in a constant zone of fear.

i dont wanna have to go all the way to KL embassy to say "hi, i need to retake an exam here cos i failed mine in australia's monash."

thats lame.
and unnecessary pre-xmas chores.
roarrr.

sooooo
with that thought of humiliaation in mind,
ive decided, study as much as you can,
and leave the rest to God.

altho, i do feel bad and must admit,
ive missed mass today cos i had to work (waitressing again).
its one thing to make time to go,
but another to look at your bankstatement and feel so pathetic that even food must be restricted to maggi mee.

and so,
with all exam thoughts/guilt in consideration,
i still went to work
and now i feel bad.

how do i pray for help, which i need most now,
to sm1 i cant even make 1 hr to see each week
right??
oh mannn. i suck;

anyhoots, no more selfpity and what not,
im gonna sleeeeeeeep.
and hope tmr brings more conducive studying!!!!!!
exams jst seems so close yet... so bloody far.