i knw, its my 2nd post in an hour or so,
but you mustttttt just imagine the state i am in now.
im nt confused, so heres a change.
but im thinkin. more than i shld. more than i wish.

why do i always waste time thinkin abt you
and miss out on all the better things in life tht i have fer sure.

i fall back into this constant what-if state of pure imagination
cos such good things dont come true.
and i watch myself listen to sad sappy songs like the previous one i posted "cant make you love me if you dont" kinda thing.
GET ME OUT OF THIS ZONE.

its like no matter far up the hole i climb, no matter how near to reality i am,
im still in that blackhole.
and its not a nice feeling when you're drained of any sorts of endearment jst over a failed one.
rather,
the idea of keiboy with me seems to block out all the sad ones.

and so, a lovey dovey song for my love. my one. my only one. my now and future.
my tomorrow. my strength. my werld. my spirit. my faith. my grace. my fortune.
my everything and every second of everyday.
the one that i wld give up my werld for, and knw that in return, he'll be the ONE to give up his for me.

I wanna call the stars dwn from the sky
i wanna live a day that never dies
I wanna change the world only for you
all the impossible i wanna do

I wanna hold you close under the rain
i wanna kiss ur smile and feel the pain
I knw whats beautiful looking at you
in a world of lies you are the truth
and baby

everytime you touch me i become a hero
i'll make u safe no matter where u are
and bring you everything you ask for
nth is above me
im shining lik a candle in the dark

when you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see jst wat i was
show you the loneliness and what it does
you walked in to my life to stop my tears
evreything's easy now
i have you here.

- diana ross.