first up- date with MARILYN my meiii. 2nd- my angelllll Jewel.

the reason i smile. JEWELLLLLLLLL! (:

meiiii marilyn

at rockys
JEWELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
model in the making.

met meiii at tcc City Link. so high tech now!

ohh yeahhhh anddd i saw the nicest hot pink guess shoes. i swear i must have it. hahahha.

oh wells. ):

life lately has taken a weird turn, i must say.

not all good. not alllllllll bad.

ive made certain decisions that would change my chain of thought from here end on,

and IM NOT COMPLAINING BTW.

i jst wish things were VERY different.

i dont knw how i can jst stand ard,

watching life go on the way it does

with everyone OBLIVIOUS to others' feelings/thoughts,

and leaving me behind to find a way to smile each day.

does anyone not care that IM HAPPY the way i am

and that the other boy i wanted jst slapped "dumbarse" in my face

and the other I USED TO like is now swaying about in my head.

and when i say USED TO- i mean 7 yearsago.

when i was a child and policemen wore shorts.

SEE WHAT I MEAN.

thats why im so erghhhed.

i dont knw how to handle life

let alone the way ppl treat me.

and look at me.

and all everyone else thinks about is oh my god, she's dating ----- ex-fiance

does anyone not knw im NOT that rebound girl who goes w jst anyone?

if it must be out someway,

let it be this way.

i like him. a lot. more than you can ever imagine.

i do!

and i miss him everyday that i breathe.

i dont regret

anything.

AT ALL.

neither does he.

and should we turn time back,

we'd still make the same mistake twice.

and let me say,

this is the best mistake ive made so far

his family knws who am i

and stil lloves me jst the same.

they dont judge.

i wish you wouldnt too, dad/