21 dayss.....

i cant wait. the love comes in 21days. (:
isnt that excitin... *awkward silence looms*

rightooooooo
anywayyys
alls well now.
i recovered frm my personal epidemic.
hahaha. SICK + gastro + dehydration frm all the pukin n shittin + anaemic symptoms
now isnt life sweeeeeet.

anddd im glad that S. is better with me now.
no more childish rants on this blog
cos he offered to get food tog when i had severe gastro
and even tho i DIDNT get out of my toilet in the end,
i still smiled (while spewing).
haha.
the thot that things MIGHT get better
and i wont drunkdial anymore,
is sweeeeeet.

heh.
thank you. i dont knw hw u'll ever get to read this,
but in some weird way,
i hope you knw it anyway.
i appreciate the thought.
(:
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its weird,
everytime we have tutes or lects,
i see him at the corner of my eye
and i swear,
the ONE bloody time i actually turned to look,
you looked right back.
and for some weird nonperverse reason,
i didnt look away (like most reflexic ppl would. haha)
i jst stopped and stared. (ok this reminded me of one republic's song. ANYWAYYYY)

your look kills. really. it does.
its not a sad one. or a happy one. (thats the worst part)
its a dramatic one i picture in my head.
one like the one when you left me.
the exact same anger and persistence and ignorance on the exact moment you left.
it was so surreal
that i smiled then.
not for joy
but for relief you felt smth for me to begin with.
and now,
with so much nostalgia and resentment,
you've let me go.

you're awesome S.
jst the way i rembrd.