i havent stopped crying since last night.
i just dont knw how to.

the tears just keep flowing. and the only way you deal with it, is to talk thru it.
but everytime he asks 'do u want to work this out?'
i dont answer,
not cos i dont want to try, but im tired.
ive cried thruout today.
till now.
and the days almost over but i havent.

im still crying
and i just cant stop.
i dont knw how to feel anymore.
i thot the wedding was off,
but i never knew the rship was reaching it.

and if this rship ends or goes down the drain,
i will never love again.
no one.

so money is what mks the world go round.
but if my first engagement was ruined by money issues, i'd turn into a hobo.
my FIRST and supposedly ONLY engagement is over.
ended. like an era that was waiting to crash.
and im back to being the girl who doesnt believe in anything romantic anymore.