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last night i slept for 17hrs, missed work, and need to stop eating.

im happy tho.
better.
becky was drunk, but im still mad at her. no regrets to yell at her and go all crazee abt the ONE THING i trusted her with.
oh what the bleeding fuck was i thinking TRUSTING A BLOODDDDDDDD SISTER right? tsk.

but its just 4 days till my love comes.
time passes wayyy too fast for me.
the next thing i knw, i'll be a real doctor. (yes yes im a fake one now. lol)

i read rach scully's blog entry and it was.... enlightening.
and made me more .... well... non-typical, non-stressed singaporeanish-type girl !
go read it.
AwESOME.

and jst a rip off her blog...
(thanks love! hope u dont mind. hehe)
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And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument. Marriage is considered one milestone of life.

The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

I now say this to you: be hated. It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love. I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.
Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work - the only kind of work that I find palatable.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.
You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.
Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.
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nw, hw freakin awesome is that.