sweet smell of nothin'.

Random.
Very random thots are running thru my mind.
and im thinkin repetitively about these few songs...
- this aint a love song
- you had me from hello
andddd a Vonda shepherd song.
BUT i forgot the bloody title!!!
roar-.
it sounds alil like this...

i dont know what it is that makes me love you so.
i only know i never wanna let you go.
you started something
cant you see
that ever since we met you've had a hold on me
its crazy but its true.
i only wanna be with you.
NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO
i only wanna be with you.

And im feeling a lil down.
( evennnnn after i bai nian and collected ang paos.)
but the main point is that you pangseh me once AGAIN.
gosh*
is it me or is every girl supposed to get used to being pangseh-ed.
:S

becky yelled at me upon hearing the latest updates abt all her sisters' lives.
she would never fail to say...

Thats not how i boyfriend is supposed to be!
and you're a girl for cryin out loud!!!
stop being so weak.

etc etc etc.

well now you figured why sooo many songs are running thru my head.
pout~!!
i doubt myself sometimes.
cos i can spend a lifetime (LITERALLY) just waiting for SOMETHING nice to happen
but its never the case.
and yet...
and sometimes,
i can wake up at 6am or even 4.45 fucking AM in the morning just to catch a glimpse of you saying ..
"oops. sorry i got smth on later. cant meet up"

thats just so you.
so typical.
soooo.... YOU.

i never asked for a change.
and tho it would benefit the BOTH of us,
i dint even question your loyalty.
and yet, it dawned upon me that i might be too naive.
i might just be believing in smth that doesnt and never will exist.
and hence,
living in the perpetuation of a sin , which her soul had learned to abhor.
sound familar??
hahah YES.
our english text - Wife Of Martin Guerre.
not that i would like to remind all you taylorians of the wicked text we hadddd to study...
but then again.
relevance prevailed this entry.
heh =)

im gonna stop ranting here.
the coming week is BLOODYYYY tight man!!!
monday till sunday is FULLY booked outtttttttt.
gosh* i even have to carry ard an organiser to make sure im keeping to all of it.
=) heh.
cant blame the ppl when im leaving in like EXACTLY two weeks.
on a sunday.
well...
i do admit, i WILL miss this bloody homeland,
but then again...
maybe it'll miss me?
(: wishful thinking**

i wish for once that you'd love me too.
that you won't stop lying about the 'i love you too's.
then just mayb one day
i'll walk the path of love with you.
and take your hand in mine.
together we'll move..
this step and that.
we'll dance inside where the lights don't shine.
and after the moonlit alleys offer their ambience,
we'll waltz upon the truth of our love.
together.