imu.

OMG INTERNET AT LAST.
illegal internet i must add. (: heeeeheeeeeee.

im tapping it off my neighbours in st kilda.
but cos its so slow and lags like shit,
i have to keep changing IP adds and what not.
so basically,
im stealing from a couple of neighbours.
yes im living outside the law.
HAHAHHAHA oh mann jst reminds me of Friends. (:

nth much.
im back in melb.
must say,
i ended my holiday on a better note.
now i can officially say-

no drunkdialling.
no sad,cheap drunk nights.
no clubbing-to-look-out-for-hot-surfers. HAH.
no skanky clothes to match the mood.
no nothingggggggg that could potentially jeopardise my already-damned image. (:

i must say having someone you l.o.v.e a far far distance frm you is the hardest thing.
HARD yet manageable.
you jst gotta knw your limits and have self-ctrl when ard VERY VERY hot guys.
-nudgejamesnudge-
(: yes.
and i cant even start to tell you how badly i miss you
and everything you do or say.
and every moment that i think of you,
God knows,
you're thinkin of me too.
and that realllllly nails the loneliness in melb.

i cant say howwwwwwww much i wish i could make smth REALLY serious happen jst so you can come over to see me.
or me to go back.
but we have everything (bsides distance or family) going for us,
why spoil the moment with an unsightful thought,
right?

i've met a lot of friends alr in melb.
esp logic.
ive met him 093852745 times. ha.
but i cant seem to find that serenity in them
the way i was hoping to.

instead,
i find an emptiness needing to be filled
with more than jst "hows life. good? mines fine. hows new year. you drank?"
and stuff like that.
stuff i say to myself when im drunk.
erghhhh.
the deep feeling inside you get when you feel trapped in a conversation you cant end.

thats how much i miss you.
iloveyou. and im waiting for you to come.
i really am. i promise.