uRe cLosEst to HeaVen i'Ve BeEn.

met up with arun, danielle my cussie, nashvin, chris, jhiven. hahas. a great pile of peeps to meet when ure 1)bored. 2)alone. 3)depressed 4)no life. wahahaha. reallie, then i met up wif meggs. sweet day i must say. despite arun's annoying ethics. he's reallie irritating maN! n i dislike irritating pple. SIGHS. wells, the day is done. time to whineeeeee bout how life's been a b*tch n so have i. HAH~! i dunno y time passes so slow when ure anticipating someting. see, i reallie cant wait to go, but theres still 2 freaking weeks! sighs. i wanna goooo. i miss alot of pple, i admit but i still wanna leave. the earlier the better. i wish... dere's just one ting i dunt comprehend... bout men n love n all.. im nt being a feminist but im just curious.. how men can say 'iloveyou' even tho they noe someone fer a month or less. its ridiculous. this is where many r/ships fail so badly... i just im being paranoid. but its true. scully told me that nite::: u r lucky to have someone who knows you fer abt a month n is willing to spend 6 years of his life waiting fer u.::: sighs. i tink im blind. i've met a million guys so devoted n all to me,... just din tk the time n effort to notice them. n some of them r alr gone. gone with the wind. while some just hang on hopelessly. sighs. oh yeas. n some pple r telling me tat out of a million men, only bout 5 will truly wait fer u, without having outside r/ships n stuff. cos when i come back, 10men may b waiting fer me, but only 1 of them wld hv loyally n honestly waited. the other 9 wld hv had at least 5 gfs while i was gone. n den i ponder bout tat... n yeah... its true. i NOE they cant wait fer me. but thk god im young. sweet 16 still. i MAY hv a life ahead of me, but when i return i only hv 1 yr b4 i get married. HAHAHS i tink its funny how i get ard life tinking no one wants me. i tink i'll end up ugly, unwanted, fat n saggy SIGHS, im farrrrrrr from getting a lifeeeee. i wanna leavE! =(