i think in every bad rship point,
there comes a moment when it wil suddenly be ok,
and all the morbidness and crying will eventually have to stop.
and those 4 day old PJs glued to your skin will have to peel off.

so this is my moment.
i woke up to a delightful msg frm meg the bestie.
her words were like angels' voices in my dark dark room in franga, with only a candle to drench the mood.
and i got out of bed straight away
and replied ' life goes on' and this is the best thing ive said out loud all week.
(wld u rather me say i wanna die?!?)

anywayyys....
so i got up and showered. for once.
i made coffee. (cos i think caffeine intolerance has gotten the better of me)
and i started my vegetarianism once more.
and i hate it,but then again i hated getting up and showering for 2 hrs, and looking prettier than my old doggy PJs.

it was almost like meg saved me. (not being dramatic ok but this end of engagement thingy felt like a divorce)
anddd so. apart from my emo-i-wanna-die shit today,
i want to shout out to alllll the ppl ard who sent countless msgs, msn-s, emails, calls to BUG me abt this. and i hate to say it- i HATE HEARING IT WILL GET BETTER IN TIME. im not leona lewis.

but i knw the concern. and im realllllly thankful for the patience and care and love sent.
and i wanna send it all back to you guys.
(: namely,
- SCULLY (your bugging really kept me distracting from stupid things heheh),
- BELLY (for your own experiences and it made me feel so much more better),
- linn (your littlest wellwishes really helped no matter hw far u are frm me) ,
- kerf (STOP THINKING I STARVE MYSELF CAN! hehe)
and of cos- Meggg.
- MEGGGGGG: for knowing what to say when. and always calling/msging to check on me. and for taking your time out from ur holiday here with Ming to comfort and listen. and best of all, for listening without saying or judging. thats y ur my lil angel (:

I LOVE YOU ALL.
(wow havent said that in a while...)
and sorry to drown all of u here with my tears and emoness. i really tried.
and today, im outa my bed, and heading tohospital with blood shot eyes.
but who cares right?
at least my life is going on. (: