church is a blessin.

to all who need a lil bit of enlightening and guidance,
CHURCH really does it.

no, serious.

i dont think i actually felt so connected before.
and i sang all the songs, whether i knew what they were, or if i had a sore throat.
still-
it sounded right.

and today was funny.
you knw how in your loneliest and darkesttttt times of prayer and need,
the priest conincidentally mentions smth related to that kinda issue.
and it hits you realllllll deep.
and you knw, God has heard me.

Today at mass,
the priest said a lil prayer for 'saving teams',
he even mentioned "doctors, nurses and all those in the treating teams"
and i looked up frm my seat,
and he seemed to smile at me frm where he was.
(that priest and i are veryyyyyy close btw)

and he prayed that they will have the courage and will and selflessness
to lay down their lives for others.
and that,
is the noblest thing man can do for his neighbour.

MAN I TELL YOU.
God really knows what to say when youre in the pits.

if you were me,
and you feel like jst giving up med
cos no one believes you can complete some a tedious long course,
and no one stands behind you to push you along the way,
YOU WILL REALLY CONSIDER GIVING IT UP.

but then when you ask for help and faith,
God wont GIVE you the answers or pass your exams.
in stead,
he'll show you, you're never alone,
and the werld is believing in you. no matter the situation.

and tho i'm supposed to be studying with sam today,
he's sick and he cant come.
and i cant go there cos i got no car.
sooo its jst me alone.
but it doesnt matter much anymore-
its not like im entirely alone... right?