wtffffffffffffffffffffffffff.

ok pls ignore my totally unnecessary rants about a love that didnt last longer than a pearl habour movie. (ok sorry the link. haha)

ive been thinking,
tearing,
or weeping.
been whining
and resenting my life and decisions and all the things that need not be reminded of today.

maybe its just cos' im lonely.
and well,
i need to find constructive things to do instead of draggin myself down this oneway street with you.

crying,
and talking to mich n kris huns.
and thennnnnn GOING TO CASTLE TONIGHT FOR AN EVENT!!!!
(heheh. had to caps that. lol)
all these make me realise im NOT that person.
im NOT that girl who sits ard, crying when im alone, or bored for that matter,
tearing when sad sappy songs come on the radio,
waiting ard for smth good to come along.
IM JUST NOT THAT CHICK.

im the person who's supposed to be waited on.
im THAT girl.
im the girl who never has to pay for her own drinks.
the one who watches you watch me when im having all the fun.
OKKKAYYYY??

it seems obvious nw that i shldnt stoop so low.
but when EMOTIONS take over,
fuck that shit,
youre going down.

soooo jst to save my face a lil here,
IM GETTING ON FINE NOW.
thanks for all the msgs and what not.
im REALLY REALLY good. im sorry i got emotional at the most inappropriate times.
buttt thats jst me.
killing the mood. hahaha.

im jst glad now,
im going to Castle and getting lowwww.
(:
hope its all good.

and to Sam,
Happy Birthday!! hope you had yet another onenighter (with 2 chicks) for your bday gift. (:
smtimes i wonder, justttt wonder,
is this all meaningful for you personally? or isit just such.
and everything is done just cos you can?