i hate this life.

PERIOD.
my subject says it all.

ive had the worst two tutorials i'll ever have to go thru (or so i hope)
yday and today.
its fucking hard to even try to understand the purpose of it.
well.
tho medicine is basically ABOUT anatomy and all that fuckshit,
but i beg to differ.

its been a hell long week.
and yes its only tuesday.
jhahaha but on the lighter note (and prolly the ONLY light one)
its Must See Tuesday!!
simpsons, OC, Smallville.
ETCETC (: i like!!

welllllllll it all boils down to setting time apart for the greater good- a social life.
and i need one.
i KNOW a million pple from all walks of life and cultures and languages.
and practices.
but in tuts and lectures,
elliot, patricia dearrr, joshua and I hang out inseparably.
hahahahaha thought tuts forces me to be alone,
but overall,
we're stuck like glueeee (:
and tho its a nice feelign to have a sense of belonging to someone, to some group,
its not helping that theyre all genius in terms of academy
and im left to fend for myself,
to go 'HUH??" everytime the lecturer says a word i cant spell.
and yes,
my spelling still sucks.

its a pain to be in uni.
its a realllll PAIN.
and im talking physical, emotional, and MENTAL.
i learnt yday that being intellectually disabled means having an IQ of below 70 or above 130.
hAHAHAHA.
i BET im a negative. :(
(thats a serious note btw)

i wish i was back in spore. thanks meg and josh gorrrr for calling me all the time.
i miss you guys so fucking much.
my language is abusive now
thanks to the things med does to your brain.
yes it goes thru major degradation.
maybe i have sickle cell anemia
and thus resulting in a major blood clot in my brain.
a block that cannot be removed and thus,
staining my days forever.

i miss becky jie XXXXXXXX a million.
and sarah jie too!!!
POUTS!
i decided,
mayb i wont go home in july,
and then i can study more in the hols.
and DONT underestimate me.
i reallyyyy can study then.
i knw i have to anyway.
the pain of seeing my daddydoooo in such a distressed state cos of my laziness and abnormality would be a sin.
):

i really must start bucking up.
i need saladin's anatomy n physiology.
but its outta stock. someone pls send it to be from spore PLEASEEEE (:

hehe.
(: