my life's a mess.

one more day.
yday meeting meg was the best thing!
youuuu really made me smile
(:
thanks meg darlinkkk,
for accepting whn i dint feel like letting you know stuffs
and
for listening so well when i did.
ilu megg.
and i always have.

so i havent exactly done anything useful these days with my visa/life/etc.
andddd im getting more depressed with each day.
face/body/life/love.
everything is just becoming a perception.
i dont really have a say in this shit anymore.

the testimonials i left for you girls
are the only traces of love i have left to show you.
and i may not have done enough in the past.
but thanks for your letters to me.
i never felt so loved,
cos even in your absence,
i am relieved in the fact that you still do love me so much.
gosh*
-overwhelming emotions running thru my skin-
how do i tell u i love you,
but in my prayers.
girls,
sorry i can even get bck our days of clubbing/piggin out/slimming
and everyyy word we exchanged.
tho its never gonna be enough to say im sorry,
but i am.
and yes,
you're engraved in my memory.
period.

whats left of my entry is left to be unveiled.
and whats there for the taking
is just so.
somehow,
the coming new year and festive mood is not kicking in.
and im not in the mood for anything.
i myself have a problem to solve
and i cant bring myself to face it.
plussss,
i have people to face and i still cant prepare myself enough to do so.

ultimately,
call me a mess.
and i'll tell you you're absolutely right.