how 'bout a cuppa shut-the-fuck-up.

(: im in a slightly better mood.
woooh! good work Greg Berendt! (:
alsooooo,
went to church in the early morning today! :)))))
yes j, a CATHOLIC church.
wahhaha -sniggers-.
felt so good for once,
and i bought an olive wood rosary!!
(: yeshhhh can you just imagine how precious it looks?
was kinda ex. but hell that.
its for a good cause!

anyways,
after mass,
i returned home to a sty.
a pile of shit lying everywhere. just pissed me off.
so i decided to do autumn cleaning. heh. :)
picture me bent on my knees sweeping up every speck of dust with a miniature dustpan.
yes,
that was me today.
now only left my room to clearrrr.
den, STUDY!!
dilini wil be over later to make me dinner and accompany me.
im so fucking bored and i dint wanna watch the davinci code AGAIN.
(once was wayyyyyy more than enough)
so ken dil alex went to chaddy without me!
pout!*
hahah jkjk
at least i got housework done (: yipee.
i literally laid on the floor (to prove a point ok!)
my hse is nice and neat and oh!!
pls tk off ur shoes before stepping on spotless ground (:

last night,
upon realising that i lost anthony's new hp no,
i decided to call someone else.
and first one popped to mind- LIONEL TAN!!
(: yesss my fellow capricorn. hurhur.
(he hates it when i say that)
anywayyyy
talked for really long. and i finally realise
just how much i miss him!!
he's got exams on 8th june
so he probably cant pick me up frm the airport.
but f*ck that!
as long as we meet up,
hell will i be the happiest girl ... on holiday! (:
ilu* dudddddde. and pls ar... listen to the DOCTOR here,
*cough AHEM cough*
bring your lil sis to the hospital todayyy if she's still having a high fever.
pls. 40degrees is NOT mild. and not normal.
if thats ONE thing i learnt from prof Chris lecture,
NEVER IGNORE A FEVER.
heh. -brainwashed-
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im becoming violent, i swear.
thanks to the one and only b*stard we allll know.
i just had an epiphany today at church.
i was moody in prayer
and suddenly, this song hit me.
"He".
i loveeeeeee it. and i suddenly realised (thanks to God's mysterious way of showing that im never alone and that YOU cant hurt me either.)
that everyoneeeeeee i knw can walk away from me
and turn their backs on me-
but he's still there for me.
my friends can side you instead
and your friends can mock me.
but he wont. he wont even judge me like you did.

he can turn the tides
and calm the angry sea
he alone decides who writes a symphony
he lights every star that makes our darkness bright
he keeps watch all thru each long and lonely night.
he still finds the time to hear a child's first prayer
saints and sinners call
and always find him there.
tho it hurts him much to see the way we live.
he'd always say
i forgive.
-He.

i can just imagine how melo the whole church gets when this song plays.
and when we sing it,
we're like angels.- (some just fallen from grace.)
but he didnt give up on me.
Gosh, im so weird now.
ttsk tsk.
feeling a lil queazy rite now.
tink its cos of all the dust ive inhaled in tryin to clean up this shithole.
sucha hoe. ):
i cant cant cant wait for the exams.
(:

ohhh i suddenly thot of this chinese song that my twinnies back home FIRST sang.
(: its called Xiao Wei.
my step mummy taped it down
and till today,
i listen to it whenever i get the chance too.
TOO BAD for them, those cuties,
cos im going home to BRAINWASH THEM.
just listen to the song and TELL ME IT SUCKS.
cos now i officially hate it.
(: thanks very much Dr. Quack.
erghh.

ohhhhhhhh and i just rembrd!
i have to visit thailand while im back in spore!!
mayb by then i can see you linn!
i rreallyyyyyyyy need to go bangkok andddd phuket etcetc
(: yay. i just cannot wait.
ergh ergh ergh POUT POUT.
im still contemplating leaving this shithole.
but my choices are limited to just ONE other place (not spore thankfully)
haha.
shld i go.
and look like a weazily coward and total loser,
BUT also be higher interms of education.
cos well, i always knew i wanted this.
and this is a mill times better.
or shld i stay.
and look totally stoopid esp when im alone on campus.
BUT since i knw my presence bugs you,
MAN do i feel like sticking ard another ten yrs!
it just tickles to know how much selfpreservation you tact up agst me.
its funny cos
while you do YOUR THING,
i'll be skipping a 'loe round your patheticy. (YEP THATS MY WORD BTW)

ohh yes and one last reminder to you::
GET REAL and stop using MY lingos.
quit stealing MY lines
and using MY intonation.
you've taken far more than you ever will deserve.
pls leave MY style for ME. thank you very much.
my words, my phrases, my usuals DO NOT even suit your face and whatever disturbing attitude you have.
its not meant for you to take just to look good (yes i knw i knw, my lingos are great arent they?)
well too bad mr patheticy.
its mine and ive officially signed w my blood.
so TAKE YOUR THREE-INCHES SOMEWHERE ELSE.
hahaha.
-bless your soul. you really think you're in control
*mumbles*
you lowdown, dirty piece of sh*t.
ahhhh that felt good.
pls take your leave now.