupps. one guy who talked crap wif me was yq!!! so nice always. haha wells, first time i met him n he's alr an eligible competitor fer mE! hehe =) wells... gonna go to my private bloggie soooon, ahha i miss belly! n meggs n alllll too! hahas. oh yea. n today, i learnt a very good realisation.,---> love is nt the obsession of possession. REMBR tat. love is wad u mk it out to be. dunt mix up the wanting to own someone u love and lovE together. it'll only be a mistake. ive regretted it. u will too. change.

7 more days n counting.... =))))

just read everyones friendsters. so lame. but im bored. n im tired. had SERIOUS insomnia ydae. so i got up every ten min to do smtg useful. first, i burnt (literally) my diary cos i hate those memories.i realised ALL my past entries were abt missing someone, or waiting fer someone, or being NICE but having slapped back in the face, or of betrayal n sin, or crying n hurting. NO nice entries i wanna rembr when i leave, sooo... i BURNT them. buwahaha. n i wrote a new one. its titled 'a new beginning.. without you', cool rite..? hehe. n i wrote all sortsa lyrics, drew a pic of Breakfast.n basically, i rewrote history in my own way =). sighs. i noe u all r tinking wtf. but i dunt give 2 f*kcs bout it! =((( kk. i realise im gg on bout how i hated the past. n thk god im looking forward to aussie lanD! i'll only miss the ppl n family, but i wont miss sPore or the memories ive left bhind. -GRINS- now. *sigHS* i shld b off to meet megs n william later on. wtf. im sooo tired i dun wanna move from heRe! sigh. beeg f*ck. kk. aniway, just wan to say that im totally OVER this whole shit bout seeing couples n feeling a lil wheezy. haha.cos u noe wad, ive jsut met the worst of the lot on Friendster. shld b called f*ckster, did i mention tat?= well yess... its like.... uRe Rachel blah blah. den ur pic is of ur boyfren or smtg,.. noe wad i mean? its so mushymushy. hate it. n worse still. the caption is like 'ohh my babywaby.loveydovey' oh f*ck. sorrie, im just angRy wif myself. ='(

pOoL gaMe totally RaWkZ...

just returned from pool at Pool Century at Beauty World. woohoo. it was so friggin farnie. especially when 2 different grps of ppl asked fer our numberS~ rite belly? =)))) wheee. BUT we din give. we r innOcent n cLean thots only =) oh yeas, went home courtesy of Ad. got a pressie from tiffie. she got me some charm bracelet. n got belly n scully small glass cups. =D. just read scully's blog, sucha sweet darlinkk i tell u!! she says the words ive been waiting to hear. all the tings a GUY wont say to me, n she said it.. sighs. i reallie miss her, belly n gang. how much they mean to me, they'll nv noe. its exactly 7 days 11 hrs 20mins before i go. y m i so shittiefied? gosh* im DYING alr.... sighs. *hint!hint!* rachie wans a dark red digicam lalalallalalala. HAHAH. im so evil -grins- i wan a samsung fone too! =( heard from tiffie tat the cams n hps there r SUPERLY ex. so im hoping to get them here. but ITS TOO LATE!! haiis. sobs. its reallliee too late. hmmm... well, my schedule this week is fully booked! = tmr supposed to mit megg N wil, (dunno how oso). thurs i hv to meet belly fer PoOL day!! hopefully scully too =). fri got ah tann n joshie goRrrr (ilovehim!! wahaha miss him leh). den got to go back to sch on fri too. saturday is my birthday n gotta prepare lotsa food n chairs n deco.!! shites. yupps. n sunday got IDP talk. sobs sobs. oh n sunday is Noel's birthday!!! shits/ im toooo late fer stuff. n i hvnt packed yet. cos i just remembered tat i hv to tk out my clothes to fold them properly n stuff!!! =PpP. shitts. wells, im still gonna b bored. anione needs me? haha im readie to help!!! oh yeas. i miss youuuuu still. i wonder if u'll appreciate the gift i got u. sighs. played pool today. n belly chose L. n i chose Breakfast (B). so the first game, i won her by the black ball. so i decided to wait den second game i won by like 6 balls. so i decided to give B the present instead of L. its soooo weird!! cos fer the whole day i've only won once outta like a million games. n suddenly when we made this bet thingy, i started Winning like f*ck. oh gosh* fate. imsojaded.

freaaaaak.

totally totally totally boreD. like a capital B man!! eeeerh. like 9more days till i leave. which oso means 9 more boring, lazing ard, retarded, LONELY days b4 i leave. sighs. wish i cld c my church babes again. but we can nv reunite esp since tiffie is gg on weD! sighs. oh yeas, i miss megg too. she's like L-O-S-T in dunno which toilet of ac. feeling her but she's nt here. sighs. hope to c her soon. like soooooon. wahh fuckk la. damn shite. now rodelle is gg trinity too!! n mari's gone alr... nic i heard is gg too. hmm.. justina is in sdyney,tiffie is in perth w jayne n joanne. hmm... it shows singy how we hate the govt. OPS x) ohwell, anione wana go back to school w me?? msg me yah? i wanna pass my teachers cards i made them b4 i leave. sheesh. hope all goes well... =) Okie, my aunt is suddenly here. shit. gtg peeps. hope sch n work's all good fer u all. ilu stillllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

freaaaaak.

totally totally totally boreD. like a capital B man!! eeeerh. like 9more days till i leave. which oso means 9 more boring, lazing ard, retarded, LONELY days b4 i leave. sighs. wish i cld c my church babes again. but we can nv reunite esp since tiffie is gg on weD! sighs. oh yeas, i miss megg too. she's like L-O-S-T in dunno which toilet of ac. feeling her but she's nt here. sighs. hope to c her soon. like soooooon. wahh fuckk la. damn shite. now rodelle is gg trinity too!! n mari's gone alr... nic i heard is gg too. hmm.. justina is in sdyney,tiffie is in perth w jayne n joanne. hmm... it shows singy how we hate the govt. OPS x) ohwell, anione wana go back to school w me?? msg me yah? i wanna pass my teachers cards i made them b4 i leave. sheesh. hope all goes well... =) Okie, my aunt is suddenly here. shit. gtg peeps. hope sch n work's all good fer u all. ilu stillllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

....still mad abt youu...

sighs. this life sucks, to the frigign core. like it nv sucked b4. wells, if u all want updates, go to my other blog n check it out. kkinda lame hving to type the exact same entries in 3 different blogs. haha so.... go figure. i gues all i wanna say here is ::: i miss you all truckloads. n need u all to b dere. pls come fer my bdae partty at bout 4pm litat on 15th jan at cashew hgts condo multipurpose hall upstairs. i noe some of u r prolly nt bothered bout i t, but its my farewell party too. got nt much food animore, but hope u al tk the time to spend the last 3 days of my spore life wif me! =) haha gosh* i wan a NEW samsung sliding fne!! im frigging deprived i tell u. i got no working camera (digicam of cOs!) n i got no camera fone. tats 2x the depressioN! which means i hv no form of technology to tk pictures. tats a depravity to women. hahahha sighs. nvm. i shall whine all the way to aussie. and c hu gives 2 f*cks bout me. wahahha. im so violent nowadays, its funny how i can get so emotional still. haii, well, i miss youuu allllllllllll. alot.alot. but i insist of gg.

BEEEG BEEEEG siGh.

met up wif belly n scully. i declare tat i m OFFICIALLY anti-hwachong-ians n anti-NJc-ians. NO OFFENCE to ani one in particular. but wtF!!! its like major annoying. went kAP to meet scully. these 2 schs crowded the whole farkking place till we SQUEEZED our fat arses into the place. they no shame one leh. sit rite outside on the floor. like WTF k. i tink i mite hv squished a few to death, oOps. dunt mind me! =PpP. gosh* wells, played pool wif bel. she won me ONCE. wahahha. oh yeas... n also, met up wif the kanektas n anthony! worldwide catastrophy. cldnt play well so was practically blushing away, n chasing them away!! haha. wells, daoni helped me finish the games off. wheeeeee. i like~! =)...

uRe dA clOseSt to HeavEn i'vE beEn...

omg omg omg. lifes sucha b*tch i tell u!! just when i tot im sooo over u, n im currently trying my best ever to, i c u. n u c me. SIGHS. what a coincidence, isnt it? never took u so long to realise its abt time i'd move on. im trying ok! ='( my gosh. i will give youu ANY amt of care, concern, love, joy n happiness. i will give youu my world. everytink. only if youu'd listen to me. fer once. im waiting n praying faithfully tat u wil come to my party. cos if youu dunt, it'll just confirm my sanity abt youu. sighs. i reALLy reALLy reALLy wanna c u now. oh crap. been reading linn's blog. n it hurts. been bleeding sad bout everytink tats going ard her. she seems so sad bout life. its sucks. n im feeling exactly the way she felt now. the sick feeling of loving someone n everitinks seem messed. GGRRRrs. k dear, now i c ur shite. n it reallieee gets scRewed when ure further away fr the person. yes YoUuuu. grrs. shittt. gonna meet bel n scully fer supper at ameen. been bored n i need a life. pls. uh. k gtg peeps. ciao. n yea, miss me. pls. =)

shite.

OMG!!! i dunt belif i cant fall asleep. my biological clock is so friggiN screwed up O-k-a-y!!! UH~! i cantttttt sleep fer the love of pete. shite. wad luck. its frustrating cos u got nth to, its late, so no shows on now. n its sooooooo boriNG! i swear i m suffering from SEVERE insomnia. my mind is too active, GOTTA SLEEP now. im so tired u noe. but i just cant close my eyes to fall aslp. i'll wake up in ten mins time again. sighs. n my lil heart is starting to hurt. shite. FUCK, worst nite ever. its worst den my nightmares. oh holy shite.

wheeepeeeeeeee.! haiis

wheepee. my freaking visa is finallie approved. despite my constant chits. oh wells... hah. been having my doubts tho... seems everyone's gonna 4get me. sobs. cos... scully seems happy at sch,dunt wanna interupt her energy bubble. bel's into work, n im proud of her still. kevie is into kanektas. jsut had a major fight wif him,but i apologise. when i say sorrie, i mean it n i noe i shld hv reacted better. when im pissed n plain annoyed at youu, i wont bother seeing ur lil poor heart shAttEr. =D yeahs. n daniel, well, he's been bz. hvnt seen ANI of my frens bsides meggs darlinkk fer a week... OR MORE. sighs. i hv no life. my 'frens' r gone. happy happy happy wif their lives whilst i sleak down in this hole, where i unrightfully n undignifiably lay each hour that passes. im an idert. a stoopid idert. sitting here like an imbeciLe. gggggrrrs. HAH! i can smell the long line of students on the waiting list just bleeding to get accepted. -licks- how they rip off the scap on their open wounds n throw the semi-viscous white pulp onto fresh-drawn blood that reaks of alcohol. WAHAHA im nt sadistic! no im nt! just plain borEd. n u can call me creativE! yupps =P hehe. finallie the frigging aussie embassy has done someting useful wif the govt.

my 2nd n more impt wishlist x)

binnaye is sucha b*tch.cos i hv a new wishlist. my 2nd one le. deres NO jewellery. im startign to hate them. hah! hehe. nvmmm.. since im borEd.. it IS IN order of imptnce!!! hAhA. im soooooo greedy. im gg hell fer this. sighs** some tings i can never get. youu. 1) a deep-rEd olympus digicaM!! OR panasonic lumix 2) my samsung Sliding fonE!!! oooohh sweet. 3) a MP3 fer all my fav songs including JayChou!!! =) 4) kaaching (fer my sistersss. aiyooo) 5) to see linn my one n only... she's in thailand!sobs* 6) my adidas shoes.. special edition sia. heh. 7) youuuuuuuuu. i just need youuu. yay. its bout 13days 1hr 35mins till i leave. sighs. im SERIOUSLY counting down. r you?

torn betwn youu.

yess!!! im counting down the days before i get to leavE! wheeee. k. its exactly bout 13days 6hrs 36minutes!! haha. how slow time passes when ure all set to go! =) wells, alll seems well now. linn has left n im stuck here. planned to meet qibbs dearrie n all at newton on sat nite. but im lazeee.. so we shall c. nv actuallie talked sooo much to qibbs b4. coOL. haha. k im dying of boredom. hate life when its alone. sighs. okok. read loadsa blogs ydae. so i slept superr late. just woke up in fact. *grins* im contented i slept fer 16hrs!!! haha i love my beddie! hehe =) wells... i hope time runs faster. pleaaaaasee. i reallie hate doing nth, i wanna StArDiE! hahahha. shitz. im madd. kk aniway, i tink i shall visit CHIJTP soon. i hv to bid farewell n send my regards. i shall get everyone roses n a letter! hehe =) i love IJ. love the teachers more. sighs, oh yea, n i HAVE to meet qibbs dearie n meg darlinks sooon. i reallie miss bel n scully too!! hehe where r u pple huh? all ps me la! sobsssss. hahha. style. yupp i shall leave in sTyLe~

uRe cLosEst to HeaVen i'Ve BeEn.

met up with arun, danielle my cussie, nashvin, chris, jhiven. hahas. a great pile of peeps to meet when ure 1)bored. 2)alone. 3)depressed 4)no life. wahahaha. reallie, then i met up wif meggs. sweet day i must say. despite arun's annoying ethics. he's reallie irritating maN! n i dislike irritating pple. SIGHS. wells, the day is done. time to whineeeeee bout how life's been a b*tch n so have i. HAH~! i dunno y time passes so slow when ure anticipating someting. see, i reallie cant wait to go, but theres still 2 freaking weeks! sighs. i wanna goooo. i miss alot of pple, i admit but i still wanna leave. the earlier the better. i wish... dere's just one ting i dunt comprehend... bout men n love n all.. im nt being a feminist but im just curious.. how men can say 'iloveyou' even tho they noe someone fer a month or less. its ridiculous. this is where many r/ships fail so badly... i just im being paranoid. but its true. scully told me that nite::: u r lucky to have someone who knows you fer abt a month n is willing to spend 6 years of his life waiting fer u.::: sighs. i tink im blind. i've met a million guys so devoted n all to me,... just din tk the time n effort to notice them. n some of them r alr gone. gone with the wind. while some just hang on hopelessly. sighs. oh yeas. n some pple r telling me tat out of a million men, only bout 5 will truly wait fer u, without having outside r/ships n stuff. cos when i come back, 10men may b waiting fer me, but only 1 of them wld hv loyally n honestly waited. the other 9 wld hv had at least 5 gfs while i was gone. n den i ponder bout tat... n yeah... its true. i NOE they cant wait fer me. but thk god im young. sweet 16 still. i MAY hv a life ahead of me, but when i return i only hv 1 yr b4 i get married. HAHAHS i tink its funny how i get ard life tinking no one wants me. i tink i'll end up ugly, unwanted, fat n saggy SIGHS, im farrrrrrr from getting a lifeeeee. i wanna leavE! =(

uh mann..

OMG FUCKKK i blogged a wholeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelong entry n it got erased!!! FUCK. k i'll just cut short all the stuffs okie? sorrie! =(

i just wanna thk those who've made life so worthwhile fer me.. haha.

SJC kanektas::: hope the youths grow in faith. peace peeps. thks fer tolerating my shite.
Gerd n CO.::: thx fer the ameen/azhar/pf/KSL memories. love ya to bits. u still mean alott to me. n thx fer tking care of me so faR!
Scully::: u deserve so much more deaR! enjoy ur youth. iloveyoufer so long!haha. mwaks tk cr of ur lil back alriteS?
BElly::: hey sweetie. thx fer everytink! i miss u le! ilu too. *hugs*
kevie::: notti notti. tk cr of the gang k u leader! haha. imu alr too. pls keep our dreams alive.
nickki::: get out of trouble la. follow the others well ok? u promised me u will b gd n successful rite? im waiting Dere fer u k? ilu. sighs.
dan baobei::: ni shuo guo ni hui deng wo hui lai de. bu yao nan guo. wo hui hui lai de. ai si ni!!
IJ-ians::: love u all loadssss. stay the way u r. esp those gg JC etc, open up to new frens ok? tho we're outta IJ, we're stil one biggg family. with love, always wherever u go. IJ was the BEST experience i had. n i cherish u all loads. mwaks*
meggs darlink::: heyy my darlink! ilu. sorrie i cant go JC wif u. no more hiding from B*tches in toilets.haha or anitnk fun le!! but u noe i still love u as before. n even more. imu dearrest.
everyone else:: tk cr. god bless. ilu n imu all. mwaks!!!! =)

oh i intended to put a whole longlist of nice lyrics! but it all got fuckingg erased... soooo.... gotta try rembr a few.... hehe. just wana apologise to few impt pple. MEN. ahha. sorrie i hv to say no to u all. i only hv 16 days left to spend wif family n loved ones. n if i spend all my time wif one of u, den its time wasted riteS? yupps. but i'll b back in 6 yrs. n by den, if u rembr me, we mite just start off as frens at the beginning again. by den, i'll b more than glad to b wif u. hahaha =) we'll c hu waits yahS?! but fer now, cant promise u all anitnk. sorrie. u all hv greattttt talents. dunt waste ur time on me =

**kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao(i cant bring myself to let u noe.) jiu shi na me jian dan ji xu wo ban bu dao (such simple tings i cant even handle). ni dui wo you duo zhong yao (how impt u r to me), wo hao wei bei rang ni zhi dao (im too unworthy to let u noe.) an jing de ting ni sha jiao kan ni shui jiao yi zhi dao lao.(secretly seeing u as u r, watching u sleep, till we're old, is enuf)* zhe shi jie mei fa jue rang wo dai zhe ni li kai (when this world hasnt realised, let me take u away from here.)* i must b strong n carry on, cos i noe i dun belong here in heaven.* baby i dun wanna fall in love w u.i try try try but i cant get ard the truth.pls dun mk me beg, give this heart a break, i dun wana mk the same mistake,but its too late,i'll leave on the lights,my arms r open all nite* let me let go baby, wont u? let me let go darlink. it just isnt rite, i'll b 2000 miles down a dead-end road. let me let go. i just gotta noe.if this is fer the best, y r u stealing my heart, oh ure stealing my soul. let me let go.* its been 6months8days12hrs since u went away, i miss u so much but i dunt noe wad to say. i shld b over u. i shld noe better but its just not the case.**

-=we were meant to live fer so much more. have we lost OURSELVES?=- pretty words. love this song. listening to it now. whoa. lyrics reallie struck me. n i wonder... we're more than the wars of our fathers. uh tell bush tat. so much floods n nAtUraL disasters alr. cant bush just leave manmade disasters to God? hmm. guess noT~ been bleeding fun ydae. went hazelparkk fer countdown n all. walked to plaza at bout 3am wif bel n scully whilst baobei soundly rest. hahas. den ate cupnoodles on a wet new years mornin. we played funnnn board games n gossipped till lateeeeeee. bout 6.30am. den scully n me cant tahan le. so we went to sleep. whoaa. shiOk. den woke up in the afternoon. wahh, we stil played somemore. haiyooo.played Harry Potter (its nice cluedo!!) n PayDay n etc. greattttttt pple. love them to lilllll bits. gotta go cousins place now. reallie bz gal u noe...wahaha. i love life now. even when im leaving. mayb cos im leaving bhind bad memories n taking in new ones. hopefully pleasant ones too! =) i love life cos of meggs, bel, scully, baobei, arun, kevin, nich, etc etc. n i love them allllllll to bits. i miss linn. i reallie intended to mit up wif her but our schedule nv worked out. sorrie babe. i still love u. wells, gtg, peaceout-

busy as a bee. *buzzzzzzz*

writing postcards to everyone invited to my birthday. just a small, simple goodbye notes. tears welling up in mie eyes alr... sighs* the air tickets r booked. on 19th. CONFIRMED! sighs again. gg by british airlines cos SQ n Quantas all booked le. sighs, oh well... kinda feelin yi han to go. so much to grasp. i cant explain how i miss linn, meggs my darlinks n everyone else. sighs. i miss baobei so much. i miss my family esp cousins n sisters, i miss shopping in spore. the food. -yummylicious- i miss evertink here. even the radio stations. cos aussie's stations reallie suck... or so i heard. sighs. must meet megs soon. miss her dearly. i miss EVERYONE. including youuuu... ok ok..must learn to let go. the only ting tats missing fer this perfect new year's is youu. i dunno hu u r. or hu im looking fer. i just noe im missing someone. sighs. or 2005 would have been a blaSt fer me. sighs.wells, since a new year is here. gotta have a good ol' new year resolution.here goes. -study realllllie hard fer med sch. DUN SLACK. -save up cash. spend WISELY. -be independent in Aussieland. -DUNT cry when parting at airport. (it will nv happen) -live alone. fer once. -score almost a perfect score at IELTS test n exams. -remember those back in Spore. -progress towards my lifelong goal (fer abused pple)

tats abt all. wells hope all goes well. oh YA. last but NOT least,... i hope to stay single thru out my medical course till i return at... 23. den get married at 24. HAHAHA. i oso wish i WONT get cheated physically, financially or mentally in Aussie. esp since im all alone n oh-so-gullible. sighs. ohhhh lastly (again...), i hope youuu kept ur promise. i wanna c u when i reach spore again.