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i have time to actually blog blog now
cos' im skipping a lecture at.... lets see... 3.07 pm today.
eeek!!

its a shit lecture.
thank god for freewill man. (ehehhehehe)

ohhhhhhhyeshhh.
ive have 3 missed calls frm someone in ONE hr and im guessing its you.
maybe its a bad time to rant,
considering exams are close, im stressed by work, im SLOW in work
and what not-
butttttttttttttttt its inevitable to feel so strongly that things shldnt be this way at all.
AT ALL.

this is how i'll settle it. here and now. once and for all-
we're neighbours. or we were (till ure brother came home frm philo).
we're buddies. jst the way you call me
whenever i run my life right up yours.
we'll still be buddies.
fer life. hopefully. while it lasts.
im not gonna tell you what you shld be like.
im not gonna be a total bossy bitch about it.

i was mistreated by you
and thats fine with me.
i'll take it. jst dont overdo it. and dont do it to anyone else.
you lied. you had your fun. you misunderstood me.
no one will let you treat them the way you did to me.
but im sorry you felt so insignificant to me.
cos' u werent.
and as much as you wanted this,
i wanted him as well.

he was everything i wanted in you.
you could never give me what he did.
not in any way like him.
if i had a choice,
i wouldnt even be on browns.
i'll be with him on browns.
thats the difference.

you jst want everything and i want to live
normal.
period.