life is ok.

i have to say... from yday to today was nt that great. tsktsk.*

went to Esco bar again (a club here in bkk).
the first night we went there was good. actually good. even when its flooded with thais and what not.
but yday i felt weird.
there was a thai band playing- FULL HOUSE MANNNN.
and the music was ok.
but tension was jst rising.
and a bad night was jst waiting to happen. and it did.

met Mick and all- linn's thai gang. and it was ok.
good to see them again.
butttt-
its like... i felt like a dog. literally. following ppl ard when they want me to go,
listen to waht they want me to listen to,
sit or stand whenever they ask me to,
smile like i mean it (when i really dont),
leave when they wanna leave and hang ard jst cos i hv no idea how to get ard cos my thai is limited.

EY HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! (thats fuck in thai btw) heheheh

i miss home. and couusins and keith and alll ym frens.
OH MANNN I MISS MY LIFE.

and i love this place already. (:

oh mannnn.
ok im here in bkk.

started out ~. period.
was always frustrated at everyone and everything jst cos.
and i didnt quite mk an effort to b nice,
but...
3 days into this holiday and its gettting so much better.
i try, at least i think im trying, to listen to them more-
to let em knw im nt some b*tch who pms-es all day without reason.
and then jst spending one whole night girltalking like we used to
and i realised- i still love em as much as b4
even tho i dont shw it.
and i ct tell how much 7 years of friendship means to me! (:

MAN you'll kill to stay at linn's place man...

its huge and niceeeeeeee.
a billiard room, a cinema. (yes u heard me. a cinemaaaaaaaa),
a huge kickarse toilet and jacuzzi thingy
and nice ambience generally. (:

anywayyyys we ate at perfect places (except for killer red ants (: )
at Suan Tip and what not.
oooooooh and the shopping. *drools*. just platinum mall is enough.
and filthy cheap swensons. do u knw how long i havent eaten swensons??? and its like 2 sgd here for a massive chocolate tower thingy. (:
I MUST COME BACK HERE IN XMAS WEEK. (not being cheap but y pay more for the exact same style of clothes n brands right????)

(: yonkers. i have OCD with bkk alr. hahah

ooooh and i jst ct wait to c all my cousins and frens.
anyone want anything frm here pls msg my aussie no. k?
love and misses all,
xoxoxoxoxooxox.

exam OVER. period

erghhhhhhh exams jst ended.
and i skipped path. so i can leave early early for the airport (:

I CANNOT FUCKING BELIEVE HW SHIT THIS EXAM WENT.
thank god the mock one went well in cabrini.
nw i dont feel so bad. hahhah

but tooloots to melb, babeh!
and heading home seems just a relief after one full-on semester of pure mugging and running ard like shitty interns with no idea wtf is going on.
righto.
soooo to all im gonna meet.
CALL ME BABES and gor and what not. hahahaha

i will be excited excited.
oooh.
and to top things off-
i saw joshua today.
OK RANDOM.
he actually called me out and said hi.
FIRST TIME LEH.
damn life is getting better.
and ooooh the look of keiboy when i arrive is simply SWEEEEEEEEET.
(:
i can barely breathe rigtt. teeheeeee.
bye melbournians. goodbye cold cold weather. you nearly killed me here.

and its monday already.

i suddenly reminisce abt the 2 or 3 am nights we used to have.

those nights,
you couldnt bare to leave
the ones i rembrd ohsowell.

we wld sneak abt so late.
jst for a simple glimpse each night.

oh,
that weakness-
how much i loved.

bleahhh.

in the lib in cabrini.

yonkers.
its a thurs. i shldnt be here. hahah (i cant seem to find a day that i actually SHOULD be here. lol)
anywayyyyy went to look at burberry and gucci yday jst cos its 30% off. big whopp man.
i really want this gucci bag thats to die for. haha.

anywayyyy
im too broke now to buy. meds are very expensive ok! ):
andddddd
went crown for fun. lost. also for fun cos i dont really care if i do win or lose. i jst think its for fun. yeahh? (:

anyway im gg bkk as planned. jst need linnie to help me bk the flight frist.
im leaving my exam early on fri so everything stays as planned! woot!
its the last 6 days of surgery at cabrini befoer the switchover
which means i'll be doing general medicine ohjhh how exciting. BLEAHHH xp
i like surg ok!
anywayyys no more pissy surgeons to piss me off. ehhehe
i wanna go casino agn. im bored of studyin for smth that really isnt counted. TSKTSK

loveeeeeeeeee xox