yipEeeeee.

one word. -o.v.e.r
EXAMS ARE OVERRR.
do you hear the elation in my voice?
the awed fantasia in my tone?
the... the....
WHEEEEEEEEEE
no one ever knew finishing exams
cld be THIS good.

erghhhh
too bad its only mids.
or else,
i'd stop studying
:)

pardon me
today is partehhhhhh day
aint gonna touch no paper
anymoreeeeee
*skips ard*
okok. no BOOKS.
but alot of paperwork
fer perth!
watch out aussites ,
here i COME! :)))))

wow.
ok. this is weird. never thot
id like the idea of visiting a cnty alone
let alone with a new fren :)
but i do.
and gosh am i r-r-readdddddddy.
hurrrrr.

yeash
ok before i leave,
i must warn.
EVERYONE---
pls dunt be stoopid enuf
to tk specialist math
it sucks to the core
the work is ok.
but the EXAM is a killer
ERGHS.
hu ever said math was good.
sighs
ure worshipable man.
darnittttt.
-.-
aint i retarded today
hahahahahha.
:D

can afford to be.
sinceits my LAST DAY.
and i actualle feel bad bout physics.
i din study
and literally slept once i got the paper.
darn. ishldnt be this wayy
but wtf!
its ova.

watch me dance this ting.
-dance with me

wtf!!!! $#&^*^%$#@$%^&*

omg.
dis is it!!!
(sorry meg. i hate to say dis but...)
one word.
INDOS. -shakes head-

no no. dun get me wrong.
i lve them.
NO REALLY
i do.
but sometimes,
it reaches this point where
i find maself trying too hard
when they barely givacrack.
:(
and NO,
im nt enlightened by the fact
that soccer and all
is so much more impt
den a princess.
-PrIncEsS pOuTs-

sighs.
thank god meg is one outta
a mil indos
hu isnt even one hundredth
as arseholic as yoooo.
yes you.
-nods nods

:
okayyyy.
ive started to rant.
have i?
MY BAD~

its a sunday.
tmr is a monday (d--uh)
and tmr is physics
and maths b.
im not confident bout anything at all.
but i wont say its over
:) yet.

ohhhhyeahhhhhhs
a special warmmmm thanks to gorrrr!
yes joshua ow.
thnks fer the testi
it was so relieving fer me
to know that ure still dere fer me.
:'( meiiii misses youuu gorrrrrrrr.
SNIFFS!*
and save ur lurve fer me please.
save it in a cup.
:)

pls pray fer my math b esp.
and physics.
i wanna pass phys.
and i just wanna get into med.
:/ is tht too much to ask?
pls lordddddddddd
i reallly reallllly need this.
Amen.

:( sobs.
cry a tear fer the lonely.

i wish i wish you could see this *tear down my cheek

*no way.
chem paper today = cmi
i tink i mite pass.
:) if im lucky.
and mayb,
just mayb,
SOMEONE mite comfort me
COUGH***
hahhahhahhaha

okok.
left with 2 papers.
math b and physics.
wheeeeeeee.
oh yeahhh i went shopping w amanda today
fer my family.
got sarah shades,
babies ---> books n clothes.
urghhh
its freezing here :(
i din noe its winter alr.
cus i always expected
winter to be like WHOAAAA
but its like a cold autumn.
OKKK rach stop. :X

anyways.....
i tink i overspend.
nods*
and i tink i shld start studying fer mathb
*nods
andddddddd
i wanna thank Scully N Belly.
fer wadever u both hv sent to me
(im assuming it will reach here.)
hahahhaahaa
anyway imu guys so much
and i wonder how it'd b like if im in spore
wld tings b any diff?
:(

sometimes i just miss our outings and stuff.
all the best childhood memories
coming back to me.
taking me a step away from the burden of the werld
lettin me feel like
there IS love somehow.
:) and fer this,
thanks Rachel J Scully
and Isabel Yoong JY
:) u two are the special twoooo
*lalallalalaal
did i mention ilu?
ooops. but i do.
reallly.
mwahhhhhhhhs

F***CK

great.
wheeee yipeeeee
a singaporean face
i recognise.
:) -grins

thank yewww fer the outing today.
:)

anyhowwwww
u shldnt hv.
all those stuffs
not necessary.
but sweeeeeeet nonetheless
:) thank yewwww

i need to study
SERIOUSLY.
oMg. plskillme before monday/
2 hardest tests.
i cannot fail agn.
PLS help me.
PITY ME.

at least seem like you care.
PLS.
:(
-------------+--------+-----------------
OMG im officially pissed off at yooo.
you crap full of shit B*stard.
cow-brain.
lowdown dirty piece of faeces.
youuuuuuu jackass.
you retarded pathetic lifeform
of wads worth.
HMPF.
so loser.
u barely treat me like a princess
so dunt call me that.
URGHHS.
and wad huh? huh?
go back n fantasise bout ur sports.
*ahhh-chhooo*
SORRY. im allergic to bullshit.
*COUGHCOUGH*
HMPFS.
po ok. p.o.

happy birthday DAONI

HaPpY BiRtHdAy AnThoNy

heres my long speech fer u! :)
may u be blessed.
with guidance
love
patience
and a pretty hot babE! :)
hehee
( i know thats wad you want eh?)

back to a dull mood today.
:( bsides the fact tmr is
CHEMISTRY.
eeeks *faints
and mondayyyyy
is a sure sure killerrrrrr.
:(
amanda missed bio so
i went to get an MC at the doc.
andwe went to sch to gif e mc
n guess wad
(what?)
mrs sparks made her do
e exam TODAY.
ohmannn
she freaked out
shealmost cried.
(i tink she did actuallyyy...errrr)
ANYWAYYYYS
it was a catastrophy fer her
n i almost teared
seeingher in frantic
cus bio is like her forte
its HERS.
:'(
such a pity things have to end
THIS WAY.

:(
i had a dream
*sleeping whilst attempts to study*
yes.
i cld cry.
(again.)
akira(fersomefreakinretardedreason)
was doing math B test bside me
and he keptstaring at me
like i cld NEVER even tink passingthe paper
cus i (feranotherretardedreason)
cldnt open my paper to do it.
(mayb akira was special :S )
anywayyyyy
n whn i did open it,
i blankedout.
i totally knew how to do it.
cus it was actually sept mufy's paper.
and i attempted it b4!
but SOMEHOW
icldnt write anything.
and wheni turn to find akira,
he wasnt there.
n i realised,
he was nv dere!
cus itsJANmufy exams.
not sept mufy.
and THEN.....
i realise,
he was just dere to kinda scare/warn me.
its like i somehow.....
someeeeeeehow....
wanted him dere.

ya noe?
its weird.
how this phenomenon renders me

...... speechless.
a liloff tangent in mymind.
it raves me,
hw i wanna dream of someone.
and wheni do,
its a bad sign,
and i tink to maself at nite,
that mayb i shld b contented w wad iv got
and not look fer the harder tings.

i shld be happy with wad lot that i hv,
not be insatiable w wad little that i hold.

STRESS

one word .s.t.r.e.s.s.
I HATE this.
i practically have agne.
cus of stressssssssssss.
urghhhs.

:(
what a pitiful existance.

TODAY is ALL CHEM DAY.
ERGH.
i tink i seriously,
HONESTLY,
mugggggg too hard.
-shakes head-
i even rembr the reference no. alr.
ha.
okok.
but i felt a weeeee bit better today
cus i started off my day well.

:)
*grin with meeeee``

OH yes.
poor amanda missed bio exam.
no worries sweetie!
mk it up on tues
u'll do good.
:) mwahhhs
*hugs tight tight*

OH YEAHS.
YOU perfect imbecile!
my idea of quality beauty
RUINED.
cus of ur ignorance
and obnoxiousity (my wordd!)
that caused me to feel
utterly Insulted.
youuuuuuu stoopid pimple.

pls pretend u noe me

math A exam today.
WOW.
its tough.
pls act like ure surprised
thank you very much
:/

if paranoia is wad mks one expect
den give me intuition.
it works better with me.

:
rant.
blurting out shit.
cus of shit.
about shit.
:(

this is the definition of s.t.r.e.s.s.
mks one overly dependent
on an external (hopefully online)
source of comfort,
that tmr can only get better.

faiLeD.
seems like it aint that effective
on me animore heh?
since the age where men decided that
success comes from hard labour.
and intelligence comes from flexibility.
NOT the other way round.

:(
rant.
am i reallie whining too much?
-NOD NOD-
okok. i'll stop here.
bet u'll beg me to stop when u realise
that only when rachel whines,
is she normal.
and this,
my dear fren,
goes back to keeping sane. :)
smth i lack very much.

yikes!~

tmr is math exam.
rach will do it :)

today is muggingday
(with a lil bloggin ofcus!)
lalalalalala~!
stoopidrio is owaes late.
he's my retard!
:)))
rio getur arse here nw pls.

looking forward to c amos.
hope he's all megg describes him to b.
:) rit meG?
hahaha.
ohhhhhhhwheeeeee.
im superhypertoday.
i tink exams is jst starting
to get in my blood.

i mst say:::
ilu babyyyyyyywabyyyyyy.
hurhurr.
miss u lots.
u shittiehead.
where da hell r u??
GRRS.....
nerd! hahaa ok ok
MY nerd ok?:)
mwahhhs sweeeeeeets.
*sniffsniff

sighs,

i am havin a massive breakout.
cus of stres?
mayb the weather.

today is holy day!
gotta go church!
wheeeeee.
hahaha.
i m reallie looking forward to mass.
suddenly.
*eek*
i tink i need help
hurhur.
rus agrees.
idert!:)

ohyes yes.
anybody wana get this princess here
cardigans & jackets?
from Guess,
Mango etcetc.
wld be much appreciated :)
*sniggers*
erghhh.
i keep seeing jeans,
jackets,
heels
and everyohter ting
u can wear.
and i like!~
*POUTS*
ERGHHS.
stoopidspore.
havinggreatsporesales
without me.
HMPFS.
:D

anyhow.
i gtgto church nw.
wheeeee.
catchy'all laters.

all yooo in spore,
pls shop fer me
:)

EEK

english exam on fri was alrite.
no comments.
:

tues- math a
fri- chem
next mon- physics & maths B

MONDAY will be a killer fer me.
omg.
the 2 toughest exams.
WOW.
good on u rach :)
hahahha

wells.....
i kinda figured i wont pass phys
so f- it.
and my internet sucks
so im using mich's com now.
f- it too.
and den...
i just realised tat
im gg to perth in bout 2-3weeks time
and i havent gotten my woolly clothes yet
and also. i havent applied fer PQA test yet
WAHHHH.
f- it lahhh.
:( urghhs.

anyhow.
on the brighter side,
thanks meg fer ur parcel
so sweet of u,
ilu.
oh n rusdi liked the calbee chips
send me more of the jelly beans tingy PLS.
hahaha :) jk
anyway...
im so glad u stil rembr the miracle tingy.


AWWWWW>
ilu megg.
even if i had to choose to go back spore
to c u b4 u leave (if u do)
den i will.
cus i dun wanna lose u the way i did by choosing aust.
it wil only be a catastrophy
fer me.

:) ilu and i hope u do too.
mwahhhs megg.

**pangeran---> mr yusiadi. get ur arse back home and do your work. exams is here n ure still lazin ard.**
hahaha
sometimes when we touch
the HONESTY's too much.
and i hv to close my eyes
and hide.

when the werld is over, i jst want you to be there.

today math B test.
cbf lah.
wth.
:(

urghhs.
and today,
me n amanda checked out
Rio Dancing Studio.
shit lag.
YMCA Fitness facilities.
shit stuckup service.
Melbourne City Baths.
YESSSSSSSSSs. :)

so we're signing up
fer gold membership.
-prays hard-
hope we dun get cheated agn.
n enjoy ourselves.
alot :)
and lose unnecessary weight.
:))))))

ive gained wgt ppl.
totally random.
URGHHS.
i hate this shit place.
and its shit food.
and its shit perception.
of
-slim ppl being anorexic
-plump ppl being Acceptable
and me?
being just in need of some exercise.
CBF i tell u.
: (

friday - ENGLISH F-ING EXAM
i hope my commitment is nt a screw up,
my essays are not irrelevant,
my compre not misunderstood,
and my letter,
NOT INCOHERENT.
:)
like i usually am. :)

wells....
hope all goes well.
and i kinda figured it wont,
but arghh like i say.
CBF.
and yes.
if u actuallie finished reading
this entry without pulling hair
or ranting on bout my whines
or even tried to spur interest on this,
OMG.

rach loves prince.

yday soccer match was alrite
worse than b4 tho.
and the ending was a tragedy fer me.
sorry princeeeeeeeeeeee,
urghhs.
y do we keep arguing?
everyday!!
it sucks
its terribleeeeeeee.
its......
sad :(

anyhow. today is studying day.
mids is next week
and im laggin bhind.
going to crown fer a movie soon.

:)
and i hope you'llstillsay
ilu.

urghhs.
because of u im ashamed of my life
because its empty.
because of u,
im AFRAID.

yeahhs i am ok.
urghhh
im very much sure of this,
but just unsure bout you.

beautiful disasterrrrrrr.

oggay.
new pics.
check it out if u want.
if not,
fcuk it.

im totally
e.m.o-less
nw.
dunt ask why.
or wtf is gg on.
but if u c my expression nw,
ohwaiit...
i have no expressions.
rite.
so anyway.
im not pmsing
or wadever ure tinking.
im just...
s.t.o.n.i.n.g.

OMG.
-slaps maself.
im talking to maself.
im ranting.

where is ur heart
cus i dunt reallie feel u
where is ur heart
what i really want is to
believe you.
isit so hard,
to give me what i need.
i want you heart to bleed
thats all im asking fer.
where is ur heart.

i keep singing this song.
i think im hving internal bleeding.
hurrrr. lame.
ok. choiii! -touch wood.
see! i got my sporean habits back.
damn.
:(