a silent scream to L. ):

i'll keep this to a teenie weenie font.
so one day i'll regret fallin back into this emo trap within myself
and hope for a resolution.

hw do u bring yourself to wait for someone who wont wait for you?
and lest knw you've already waited too long.
it amuses me how loveless i can get-
to not be able to comprehend what youre going thru
cos' that her is supposed to be -
and how selfish ive become
since ive known you-
i nv spared a thought for you.
i let you wait time and time again.
and we both end up right beside each other,
but we're all alone.

i'd sleep on your shoulder
and watch you watching me.
with you- waiting on someone else.
and me- waiting on you to wait on someone else.
thats how we always are.
and i mourn how much youve left me with.
a couple of broken pieces- that i broke and you fixed.
and yet i threw it to break it again.

if i knew what to say to you today,
i'd say i'll come if you want me to.
but nooooooooo.
i jst say i cant stay.
RACHEL YOU IDIOT. *slaps self*
i knw im NOT supposed to stay anyway.
(no use for self-redemption)
why shld i?
when its you who chose not to speak.