exams are over.
and i will be home in 1 week exactly.
i cant wait.

the baby.
the food.
the family of cos.
the FRIENDS.
oooooh and nana. i really wanna visit her and tell her how ive been.
(:

i cant wait.
STUPID EXAM THO. ruined my life.

watched sarah's wedding video today. and we were so happy in it.
(:

anddddd one person i think of everydayyy was in it.
nana.

and i cried cos i miss her.
but more so cos i need her.


so here goes...
nana i need u. more than ever.
be with me in this time.
and i love u. still

in a constant zone of fear.

i dont wanna have to go all the way to KL embassy to say "hi, i need to retake an exam here cos i failed mine in australia's monash."

thats lame.
and unnecessary pre-xmas chores.
roarrr.

sooooo
with that thought of humiliaation in mind,
ive decided, study as much as you can,
and leave the rest to God.

altho, i do feel bad and must admit,
ive missed mass today cos i had to work (waitressing again).
its one thing to make time to go,
but another to look at your bankstatement and feel so pathetic that even food must be restricted to maggi mee.

and so,
with all exam thoughts/guilt in consideration,
i still went to work
and now i feel bad.

how do i pray for help, which i need most now,
to sm1 i cant even make 1 hr to see each week
right??
oh mannn. i suck;

anyhoots, no more selfpity and what not,
im gonna sleeeeeeeep.
and hope tmr brings more conducive studying!!!!!!
exams jst seems so close yet... so bloody far.

officially studied wayyy to much today + yday.

ive done all my PBLs. and im down to pathology cases.
im a freak in my books and a nerd in the head.

psychooooooooo.

and now,
all i can think about is...
- manicures!!!
- shoppppping
- work tmr 12 hours!!! roarr!!!!
- NOT studying.

im really a freak. i need a break!!!
i need sleep!
i need good food!!!
and lotsa chocs to kill this lack of endorphins.
roarr! S:

i miss the boy!
havent talked in 2945398753 years cos my damn phone is cut!
roar! S:

bills bills bills.
work work work.
exams exams exams.

i need... some lovin'!

exams- its coming alright!

altho... i still have... about 14 days exactly to mug my life away.
but nahhhh.

i will study today! (:

im a red monkey.
shoot.

my phone kena cut. AGAIN.
randoms.

my life stinks.
other than that...

happy 10th mth bb!! (: lotsa loveeeeeeeeeee.
gosh.
one of my longest rships. (doesnt say much abt me.) but still.
WOOOOT.

exams in 13 days.
wow.
im still blogging.
*mumblesretard*

love and marriage.

they call this one thing: hopeless.

files and files to finish,
but what conducive envt do i indulge my fingers in?
FACEBOOK, BLOGGER, EMAILS (junk ones too)
and all that is unnecessary in this crucial time of nerdattacks.

*stressed. pulls hair out and even bothers to type it out here.*
I AM HOPELESS.

oh wells.
studied a bit today.
now ask me one thing abt diabetes and i'd be like... *zoning*

the inner need to be married (or basically even plan a wedding) is taking too much time.
I KNOW I KNOW>.....
i wont be getting anywhere near that THOT for another 2 years or sth.
BUT IM REALLLLLLY EXCITED!! hehee

i alr know my wedding songs.
the style of the dress,
the wedding bands,
wedding bomboniere,
and lets see...
OOOh! the groom's wear. (which, BTW, is toooo hot to be true!! haha)
sigh.

now i see why engaged women end up having wedding magazines as their "favourite books" section. SIGH.

im bored. u can tell im procrastinating, cant cha?
greatttt.

now ive officially found my accessories too.
SIGHHHHHHH. );