);

me belly gerard at ZOUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

ultimate.

i really am the ultimate skank.

fancy calling urself that. imagine the shame.

funny thing abt all my mistakes-

i DONT regret them at all.

and yet i call myself degrading names and what not

and abhor my existance for a bit

but i never regret it.

OH MAN- WHERE ARE YOU MY CONSCIENCE??

srsly,

i have no idea what im doing in sg.

i dont come home anymore.

and when i do,

im eating and sleeping and charging my phone and gettng MORE clothes to go out again.

i barely wear my make up out anymore. (now sth's realllllly wrong w me)

(:

in a jist of things that occured in my life,

past 3 days that i stayed out all day and night,

i met up w a special fren, smwhat too special to be mentioned HERE ): ,

anddddd we drank, went mos, double O, Obar, hmmm OH YEAH and Rav Nightclub in boat quay. all this is 2 days.

HAHA. imagine the cluboverdose we had. lol.

anddd we ate at nice nice places, watched Alien Vs Predator 2.

OH MAN WORST SHOW EVER.

pls watch it and suffer what i suffered. ahhas.

andddd then, sweet sweeet things la.

all in all,

i had one of the best few days in sg than i ever cld even imagine.

and now,

im smwhat on the brink of slitting my heart into 4366474574 pieces so i knw how deep this is gonna cut alot of ppl.

nt jst me or the other person, or the families involved.

its gonna cut YOU in jap/melb/wherever-you-wanna-be.

and ive decided to go for NO ONE.

cos one is too young, the other too close, another too idiotic, and etc etc.

SEE LA. single desperate ugly. ahhahaha.

and to sum it up,

im happy the way i am, jst nt what i might become in a couple of days, or mths, or maybe even years.