pics of the day

// this meal for 2 cost... $6 ONLY (:(:(: the joy of sg. //these 2. gerard n josh. my loves.

// waiting for the driver!! grrrrrrrrr. // this is my new hair. (dont say its nice till you see it without any products in it. EEK)
// my jieeeeeeeeee- sarah

i realise smth- nth lasts forever.
no, this isnt a new found fact.
but more of a revival of a old belief that i chose to forget.
tmr is mambo at Zouk. this time, im gg with gerk and meeting josh there... i tink. hehe.
for once, i tink i will realllllllllllllly enjoy myself WITHOUT thinkin about SOMEONE whos gonna be there.
cos' everytime youre with gfs, you tend to be more emo and vulnerable.
as compared to being there with GERK- the defender of my rights (:

but of cos, nth beats the company of bliss- SD exclusives/ the next mambo okie? (: mwahhhs/

BA CK TO the main point-
nth last forever. right. -looks into the future to realise a mistake in the past-
i was writing a card for B. (cough cough)
a xmas one (dont worry. its not a forbidden lovenote)
and i had so much to say but its never been said before.
and i had so much to feel but its never been expressed.
and in the end- i wrote -

i hope youre truly happy.
cos' its worthless to speak my heart when yours isnt listening.

and its well-written, to me,
cos' thats what shld have been done almost 4 years ago.
when i was young, helpless and gullible,
and you were your usual- chauvinistic- fool.

and i looked at the time, oh no,
its alr 2.36am in the morning.
i took almost a couple of hours jst to write that.
that of which shouldve been said a million times over by now.

i have yet to feel bad about being the one who feels like f*ck for being cheated on,
and still letting pple do it anyway.
i have yet to feel guilty about being the one who clubs and meets the same old d*ckhead who cheats on me and still letting him do it.
anyhooow,
i feel ... lonely. somewhat.
with a million ppl ard me yet im all alone.