wooooooot!

i will upload more more more pics soon.
(:

meg left, im back to residing in this lil hole of mine.
a lousy, lonely house
with absolutely no one to talk to,
but myself.

the intended meeting with you at coffee HQ didnt work out (ONCE AGAIN)
cos alike all the past situations,
YOU JUST DONT TURN UP.
pout.
im OVER THIS.
im OVER YOU.
nahh im not. ahhaa

read linn n stef's blog.
and im glad jit n u are good babe!!
as for linnie,
i have to say-
girl, i knw one night's are shit.but
think abt it-
AT LEAST you had fun, right?
even with more-than-one-night's,
ITS SHIT.
trust me on that.
mr.oh-so-big-dick-J will second that.

sometimes,
im glad im SD,
i dont have the obligation of 'reporting' to someone else,
of having to impress or please him,
of tryin so hard to realise he isnt even lifting a finger for you.
men are just so-.
they never try, expect US to try,
complain about our flaws, IGNORE our beauty,
order us around, PRETEND like we're theirs.
BLAHBLAH.
i wish i was a lesb. solve my problems and 'INFIDELITY' of those i've dated.
haha.

in your face, you mungent.
yeahh racist am i?
well i dont recall someone using derogatories like 'mamas' and 'nehneh'.
OPSSSSS. didnt expect my group of ppl to be alll brown, did you?

well.
got a lil note frm vik yday.
it tore me down so hard.
wish i even knew where to begin.
he reiterated the situation to his own ideas
and left me stunned.
and i replied it with a lil msg myself,
and i hope this really works out.
really.

to you:::
bubs. do i look like im halfready to let go?
as much as you think im oh-so-* that i can find someone else,
youre wrong.
im not half as good as you cut me out to be.
and BE SURPRISED if i do let go,
cos' thats not how it works.
commitment is shit- i agree.
even a girl like myself hates that.
but understnad that that's just a rship.
you either put in your all, or its fucked.
no halfway compromise.
if you had even tried,
you would have been the one.
S: and look at us now,
we barely even talk anymore.
we barely even knw each other.
and whilst couples are fallin in and outta love,
we're still back where we started- NOWHERE.

no shit-
and you wonder what went wrong