yonkers!

at Cabrini Hospital blogging.
HA.

ive done all my required work (and i shant do more. heheh)
and ive got 2.5hrs break.
so yeah. here blogging.

got no more internet at home.
not even my neighbours' ones to tap.
so yeah. i wont b updating so often now.
(:

life's ok.
better i guess,
knowing that keiboy is coming in marchhhhhhhh
esp to celebrate Good Friday and EASTER with me. wooooooooot! (:
cant wait.

and yepp,
Cabrini is awesome,
with our own professional ID cards and hospital pass with free staff carpark and what not. (: woots.
i cant waitttt for the rest of the year! (:
and everyone knows everyone so its a close bond (tho some ppl really get up my nerves. erghh)
and all the staff esp the librarian are awesome! (:

im actually full on studying with no complaints.
and im not stressed-stressed like i usually am due to my ineffectuality.
now im ready.
i wont say im doing reallyyy well in bedside learnings and wardrounds,
but im trying.
and im not shy to make an honest, open mistake and learn.
WOW. im a changed woman. Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo (:

and yeah,
a lot of times i get reallyyyy frustrated that someone keeps putting on top of the list when it comes to a lost item, or whatever.
(basically, when smth goes wrong and someone needs to take the blame)
and its not me.
pls. im nt that low.
and i get so annoyed when you conveniently assume im the one who fucks up shit
and does stupid things to get some form of unruly attention.
and im NOT the one you can pick on.
jst cos im silent abt stuff, doesnt mean im consenting to you treating me inferiorly.

go tell the all the pts and wards why dont you, abt how unsatisfied you were with me.
tell the werld, even one of my girlfrens, how discerning i am to you.
maybe thats why im tryin so hard in Cabrini,
i need to make a point
that if theres one person who'd feel lower than plankton in this place,
its gonna be you.
jst cos you've got riches and name and oh-all-that-superiority-you-radiate,
doesnt make you better.

why didnt i go rural. i love cabrini,
but colleagues only go so far.

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i miss you babyyyyyyyy love.
cant wait to cya.
i knw you do. (:
mwahhhh. my love.