... pacing in my heart ...

today's lectures were sooo long.
gosh.
al about clotting and platelets shit
and yada yadaa.
-raises eyebrow.
i can do with lotsaaaaaa anatomy tuts pls.
):

ohyes!
today is the FIRST time since the accident
that i walked homeeeeeee.
yes almost 30 mins!
IN CRUTCHES.
i knw i knw,
i shldnt aggravate the pain,
but i felt sooooo good. made it home,
with blisters and sores. but hell was it independent!!
(: i loveeee!

ohhhh
a special loveydovey msg to tiffie:::
my babe!
dont fret abt that wanking, f*cking, KNNBCCB!
gosh! dont put up with anythinggggggg he throws at you.
()$#@!#$%^&*() off D!
leave my tiffie alone! pout!!

oh oh oh oh oh!
todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
i talked to *coughcough.
hahahh my yan jing tang guo!
YAY YAY YAY
he is the cutestttttttt existance.
(tho buff)
but who da fuck cares man.
hot hot hot!
-yeeeeeeeeouch!

sigh.
the two loveys are on a rough road now.
hope they settle things out right.
and soon.
(: ilu both! okie??
mwahhhhs.

sudden, random thots are racing thru my head.
and i think to myself-

-i love you even when you're weak.
that's when i love you.

do you rembr when we went IKEA to get my desk?
how i wheeled ard in the beeeeg trolley.
and how we BOTH were like 5 yr olds,
reliving 'fun'.
you convinced me that the red 'eight' looking table suited me
while i acted matured and chose the black one
we ate ur fav sweddish meatballs!
and we had it all.
dint we?
it was real.
yes it was.
and what did we leave with?
nothing. -no desk. no chair.
only a teatable for fun (:
hahaha.

but that was the point.
we never needed anything to go home each day happy.
we could have wasted a whole day
but we were happy.
it was that simple.
we had each other.
and that was always enough.

now?
you think otherwise.
and myself?
-i dont knw.