The Way You Look Tonight.

And that laugh that wrinkles your nose.
It touches my foolish heart.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! another 2 mistakes to top yday's sillylist.
yonks!

on the brighter lighter side, James hottie msg me! (:

okkkk back to the shitty side of life.
2 mistakes. with the same 2 ppl in mind.

1) friggin dancer should just rot away frm my range of vision.
ok come on, tink abt it.
if youre hot (like HOT hot) and you stroll all ard my visual fields (hahahyonks)
OBVIOUSLY i cant help but stare... right?? ): anyhoots, it was awkwardddddddd last night cos i kept seeing him stare in my direction.
oh one advice to all who dwell in drunkshame: DONT DRUNKDIAL.
oprah was right- drunkdial only spells DESPERATE.

2) one word that makes us single ppl all quiver inside-
MARRIED. (ok TWO words- MARRIED MEN)
hahah.
nooo noo, i didnt do something irreparably wrong.
jst had a slight wave of content hit me when Ruben told me he cldnt slp all night.
it was weird. this is our exact convo:

Me: sorry abt yday! drunk la.
R (ruben, duh?!!): wahh i'm so tired. cant sleep also.
Me: why? work ah?
R: no la. boring today. (at Gotham)
Me: oh. HAHA no one to dance with tonite, right? (now now, this isnt flirting ok. its called an open convo)
R: no la.
.... (insert awkward silence here.).....
R: i couldnt sleep all night. thinkin of you.

(Ruben runs off here to redirect his attention to the customers)

and I, on the other hand, smiled like a fool,
to try to ignore the fact that yes- im single again. highly UNattractive (thanks to my folding fats and corroding arm flabs). in dire need of some lovin' and attention from ANYONE AT ALL.
and finding myself, stayin my parents' place on a friday night, forcing myself to sleep,
when i realise- i dont like a thing about my life right now.
NOT A THING.

things always seem to find a damn way to go wrong.
and finances are kinda low. thanks to cabs and what not.
bestie isnt too well which, really, is the hand that twists the knife in your back,
after everythin else had stabbed it in in the first place.

life is such.
thanks Logic for all the kind words
and sweet msgs.
i guess im not ready for you. and i wont try to be.

i need someone.
like anyone.
doesnt even have to talk. or spend money. or anything at all.
i just needdddddddd someone.
weird.
i make two mistakes every day.