i love the boy (:

smtimes i think too much and try too hard to get things right
that i sway from you, to start with.

and i dont want to even dream of that happening.

yday i met up with samsee (meg's bro) and spent like 10hrs hangin out.
he's sooo sweet i tell ya.
he treated me to teppanyaki- which came up to like 180bucks i tink.. :S
andddd had coffee and cake after that.
andddd went church tog at St Augustine
anddd had a dvd night (:

AND THEN amidst all the fun i was having,
i rembrd fuck i havent called the boy since... forever.
and i promised to.
so i rushed hm and he was too tired to talk.
ok fine.

things arent going PERFECT (if u see where im going)
and we're both tryin so harddddd
that we start to get agitated easily, we raise our voice easily, we dont try to ctrl anything anymore, we swear easily, basically,
we make this rship even worse than it was before.
and soooo,
now ive awoken frm my stupid stupid ideations abt S and what not,
and realized -

i love keith julian rodrigues.

i do and i'll do everythin and anything for you my love.
im trying.
i'll go thru all this with you
and im cominggggg home soon.
it doesnt matter what they say or what he does or says
it doesnt matter how he makes me feel
and all that.

i love you my boy.
tk cr.
and wait for me.
you're my gorgeous gorgeous love.
and ive never had someone as close to my dreams as you. and i will keep loving you.
mwahhh*.

baby,
i will come home to u ok.