3 mths only?

OMG. i was using my com to do some note stuffs
anddddd it automatically tapped on some random person's internet!
hahah foolS! dont they knw they have to password their internet here!?!? (:

anyhoots. i shouldnt complain.
I AM the freeloader. lol.

im bored.
went to church. then groceries shopping.
YESSSS i finally have more than a bread crumb in my cupboards
in fact, i bought more than usual. hmmmmms.
i got crunchy nut clusters. my favvvvv.
the essential- milk bread
stew ingredients- potatoes carrots onions mushrooms SOUP!
spaghetti marinara ingredients- well, MARINARA of cos, pasta sauce, pasta.
and healthier snacks- arnotts. (i hope theyre healthy. yikes!)

and lots more.

ok i dont knw why i jst blogged that. haa.

ohhh my cuzz jeremy jst ORD-ed frm NS. WOOOT! another one outttt!
jst left the love. booo.
which reminds me.
its kindaaaaa unjustified to not support jem to come here for post-NS hol when his bro got to come. ok im being fair, im weighing out other expenses they might have.
and i knw theyre moving hse and all that
and alot of stuff to buy etc etc.
but poor jem tels me he isnt THAT qualified and he wants to continue his studies.
and his parents havent responded yet. (i tink.)

the werld is a weird weird place.
pple who have the money, HAVE THE SUPPORT, have everything made convenient for them to study, isnt studying. or worse, dropped out.
and those who WANNA study, or work, cant bloody confirm if thats what theyre gonna end up doing.

ok now im officially ranting.
i jst find a lot of things unfair. and I KNOW thats life.
but why do we have to settle with "thats life".
THATS NOT LIFE.
thats jst the need for change.

wowwwwww. i sound so smart suddenly. SUDDENLY. lol
talked a bit to the love last night and this morning.
called him earlyyyy after mass today to wish him happy 3rd mth anni.

yes,
its been 3 mths alr. more like ONLY!
i swear. even mich and kris were like "what? 3 mths? arent u guys married alr or sth??"
ha. we are. inside.
(okkkkay. that jst made me throw up a lil inside.) hahaha.
lol. the memories.

but not to fret,
though we have NEVER celebrated our anniversaries (thanks to the bloody distance btwn us)
butttt im going back in june. ard 13th i tink.
and i will pick the love up frm camp evreyday
and put him to bed each night before i sneak off and rush home. hehe.

to come to think of it.
i might reside in Florence's hse in Woodlands. jst cos.
dont wanan be living with family when not everyone's happy for me to comehome.
HINT HINT.
anyhoots.
the love might go Iraq in july/sept for a couple of mths.
no diff to me cos im in aust.
but big diff cos its freakin IRAQ!!! hellllllllllllllllloooooooooooooooooo
i swear the govt is tryin to get rid of him of smth. first the terrorist, now this?!??!

lol. point blank.

anyhoots,
he wants to go on a major holiday when he getsback.
which is, effectively, xmas time. and alsoooooo my 21st! (:
yay.

isnt that sweet.
isnt that jst a breakthru frm all my other rships that went downhill the moment it began?
that is sweet.
i didnt agree (of cos)- im not a freeloader ok. (except for the internet im using now. but thats different! my comp connected to it automatically!!)
hahahhaa
life is bittersweet.
as much as i hate it smtimes and wanna meet God jst to ask him how he bashes Life in its face.
but there will always be that one moment, or two, in time- when you figured all that pain, suffering, stress, loneliness and what not, is worth it jst for that ONE moment.

its hard to say how far i'll get with him or how long.
but you knw what?
IT DOESNT MATTER.
really. it doesnt.
if for sm perverse reason it ends. then it does. then thanks for the memories, ive never been happier.
but im praying it lasts.

cos you'll knw its real.
and our love is innocent. pure. the kind that doesnt take resentment or angst.
and i cant tell you how much we have ahead of us.
but thats why we'll both take it together.