a quickie today. S:

just got home from chaddy w alex.
( i just adore that place!)
watched the movie Chaos.
was good.
i would say- worth borrowing its dvd when its out.
but not worth the ticket.
hehe.
(OMG im becoming a cheap shit)
okok.

anyhow,
today, once again,
DIDNT meet you as expected.
(but then again, ive learnt NOT to expect anything from you)
but a pleasant pleasant surprise...
our firstttttttttt (hopefully not CANCELLED again) date
is tmr night.
movie at chaddy (hehe again)

vik::: i may knw why you cldnt mk it yday or today (this im unsure of)
but i just dont get why you dont try to tell me first.
i knwwwwww im not in any position to expect smth
and i knwwwwww i shldnt.
but sometimes,
it takes ONLY a weee bit o' effort to get to me.
and youre just that ounce of tryin' away.
tmr will be my lastt day for you.
and shld it be ruined by unforeseen circumstances,
i hope you knw i nv did give up waiting for you to start DOING what you promised to do.
and basically be even a normal fren to me.
i realise what you want is what you like to see.
not what i want to be, or even AM!
S:
hope you prove otherwise to me tmr.
and hope im not gonna be disappointed by what you have to say to me.
i knw N****** is an issue
and i knw just how you feel.
but dont take your foulplay out on me.

i knw everyone is prolly just pulling out their hair,
wishing i wld just CHANGE
and stop letting MEN ctrl my mood or schedule.
and sometimes i wish i had listened,
if not, my broken heart.

STUd-Stud-studyyyyyyyy!