all coming back

i had a dream.... (noooo not martin luther style.)

i dreamt of alllllll the ex-bfs in aust.
it was weirdddddddd.
all the emotions of every single rship was re-experienced in that one dream, in that one sleep.
weirrrrrrrd.

i woke up, teary with fullness of reliving and re-accepting all the memories.
i could have sworn i'd be off guys if not for keiboy.

starting frm Rusdi (the indo guy frm taylors college).
rusdi was hard. not very hard actually. just longggggg and dreadful.
then josh. ok we'll leave that out. lol.
Then Dmitri (the russian one)
Dim was harddddddddddddddd. twas fast. but hard.
then came Sam.
Sam was hard. simply that.

THENNNNN came the ultimate eyecandy of my lifeee- James hottie.
(see i dont even knw his surname. which is jap btw. just shows how ineffectual i am in rships!)
ANYWAYYYY,
he was the sweetest boy ever (note: BOY. not guy- boy.)
he always was.
actually,
if not because i was trying tooo hard to "play hard to get"
and all that.
and made him feel so insignificant in my friendslist,
we'd prolly be tog now.
and my family would be lovelyyyy to all of us and not be so stuck up.

but then on the other hand,
what would be of me n keith?
and its not too hard to figure that out.
S:
andddd we get the repercussions of it all- the whole werld going agst us.

so mayb i shldve weighed things out a bit before i dated anyone.
but if i cld rewind time,
i'd do it all over again.
i would. really.

and funny thing,
keith had a nightmare and msgd me in the wee hours of the morning,
telling me i left him and was mean to him etc etc.
HA. *relevance to mine. tsk.

i stayed tucked up in my bed all warm and fuzzy this morning,
refusing to get outta bed,
so that i cld reclaim my feelings of the dream and really settle it out myself.
and i cldve sworn it was all comin back to me.

(: