life's a miss.

never spent a week so aimless before.
well...
bsides studying week in melb.
but still!

this week ...
went to NEWTON finally..
for a dinner with Lionel, DAnielle cuzzie!, Chris.
that was after a whole day of chillin at coffee places like TCC,
Starbucks and what not.
oh and subway too.
thank you, yet sorry lionel,
for having you to skip schoolllllllllllllllllllll.
gosh the guilt running thru meeee.
pouts*

anyway...
chris lionel and me are planning to go to JB for a lil shoppin and more.
i cant wait!
till sunday.
welll HOPEFULLY it does happen or i'll skin danielle.
hahah Logic?
none used.
=)
as for today.... (Fri 200106)
im going to meet my lovelieeee church babes @ breko soon.
oh fine not soon.
but soon enuf.
in bout 5 hrs
hahahah 5 treacherous ones.
anddd tmr morn i gotta wake up at like
6.30 to meet megg in time at holland v for brekkie.
wheeeeeeeee.
i can imagine how my parents would wake
in absolute SHOCK to see me awake at that time.
lol.

anyhow...
tmr is supposed to be a Binny day.
going to a massive thouand dollar restaurant
and ktv after that.
a lil drinks here and there.
but dont know if its still on anot.
nana is still not in a condition to walk ard the country.
heh.
andddd im soooooo sorry to lionel (once again)
i swapped his present with someone else's and now its a mess
gotta run ard finding the present initially meant for him
gosh* rachel you idiot.
anyways....
im in depression.
i miss melbourne and yet i dont wanna leave sg my home.
im sucha greedy fool.
and to know that one full month has alr passed,
leaving me with only 3 fcuked weeks left to enjoy what's left of home
is clearly insufficient.
and now...
im feelin the vibe that mayb i wont come home next year.
well..
if you see it my way..
the friends who promise to meet you everyday or what not
once im back in singapore,
has not even met me more than what... 5 times??
and clearly its an understatement
(if u get what i mean).
and noooo.
its really not helping that f*cking schs have started.
whether JC or POLY.
and that sucks.
cos im big fat EIGHTEEN right now.
and helloooooo????
i envisioned it to be fun.
but bearly anyone rembrs its NOT.
i hate having to choose btwn pple
and places
and lives.
mayb one day we'll all just realise that
sometimes,
solitude is not always the worst-case scenario.

go figure.