my day has come. (:

today is the day ive been waiting for
since foreva ( ok fine. not THAT long.)
since... the day J. let me dwn.
today is the day (officially) when i start my wholeee social life up agn
(yesh, without You in it)
and the day i fall agn.
this time, in a good way.
-winks*

i would love to say that im excited.
well, technically i shld be.
but im just normal.
no tinge of expectancy for you tonight,
so no pressure's on.
no hope for a better someone else,
cos youre all i got nw.

and i knw i shldnt be so easily ascertained
by the pure fact that you like me as much as i wish he did,
but thats hw it works.
hw I work.
today, we'll be watching 237 (some random movie)
and sometimes,
i wonder if it'll ever be what I like.
cos' youre some social butterfly,
fluttering endlessly
whilst i find my lil hole in some corner,
tryin not to get noticed.

and i think,
i'd never really knw you.
with the amt of things you hide from me,
i think even josh cant beat that.
(well technically he DID. but thats cos i didnt knw u)
and with each morning i get past with seeing you instead (of you-knw-who)
i think i'd regret if i didnt say
just how much i wish he was you, and viceversa.
so you cld be the one i miss ever so much
while he walks on by, and waves a friendly good-day.
like i didnt notice him.

rant rant rant.

if you asked me why i hide so many things too,
i'd say its cos youre not the one i'd share it with.
and if you asked me why.
i'd tell you how much i wish you were
but we both knw that he's got me.

wake up with me in the morning
and i'll fall fer you tmr.
if it takes him two seconds to be loved by me
and a whole year for you to be noticed,
i think you knw just where my life's been.

i love you for being that someone
i chose to love instead of him.
but till the day i dont think of him
and where he's been
or what he's doing,
you've got my mind,
but we knw who's got my heart.