happy birthday yours truly.

//this one of us was cuteeeee. scully is a troll, im ... the usual- retarded. belly is a perv. HAHAHHA
//lay me down in a bed of roses. - frm my bestie MEAGHAN SEE.
//cutting the cheesecake time!(im plump i knw lah) //they say the birthday girl is always retarding.

//i model for Omega watches. duncha knw?
//scully me n bellyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. my loves.
//laura was the first and only one to give me a birthday kiss.
im having a pretty shite time at home now.
went out fer lunch with scully and belly at Essential Brews in Holland Village.
it was a nice nice lunch. (very ex tho.)
i have to say THANKKKKKKKKKYEW my two childhood buds! (: 15 years and still counting! and also SORRRRRY
i feel bad for having such a glorious lunch for such an insignificant age.

19- not here not there.
insignificant and irritating age. urgghhh.

and i wanna thank meggg my bestie for the nicest gift possible-
my fav flower type + color. (: (: (:
it could only be you- to knw me thru and thru.
ilu* and pls tk cr in switz. you'll mk it thru ok?

im generally insecure abt the things i cannot control. the rest-
well,
im pretty happy how 19yrs have treated me.
i've got a million sisters running abt, tho a few aimlessly.
but ive been good.
i sat at dinner ALONE on my fucking bday,
humming to myself my bday song,
thinking abt the years so far
and how my life has changed.
i realised- im exactly the same as i was 19 yrs ago.
same look (thank god, i was cute ok)
same style
same tone
same attitude (hardwork cures failure etc etc)
same smile
same loves/hates.

and you think i'll get happy how i never changed a bit.
but i tear to myself-
what a pathetically plain existance.