my one and only. really.

at McCafe at Lido. oh mannnnnnnn the best catchup session babe. and imu alr! ):

you knw, ive said it once on my blog. and it doesnt hurt to re-mention.

ILOVEMYONEANDONLY. lotssssssssss.

a lot of things in life can be bought. (cliche. accept it).

and a lot of ppl come and go and honestly, annoy the shit outta me.

i dont see how anyone, ANYONE, can ever forsake another. i mean, ok, ppl change yadaa yadaaa.

but we only live once, (words of daddy doooo)

and those who come into our lives are endless.

but its the ones who stay when everyone else walks out that really matters.

if ppl wanna mk use of u, hurt u, hate u. so be it.

but its the one that sits bside you, waits for u, listens to u, cries with u and all that stuff,

that really, are worth the love.

and linnn, ure my worth. (: mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs

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had one of the BEST days of my time in spore with linn.

i dont knw why i didnt start saving up earlier to see her in bkk cos really, she's REALLY one of the only few i can truly openly say i love,

without feeling a tinge of regret or shame or anything at all. (:

i was gonna blog last night at 1am. cos i stayed up all night, lyin on my bed,

DYING to fall aslp but to no avail.

i could feel my body slump like a jelly-like mass on the bed and yet my mind jst wldnt freakin' shut off.

i stayed up all night thinkin abt you.

wondering if YOU're thinkin abt me too. and god i really wish you did.

i dont knw what or why or how i got to this stage of really clenching the loneliness/singlehood in my nights and prayin to end it.

NO IDEA WHY.

i think im nt used to being unloved by someone i'd go all out for.

i dont like sitting ard on xmas/new year/ bday, waiting fer a msg thats never gonna come.

and i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee watching myself waste away with age and desperation.

i need a new start this new year.

a new reason to stop hating life.

a reason to finish med up quick and get the fuck outta there.

i need a resolution.

2008 new year resolution:

NO MARRIED/PLAYER/WHATEVER MEN.

(i want a dog. ha) jst study constantly. fuck men (not literally).

if it comes, it comes. if not- boohoo. i'll live. i'll live.... i'll..... ....