MY BDAY WISHLIST.

ok so what i meant by being broke is that i need to add this personal bday wish on my wishlist this year. so take ur pick. LOL (: (: (:

me n linn saw this at burberry. its longggggggggg and got a front and back buckle thingo. 550sgd. butttt apparently its even cheaper in UK!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS.

oh man. this is jst depressing.
i have too many things on my wishlist. and ONCE AGAIN, im nt celebrating my bday
BLEAHHHHHHHH. me no like bdays anymore.

):

hahah i swearrrrr i dont need THIS wallet. any wallet. but since i alr got an old, dying, dirty gucci one, getting one less than that would jst means its getting stored in my cupboard! so yeahhh. go figure. hahahhaha. oooooooooooh and that gucci one me linn saw was hotttttttt too.

SEE! SO MUCH FOR A NEW YEARS RESOLUTION to be brandless. ERGHS.

go listen to Bleeding love by Leona Lewis. fuck good! (:

and i feel jst like im living someone else's life
its like i just stepped outside
when everything was going right.
and i knw jst why you could not come along with me.
cos this was not your dream
but you always believed in me.

my one and only. really.

at McCafe at Lido. oh mannnnnnnn the best catchup session babe. and imu alr! ):

you knw, ive said it once on my blog. and it doesnt hurt to re-mention.

ILOVEMYONEANDONLY. lotssssssssss.

a lot of things in life can be bought. (cliche. accept it).

and a lot of ppl come and go and honestly, annoy the shit outta me.

i dont see how anyone, ANYONE, can ever forsake another. i mean, ok, ppl change yadaa yadaaa.

but we only live once, (words of daddy doooo)

and those who come into our lives are endless.

but its the ones who stay when everyone else walks out that really matters.

if ppl wanna mk use of u, hurt u, hate u. so be it.

but its the one that sits bside you, waits for u, listens to u, cries with u and all that stuff,

that really, are worth the love.

and linnn, ure my worth. (: mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs

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had one of the BEST days of my time in spore with linn.

i dont knw why i didnt start saving up earlier to see her in bkk cos really, she's REALLY one of the only few i can truly openly say i love,

without feeling a tinge of regret or shame or anything at all. (:

i was gonna blog last night at 1am. cos i stayed up all night, lyin on my bed,

DYING to fall aslp but to no avail.

i could feel my body slump like a jelly-like mass on the bed and yet my mind jst wldnt freakin' shut off.

i stayed up all night thinkin abt you.

wondering if YOU're thinkin abt me too. and god i really wish you did.

i dont knw what or why or how i got to this stage of really clenching the loneliness/singlehood in my nights and prayin to end it.

NO IDEA WHY.

i think im nt used to being unloved by someone i'd go all out for.

i dont like sitting ard on xmas/new year/ bday, waiting fer a msg thats never gonna come.

and i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee watching myself waste away with age and desperation.

i need a new start this new year.

a new reason to stop hating life.

a reason to finish med up quick and get the fuck outta there.

i need a resolution.

2008 new year resolution:

NO MARRIED/PLAYER/WHATEVER MEN.

(i want a dog. ha) jst study constantly. fuck men (not literally).

if it comes, it comes. if not- boohoo. i'll live. i'll live.... i'll..... ....

...urghh

//this is all i really need now. Mocha and cigarettes. LOTSA ciggs.
at my aunts' place. oH MAN. tequilas every hour kills man.
my dad. pic is blurry cos i was smashed.
theres the binnys going with the alcohol. (:

peekkkkkkkkkkkkkkks.

Mee Goreng!!!! frm Al Azharrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. my favourite (: and of cos- TEH PENG (ice tea)
this is some choc delite thingy frm Coffee Club
jeremy cuzzzzzz and i
me n ian.... haiyaaa. the cousins reunite.

THIS IS NEWTON. the best food ever! frm Left: COCKLES. RAW BLOODY COCKLES *licks lips*. and satay in the middle. and Sambal stingray on the right.
This is Orchard Road during Xmas.
jem. whats new.
ian.
ian me. again. tsktsk. not much. met up with Jayne my hottie friend. (: miss her soooo much. she's jst been the sweeeeeetest thing alive (:

and then met ian and jem for lovelyyyyyyyyy newton food. YUMMMMMMY.

and yeahhh thats abt it.

tmr is amanda's bday buffet thingo at home.

andddd tonight is dinner and ALCOHOL (: at Aunt Sandy's place. i love the house itselF! hahaha

anddd then,... its MEETING LINN TIME. oh man. i CANNOT WAIT.

the smokey smokey time and piggin out together is here! hehehhehe.

(: ilu alllllllll.

Happy new year ppl.

esp you J.

christmas- the mood is overrated.

in my toilet. RENDEZVOUS! ha.

laura the cutest

delia
amanda
eli

me belly scully at midnight mass (:
flor and me

laura
claud

daddy poo


Gerard. he wasnt posing btw. haha

we'll walk this path. even if we're alone.




nah. all the xmas pics that i hav on my phone. no more la!

(:

been having A LOT of time to think and less to sleep.

but its worth it. i guess....

for xmas,

cousins, meg, lionel, and gerk-josh-elmo came over for nice nice food YUMMMMY.

and lotsa alcohol. (:

no one was drukn tho.

THANK GOD.

played Charades. OH MANNN. childhood rebirth! ahhahahah yonks.

our grp won! wootssss to gerk ian jem rach. (:

nth really significant happened. besides the family together.

half of which were smokingggg in the balcony. HAHs. yessssssss. (: (: (:

OHHHH two funny parts in the game!

1) Elmo had "rowan atkinson" to act out and all he did was point to my dad, who was innocently sitting at the dining area.

and Josh shouted "Johny English!! Mr Bean!" and someone said the answer. HAHA. u shldve seen my daddy's face ! *classic.

2)Josh had "Alien vs Predator" as his one but all he did was show his teeth and no one could guess. till Gerk suddenly shouted the answer- EVERYONEEEEEEE was like what?!?!? its an inside joke. gerk and his jokes.

Point is- everyone had fun. in one way or another.

well enjoy the pics andddddddd tk cr. Merry Christmas.

A shoutout to her:

you may nt like what i say smtimes or the way i deal with problems too.

but you give those ard you NOTHING to work with.

you dont open up.

you dont wanna share.

you dont let others in to help you.

you say one thing, but those ard you trying to help you say another.

you expect me to be there.

but you're not helping yourself.

since youre always right to you and you dont wanna change anything at all-

then fine.

you knw what they say- fight fire with fire.

you wanna do it that way, i'll be EXACTLY like you.

nt to piss u off or make u feel guilty or anything like that.

im doing it to make you see yourself thru what i do.

i'll mk you see how everyone ELSE is dying ard you.

i'll let you experience what pain and hurt you put ppl thru.

and then you'll know- you're nt the only one dying btw.

was it really necessary to be rebellious anyway?

i hate buses. REALLY i do.

//dont mind my fatty face. (:

// biggest xmas tree in sg! (:
//AH FLOR AH!
us us us
//i like this. she jst looks... the same...
THE FIRST BUS RIDE in sg. oh godd. its a bendy bus! (: