still walking.

your scientific theories are not gonna cure me.
-period.

i realise that
it should NOT take an accident or tragic event
for one to realise how much they love or need or miss someone.
someone they shouldve talked to,
or said a SIMPLE 'sorry'
or really,
just leave words to a hug.
and sometimes,
we needn't wait for someone to literally DIE
before we really lose them.
cos really,
i've already lost you.

before the accident,
before the gifts and the hours of waiting.
before the 'ilu's that you never meant.
and even before us.

never had you,
yet i lost you.

ad is coming nw.
to tk cr of my useless fucked up leg.
and of me generally.
):
now guilt is running thru me as we speak.
and im trembling.
bcos i knw what i did shldve been what i'll never do.