lionel- skip this entry pls. haha

the moment i heard she's ur conscience (not <3>
i immediately felt the need to tell you abt that.
i meannn.
it was smth not everyone can accept.
some even reduce me to sucha low existance, i tink god wldve forbid.

and STILL.
i wished you had changed ur mind abt bloggin abt choosing otherwise (nOT ur conscience). buttttt personal blog is still a freewill tingo right?
andd after allllllll the damn imperfections/mistakes/shames/downright disgust (which you shouldve resented)
i dont understand why you choose not to resent.

i mean... aiya. words cant explain this feeling.
like a... i feel damn bad. or a will you ever NOT want me.
or even a you shd be happy with her. or at least someone like her.

one word im feeling now- unworthy.
sucha simple yet unforgiving word.
i tink i'll never leave this trance again.