damn life

//this is my cuzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzie. happy bday dude!!! (: //chris n i at Gotham. HAPPY BDAY TOO DUDE! (:
//belly n i. (:
//my cuzzie jeremy's 19th bday

FUCK. im having a VERY BAD xmas week.
sorry to those who get sick of reading these rants,
but theres a few fuckedup shit ppl that i HAVE to rant about-

1. the most obvious one- the gold-digger, the reproduction machine- my mompets (go figure) ):
ROAR! shes the major f*cker lak!
SPENDS incessantly- forgets to pay my rent!!!!!!!!! thanks to shopping fetish.
she thinks im spoilt or smth- with all my manicures and stuff.
but lil does she know- she's the worst one of all-
she ONLY WASHES her hair at a salon.
CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT???
erghhhhhhhhhhh. she's jealous of any girl near my dad- that includes his OWN DAUGHTERS.
she thinks shes the boss. fuckerrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
i hateeeeeeeeeee the way she judges.
she obviously havent bought a mirror yet S:
she's IRRITATINGLY everywhere in my life.
she uses spies or smth to track me down wherever i am.
she NEVER fails to indirectly check my bags, banks and closet.
oh you see, she doesnt have a life.
she thinks im some chronic fagger with 12 ciggs in my mouth at one time.
shes a hoe. with no idea how to be a rolemodel or a fake mother.
she's got issues with social events that DIDNT invite her.
she's a bitch when it comes to money- stingy as always.
she tinks im a downright liar/loser/playgirl/slutty/useless/spendthrift.
all of which she is.
and i hate what she's trying to do to my family now.
she hates my nana. she tinks my nana deserves to be kicked out of the house jst cos she OLD. FUCK YOU. when youre old and dying, lemme jst CONVENIENTLY let you live off the street cos' currently, YOU tink old ppl jst dont deserve the best.
you tink nana's a nagger and to quote you, "shes intolerable. i bring her out all the time even if i dont want to"
THANKS FOR YOUR SYMPATHY but when she was in coma,
i dont rembr SOMEONE visiting her at all.
i was there 8 fucking days in a row to feed her, take care of her, wash her, change her nappy- everything!
but you come with your money scam and expect to be excused frm being a daughter to her.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOU.
i love my nana the most and i respect if you fuckoff frm her.
she prolly hates you as much as i do right now.
if you really like money so badly, take someone else's pls.

2. C. (you knw your initials i believe.)
my cousin left you for a very good reason-
she jst doesnt love you anymore.
so dont make her life hell. and let her go.
she's choking with you
and she needs space.
dont flirt ard with me to get thru to her.
its not working and im ashamed of you last night at Gotham.
you knew what you were doing
and you still did all those sick things.
a club with ppl half as bad as you is a club worthy of scrutiny.
you give love a bad name ):

3. NASH. the malay waiter at Gotham.
you piece of #$%^&*
how dare you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wanna castrate you so badly. its not even funny anymore.
ARGHHHH
you make me sickkkkkkkkkkk.
fancy preying on drunkards.
tsk. cheap shit.
find someone your own SIZE.

and of cos', my week has effectively been ruined.
thanks to these 3 retards and MANY OTHER DICKHEADS
who cldnt be more retarded.
yarggh. i hate this year's xmas.
im the daughter who lives in the fucking guestroom.
the one with no excuse to live the house when the babies are here
cos' i have no fuck life here.
i like cashew heights. not hazelpark.
i hate living far from civilisation- i lock myself up in the room all day
and leave in the early morning (2am plus)
jst cos no one notices that i was never home to begin with. tsk.
I HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE my financial status cos' i bought so much presents its disgusting.
and i have so many december babies in my family. FUCK.
and i have shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt transport here. NO CAR (cos my licence is not permitted here)
the driver alan's booked by THAT IDIOTTTTTTTTTTT.
my dad is NOT helpful cos' he's under that idiot's spell.
NO ONE CARES ANYMORE.
its like a crime wave in this house- everything's a mess and no one givashit anymore.

does no one notice that im SICK AND DYING again.
lost my voice, vomitting CONSTANTLY, no eating right, losing n gaining wgt inconsistently,
BAD MOOD EVERYDAY. ETC ETC ET-fucking-C.

lets jst say im having the worst xmas week ever.
and i wish it'd end soon.
i wish I'D end soon. ):