a random, very random, reminisce.

ok so i was clearing up my room to move house
and i was upset- my house isnt approved yet. (so technically im homeless for a bit)
anddddd my finances are low again
thanks to xmas gifts and cards and what not.

boo.

THENNNNNN i decided to distract myself frm all the horrors of life
by cleaning up!

and guess what.
i found my IJTP report book.
*horror music in backgrnd*

yes the single, most feared object of impending doom,
that every IJian , well, feared!

so lets jst smack nostalgia in the face with a review of 2000-2004 shitty grades. (:

Sec 1 1stsem:
English A2
HIgher Chinese B4
Lit, History (basically all humanities) C6
TECHNICAL A1 (i shld be a butch by nw... but ok..)

Sec 1 2nd sem:
English B3
Higher Chinese C5
CCA E8
Humanities C5
Math A1 (*gloats*)
Technical STILL A1 (at this time, im evolving as a bung mentally)

Lets take a look at Sec 1 Physical Fitness Test
weight= 40kg
hgt= 1.56m (you see... this iswhat i call happiness.)
Overall, a SILVER (my ONLY silver in this lifetime)

sec 2 Sem 1:
Everything B4 except higher chinese C6
Math A2 Science A2
Position in class: 38/43
(by now, i realised, my grp of frens never got above 35th postitions) AHHAHHAHAHAH

Physical test: Wgt 42kg, Hgt 1.61m (THIS IS PURE BLISS)
... lets skip the overall award. hahahah

Sem 2:
EVERYTHING B3
math A1, science A2
Position in class: 38/43 (some things never change)

The funny parts come here...

sec 3 sem 1:
everything C6 except math.
oh, Literature- E8 (does this even mean a grade?!?!??!)
Civics and moral ed- B (yes i lack the social skills)
at this time, class position rises to 18th !!! (: (: (:

Sem 2 is boring. lets skip that.
Physical test: Wgt 50kg, hgt 1.63m (at this point, my life was at a standstill. i wanted to die)

Sec 4 sem 2:
Higher Chinese E8
CCA F9

everything that happened in IJ carved me into who i am today
(cliche- live with it)

our L1R5 went from 34 LITERALLY in sec3
to 11 by the preliminarys
and then to O'levels- it was sweeeeeet.

i did well in Lit (which i had E8 for)
my sciences werent C6 for the last time,
and i passed higher chinese.
(:

i knw its a random post abt grades
and this is in no intention to boast about
buttttt
its jst a short break frm cleaning
and a pleasant one!-
to be looking thru IJ times for once,
without the thought of ppl who didnt like me,
pple i liked, a lot,
pple i misunderstood or was misunderstood by.
and reminiscing purely by grades
and PE stuffs. and teacher's comments
and all the failures.
and still- smiling at them cos' i knw i learned frm them
and never once made the same mistake twice.

and now we're all moving onto 3rd year Med in uni,
proud of our achievements
and failures too.
making sure we push each other along as we go.

im nt looking back
and rembring regrets.
im leaving them behind
and walking forward (:

a lil shoutout to markie:
i dont knw if ure reading this,
but i want you to knw that im with you thru this period
whether you feel hopeless or helpless-
you're not.
im here.
i'll study with you every day that i can
i'll sit beside you when you need the shoulder.
and wait for you outside the exam room.
(:
i will be there
always my dear. (:
you'll make it.