change/

i dont knw what it is that makes me feel different.

maybe its the boy.
maybe its my anti-depression-strategy.

here goes nth-
im changing the mood in this room of mine.
-->cigarette smoke and heater- dont mix.
-->and crumpled worksheets all over the bed, as if to compensate for the lonely nights.
-->and my clothes strewn all over the room.
and floor.
and lappie.

AND
im fixing the things in my life that need to be fixed.
--> my car side mirror and indicator
--> my 4 flat tyres
--> my dents and scratches
--> my headlight's broken.

AND
im fixing my temper
--> less smoking
--> less pigging out due to anger-management misfortune
--> less Sex n the city. SERSIOUSLY.

AND
im correcting my ex- lovelives.
--> no meetin EX unless necessary
--> no replying boys i dont like
--> Re-friending is the limit.

AND
im startin to change my lack of financial planning this whole damnnnn life
--> get a job (done!) and work HARD
--> study hard to prove myself to snobbish docs.
-->SAVE $$
--> pay ppl i owe $ to. once and for alllllll. FUCKKKKK (:
--> buy my own stuff. (my iMac, iPhone, etc etc)
yessss i do want a lotta things, dont i??
--> SHOP FOR LESS BAGS AND SHOES. damnnnnnnnnnnn.

im making a change. im startin with ME. insteaad of waitin on the whole werld to change.
(: im happier today.

i started this TODAY.
today today today.

1. i replaced all 4 flat tyres, on my own accord (not BY myself. but with MY initiative, nt my dad's. haha)
2. i bought my working clothes so i can start waitressin again on SATURDAYYYY (:
3. i bought a STAPLER (yes how pathetic am i right?) so i can start filing my notes and stop throwing them ard the place. (: (: (: (:

see. im not jst all talk no action.
im being so me.